Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Something got a hold of me...
Mood:  on fire
Topic: what had happened was...
Whew!!! is all I can say. Words can't even begin to describe the feeling I have deep down in my soul. Our young people's revival was this past weekend and God moved like I've never sen before. So many things happened i dont even know where to begin..

It was a wonderful weekend of praise, worship, word, miracles and manifestation. So many people received breakthroughs and healing and deliverance it was AMAZING!! People always want proof that God is real or proof of what God can do.. I saw it with my own two eyes.. felt it with my own body and soul.. felt God's spirit flowing through me.. NOTHING in this world can even remotely compare to the move of the Holy Ghost..

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

WHAT THE HAMFAT..
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Lyfe Jennings the whole cd.. ( cop dat.. not bootleg either)
Topic: random thoughts
I'm just got this CD and feelin it doesn't even describe what I'm'm tryin to say. He said the cd existed before he was ever born and it's true.. it's almost like a sermon and the preacher is preaching to you... crazy I'm know

Anyway, I'm'm writing because I'm'm full.. My brain can't hold anymore thoughts. I'm have a million things running around in my head and it's time to release.

First things first.. I'M STRESSED! I am so overwhelmed with so many things. I feel like I'm have turrets and I'm just gonna snap at any moment n yell something crazy at the next person who speaks to me. UGH!

Second.. WHEN DID I BECOME DR. RUTH?? I know I'm a lil wise beyond my years but oohh whee shoot. How did Imanage to become everybody's relationship counselor but never get paid?? I don't mind to help my people out but must you call me with every single detail of every single thing and ask for advice?? I can't even deal with my own issues for helping somebody else. Calgon take me away!! please.. hurrup!

Third.. why is it that when things are going well in your relationship the devil shows up and brings all his lil demons with him?? Exes jus poppin up like popcorn with baby this n boo that n aww baby come on .. BOY PLEASE... Your ship has sailed & sunk. Get the hamfat on somewhere. No turning back..

MAN WHEN IS SCHOOL GONNA BE OVER?? I HAVE THE WORST CASE OF SENIOR-ITIS ever. Nah but seriously, Ijust hate 2 of my classes. They're boring and one of the prof's thinks the whole class is in pre school.. I'm waiting fro her to break out the crayons and paste. any day now..

My brother said something to me last night that was very disturbing and it really made me angry. I have a serious problem with people thinking that beauty is based on size. First and foremost.. being a certain size does not make you any more or less beautiful than anybody else.. It's funny how certain people can't see past a woman's size and truly see her beauty, her strength, and everything else that she embodies.. Just because she's not a size 3 or halfway lookin she's not attractive.. NOT SO.. there are so many beautiful women in so many different sizes but some people get caught up in what society says instead of using their own mind. I'm thankful that I have a man who sees beauty for what it is.. more than just a physical

Speaking of him.. things are progressing.. It's a journey. Each day brings something new. a new , a new reason to love one another, and a new reason to one another and what we share. It's strange to think that someone you've been friends with for about a third of your life could turn out to be the love of your life. I can truly say that this experience is and has been a blessing. I'm learning a lot about myself, about relationships, compromise, what it really means to be supportive. I know this is part of God's plan of growth for me. I'm still on potter's wheel and even if this relationship doesn't work out in the long run.. I'm appreciating and enjoying every second of it. It's nice to have someone in your corner cheering you on, holding your hand, loving you, putting band aids on the wounds, wiping away the tears and pushing you when you're afraid to move. If you have it.. cherish it.. if you don't pray you find it.

I think I've said more than enough so I'll get back to enjoying my music.. Lyfe is truth.. check out the cd if you don't have it.. it speaks to the multitudes. Especially if you're in a relationship.. MUST BE NICE

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: I love the Lord Whitney Houston- Preacher's Wife soundtrack
Topic: what had happened was...
Well it's been quite a while since I updated this thing and so much has happened since then. I don't even know where to begin.. Well I guess I could refer you to the previous post and update that situation...
Well.. I'm still in shock and now I know for myself that it's really real. My cousin & I went to florida for about a week and hung out on the beach and spent time with my s.o., let's call him O. Anywho.. O and I had a wonderful time. We hung out & did the tourist things, went to the beaches, out to dinner, went to CoCo Walk & a latin concert. We hung out with his family, did some shopping (He even helped me pick out some clothes). We had some long talks and did romantic things.. we walked on the beach at night, held hands n watched the waves. We sat on the beach & talked while he massaged my feet (yes yall I actually let him touch my feet .. shockin aint it!) and laughed at each other a lot. It was great.. I found out a lot about him and myself during the visit.. and I think we're gonna b alright :)

WiOz

Thursday, June 9, 2005

Mood:  hungry
Now Playing: All that I need (meth & mary)
Topic: what had happened was...
I'm got clotheslined by love. Who would have ever imagined that I'd be sitting here writing an entry about someone who's been my friend for eightt long years. But none the less.. here I'm am. All this time He'd been telling me and I'd been on lil Helen Keller mode. just couldn't see nothing. But I'm soo glad that I've seen the light.

