Timothy with his cousin Christopher. I think Christopher was finally happy to no longer be the "youngest boy" in the family. Timothy was the first boy born into our family since Christopher in 1993. He was so good with him.
Timothy and his cousin Daniel. It was so undescribable to see my nieces and nephews holding him. I had watched them grow up since they were that little and it was really special to see them holding my very own.
Timothy with his cousin Stephanie. She is the oldest out of all my nieces and nephews. I don't fear the thought of her forgetting about Timothy like I do my younger ones. Since she is older, she understands more about what happened. With the other ones being so young when he passed away, I know they won't remember as well...if at all when they are older. That's why I'm so grateful for the pictures I have of Timothy to share with them.
This is Timothy's cousin Kassi. I was 12 weeks pregnant with Timothy when she was born. I was excited that the two of them were going to be pretty close in age when they were growing up. She was only 8 months old when Timothy passed away...but as a family, we will always remind her about her cousin Timothy.
Timothy's cousin Jordyn. We never got a picture of Timothy and her together. She talks about Timothy a lot...wondering where he is. She asks me all the time on the phone, "Is Timothy in Heaven?" It pains me to think that they will never know him. I had always wanted my child to be included in getting to play with all of his little cousins in the backyard at our family gatherings. Times like that, I often picture him there...but that's all I can do and that's all I am to be given.
Timothy's cousin Madison. She always refers to Timothy as, "My baby cousin up in Heaven." She would always walk around asking people, "Where's your baby?" When she would get to me, I would answer or someone else would answer for me...we would say to her that my baby was up in Heaven. After telling her that, she would just look at us funny, pause and say, "Yeah, OK...But where's your baby?" After hearing the same answer over and over again, I think she finally got it and that's why she refers to him as:"My baby cousin up in Heaven."
Timothy's cousin Katrina. She is our newest addition to the family. She was born just two months after Timothy passed away. Katrina was the first baby I held after Timothy's death...and it felt really good. I could tell while holding her, my arms really missed the feel of Timothy's gentle warm body. She was born in the hospital that Timothy was brought to when he passed away...so that part was hard. Being in the same surroundings just a few months prior for an event that nobody wanted to be there for...mourning the death of a child. Now I was able to be there for celebrating a new life for one. I couldn't get over how much she looked like Timothy. She has olive skin, pretty long eye-lashes, a perfectly shaped mouth and big wide eyes. She never got to meet her Uncle Gerry or her cousin Timothy, but maybe through this website...I truly hope and pray that she will.
~To My Cousins...~
Sorry I didn't get to stay...
to laugh, run and play...
to be there by your side.
I'm sorry that I had to die.
God sent me down to be with you,
to make your loving hearts anew.
To help you look up at God and little me.
Stephanie, Daniel, Christopher, Jordyn, Madison, Katrina and Kassi...
I wish I could have stayed.
God didn't take me because he's mad...
he didn't send me to make you sad.
But to give us all a chance to be a love so precious...
don't you see?
Up here, no trouble do I see and the pretty angels sing to me.
The streets of gold is where I play...
you'll come here too...someday.
Until the day you join me here,
I'll love all of you so dear.
Each breeze you feel and see,
brings LOVE and a KISS from me.
Love from your Angel,
Timothy
