.....the waterfall of gadgets family
cars and paperback books. irrelevant
struggles "as specific causes of disease disappear, a
growing proportion of people die of what are
called stress diseases, or
diseases of degeneration caused by stress,
that is, by the wear and tear resulting from
conflicts, shocks, nervous tension,
frustration, debilitating rhythms.." that's
real life. my everyday life. What about this
feeling of never really being inside your own
skin? Let nobody say these are minor details
or secondary points. There are no negligible
irritations: gangrene can start in the
slightest graze. A man carried along by the
crowd, which only he can see, suddenly
screams out in an attempt to break the spell,
to call himself back to himself, to get back
inside his own skin. The tacit
acknowledgments, fixed smiles, lifeless
words, listlessness and humiliation sprinkled
in his path suddenly surge into him, driving
him out if his desires and his dreams and
exploding the illusion of being together.
People touch without meeting; isolation
accumulates but is never realised; emptiness
overcomes us as the destiny of the crowd
gathers. the crowd drags me out of myself
and installs thousands of little sacrifices
in my empty presence......
after Raoul Vanegeim the revolution of everyday life
(from the official radiohead site)