Sometimes you just have to look at things and wonder what the hamfat was I'm thinking?? Why didn't I see that then? or where was I when this was going on? Doesn't really matter because everything has a time and a place. This is our season. It's just nice to have something genuine and someone who loves you without question.

I told him to show me that he loves me if he's serious and he did his best to try. Then one day it was like somebody turned the light on and I'm was standing in a room full of I love you's. Like I'd had been storing up old movie reels and they were all playing at once. All this time he'd BEEN showing me his love but I didn't see it. I guess I wasn't trying to see it. But now I do.. and I'm thankful for it.

It's amazing that he was patient all this time. He told me I was worth waiting for and he would keep on waiting until I'm'm ready. The thing that really got me was.. the very first time he ever spoke to my father he told him to start saving his money because he's going to marry me. How cool is that!! I really didn't think he was goin to do it.. can't wait to see what happens next

Monday, March 7, 2005

looking back
Mood:  a-ok
Topic: love
it's funny what you see when you look back on a situation or experience. You wonder why you didn't see it at first, but I guess sometimes we only see what we want to see or think we should see. In the past couple of weeks I've seen a lot of things I didn't notice before because I had blinders on.

once the blinders came off I found out that I had been missing out on a lot of love. I realized I hadn't really been paying attention to someone who had been trying to love me for years. I had to sit down and take a loong look at things and I thought.. what the hamfat was I ??

sometimes things come from the most unexpected places or people. I remember a while back he used to tell me he liked me or whateva but I never thought he was serious.. just said ah whateva. But he was patient.. told me it's ok..I have patience and some things are worth waiting for.

I'm not into anything, but my eyes are open and he got my attention. so who knows what will happen. I'm looking forward to finding out.

Monday, February 14, 2005

it's official...
Mood:  don't ask
I hate Valentines day. I've never had a nice v-day.. not once. Never had a real valentine or even had a valentines day go right... and this year is no different. everything that could go wrong today.. went wrong. lets start at the beginning..

i didnt have a valentine

i get to my first class and its cancelled, so i got up early and drove and sat & waited on a parking space for nothing..

the person i wanted to be my valentine.. already had a valentine and didnt seem to interested in what i had 2 say in the "valentine" i made for him.

got bad news about a visit i was looking forward to..

spent 3 hours waiting on my friend so we could go eat lunch, only to get a call from her telling me that she was already eating and i should walk over to where she is..

lost my phone charger... that was $30 wasted

got a call from my friend saying.. ya know i thought about sending you some flowers BUT...

got a movie that i've been wanting to see for months and the dvd doesn't work

went to get dessert with a friend and dropped chocolate sauce on one of my fvorite blouses

then to top it all off.. i get to the store and the fabric I wanted was all gone..

what else could go wrong???.. i don't think i could handle much more.. i'm glad today is over. i think next year i'm just gonna stay in the bed all day on feb 14.. or sleep through it.. maybe it'll b better

Saturday, January 1, 2005

A New Year
Mood:  a-ok
God has blessed me to see another year come and go and I'm'm truly thankful. So many didn't make it , but I'm thank God for keeping my loved one ans supplying my every need. I'm'm looking forward to each new thing that this year will bring and I'm excited about what God has planned for me in 2005. I'm can feel big things in store.

My prayer for everybody else is that you would grow closer to God and that He would bless u with all you stand in need of.

Saturday, December 25, 2004

what i got for Christmas
Mood:  incredulous
the only thing i asked for... I GOT TO TALK 2 MY CAMPBELL'S SOUP!!! *runs n turns a cartwheel* whooo hooo!! thank ya Jesus! and satin & lisa too!

Sunday, December 19, 2004

Mood:  lazy
new layout.. post coming soon!!

Saturday, December 4, 2004

some things never change
Mood:  irritated
Topic: what had happened was...
why is it that some things nevr change.. different person.. same situation. different person same issues. different person same disappointment.. ugh..

thas all i can say about it right now.

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