Rain falls like an ocean of sadness burst from heaven itself as the angels shed tears of sorrow from your spiteful words. Drifting I close my eyes and reflect upon the glow that I once saw in your eyes. I can almost dilute the pain of each drop into simple wetness on my skin and not burning reminders of the day we declared our love. So vivid is it that I can remember the warmth of your breath slowloy whispering, "I'll love you forever..." while I squeezed our bodies together till I thought we were actually one. Now all that I hold is a memory of our promise that you have shattered as my creator does with a blinding cry through the night sky. He knows my intentions and I am confused by the shaking of the earth as the rose I never delivered falls from my hand and lands with a deafening sound that I am not sure is the breaking of my heart or protest of a thousand weeping angels. As I cut across my vein with the diamond that is hardest second only to your heart, I see a million images refract in the symbol of our pledge and cringe. I laugh at each red drop that carries away a memory of you as I gaze toward the endless sky to ask, "Why do you cry? Who of you has felt pain paralleled to mine!?" And suddenly the rain stops and all is still as one answers, "I have my son, so that you don't have to."
Torment:
You allow yourself to get involved But we both know you are not ready And the wall around me slowly comes down With the assurances of your devotion and love Yet you prove unworthy and I know I can do better But fight my feelings of the loss I feel with you gone And forgive and forget in order to try again, and gamble my heart But what a waste it was as you slowly broke me down Knowing that your painful words And insincere gestures made you a charlatan of love Although somehow, you fight my leaving and your desperation shows I can see that it's not me in your heart, but just a figure to fill a role And I hate you for everytime you said the word 'forever' Playing with the the love and life of another with omnipotent powers That never should of been bestowed on such a Janus-faced angel. Yet still, even through all the pain that races through my blood and explodes in my wasteland of a heart I find the joy of memories past and fight your infectous love That has taken control of my being like a virus And silenced my need to be free While spawning the devastating torment that is 'love'
You'll be the one:
Love is supposed to be forever, everyone knows that but you. One day you'll love someone who won't love you back and then feel the pain I do. You try to deny your feelings by ommiting my exsistance, and fool yourself into thinking you won't miss it. But my very presence makes you uneasy, and you know deep inside my feelings are true. Sadly you are scared of being the one in pain and invent enough hypocrisy to believe that we are through. To say I'll just forget you...well I could tell a thousand better lies. But when you finally realize how much I loved you, you'll be the one who cries...Displacement:
Set apart, I am displaced
By the theory of love
And the notion of setting it free
Will bring it back to you forever, though I die
So as I am buried, I am displaced
Words of insincerety are the weight of my burial
And your lies eclipse my light of hope
Leaving me blinded to the truth that is you
Reaching forward, I am displaced
Just out of reach of your heart
And the strings to pull quite your emotions
Which fuel your fire of freedom, and leaving
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