30.6.2002, the day from hell.....
"Nick, your solo is next. Good luck buddy." Brian said and smiled. Kevin came out of the stage and Nick went in. Brian watched while his best buddy came to the light. Fans went totally nuts when Nick's familiar figure came out of the darkness. The first notes of I need you tonight started and Nick began to sing:
"I need you tonight, I need you right now, I know deep within my heart, Doesn't matter if it's wrong or right, I Need you to........."
Then they heard a shot, Nick fell down, in the middle of the word. He still had his microphone in his hand and everybody heard when he screamed in pain. Everything happened so fast. Brian ran to the stage, he fell onto his knees beside Nick and screamed:
"Somebody call 911"
Brian stroke Nick's face with his hand and cried. He looked into Nick's eyes and saw just pain and fear. "Brian," Nick moaned, "Tell my family that I love them." "You're not dying" Brian cried. "Nick please speak to me, you're not dying." "I love you, buddy" Nick whispered when he closed his eyes. Brian knew that his best buddy was dead. Backstreet was dead. Brian hugged him and cried hard. "I love you too Nick," he whispered.
::End of Flashback::
Brian went to the kitchen, he couldn't sleep anymore. Every time when he closed his eyes he saw Nick's eyes, his painful look when he was dying. Brian drank a little bit of water and then he went to the living room. He turned on the TV and started to watch MTV. He remembered the nights when he and Nick had watched TV all night and talked and laughed.
Suddenly he felt something on his shoulder, a hand. On the couch, a familiar figure was sitting beside him. Nick.... Brian shook his head and tried to think if he was still asleep.
"You're not dreaming, Brian. It's me. Why are you trying to forget me, buddy?" Nick asked softly. "It hurts too much to remember" Brian whispered. "I know it hurts, but when time goes on, someday you can look at the old pictures of us and laugh at our stupid jokes and what we've done together." Nick said. "Thanks Nick" "And, Brian remember, I'm always with you, watching what you do and what you think." "Always?" "Yeah, I'll always know what my B-rok is doing, it's my job, man. I'm your guardian angel now." Nick smiled. Brian was speechless. Nick laughed and rolled his eyes. "Smile, maybe your ugly face would look a bit better then." He said to Brian "You haven't changed a bit." Brian said. "Nah, I've changed a lot, but inside I'm still your Frack who did practical jokes to you. And I'm still doing them to you, the only difference is that you can't hit me after them." Nick laughed. "I thought that your job was to be my guardian angel." Brian said, smiling. "Do you remember when your alarm went off in the middle of the night?" Nick asked. "Was it you? You almost got me to get heart attack!!!!!" Brian yelled. "See? I'm still your Frack," Nick grinned. "Don't do it again, please," Brian smiled. "I won't cuz it's an old joke now, but I have a lot of new ones. I have to go now, but don't forget me, buddy. I'm always there for you, Frick." Nick said and then he disappeared.
Brian couldn't help, but smile. Slowly he went to his bedroom and took a large box from his closed. He opened it, there were all his Backstreet things, he had put them into it when Nick died. The gold and platinum records, their albums and singles, a lot of photographs, demos, and then he saw the familiar album. Nick's first and only solo album. It was released in the summer of 2000 when they had a big break with Backstreet boys. Brian put the CD into the player and Nick's voice filled the room.
Brian looked into the box again and the he saw the necklace. It was Nick's. Brian had taken it when Nick died to his arms. Slowly he put it onto his neck and whispered: "I will never forget you Nick Carter"
When the night continued Brian had put all the gold and platinum records onto his walls and now he looked at them proudly. "Backstreet will always be there, no matter what." He thought.
Then he took the photographs out of the box and started to look at them. He and Nick. The boys on the Bahamas. Howie and Nick. He and Nick on the stage. AJ's birthday. Kev and Nick. Howie and AJ on the Backstreet bus. Nick alone with a strange look on his face. Brian laughed and looked at the next picture. The boys on the MTV music awards. Kev. He, Howie and AJ. Nick and Kev. Aaron and the boys. The boys dancing on the stage. 14 years old Nick. The boys on the stage in the Sea world. Brian remembered that day like if it was yesterday, it was their first show together. Brian had joined the band just a few days earlier. He laughed at the picture, they all looked so nervous, and Nick was so small, he was shorter than Howie, but he was just 13 in this picture.
He looked into the box. There were still all his Backstreet videos, then he saw some photographs under the videos. Nick's funeral pictures. He hadn't ever looked at them, he took them and looked at the first picture. A green coffin. A single tear slipped down to Brian's cheek. He took the next picture. Nick's last sleeping place, but when Brian looked at it closer he saw something beside the grave. It was Nick, he stood there, and looked right into the camera. Tears were running on Brian's face, but he didn't feel pain like before, he just missed Nick so much.
Suddenly he heard the doorbell ring and he run downstairs. When he opened the door there was nobody. But Brian knew who it was.... Nick, of course. Trying to cheer his buddy up. "See ya in heaven, buddy." Brian whispered and waved to the sky. The sun was rising and for a second Brian saw a figure standing beside him.