Lost

by: Webmistress Brandy

My life is without meaning
I feel as though I am of no use
As the wall builds around me
I self inflict my own abuse

I am walking in no direction
I only know I'm walking
Around and around in circles
Making my way back to the beginning

I'm lost
Trying to find the answers
Searching for a way
Cursed into blinding darkness
I'll make it through, I pray

I seem so strong and indestructable to you
But I'm the same scared girl I always was
Just an average Jane
Trying to rise above

I try so hard to be you
The perfect one that everyone adores
I wish my life was that sheltered
Perfection is what I yearn for

I guess it's hard to see my envy
Or, for that matter, a feeling of any sort
The only thing that is clear is my anger
When my temper starts to retort

I'm lost
Trying to find the answers
Searching for a way
Cursed into blinding darkness
I'll make it through, I pray

My sadness is hidden
That is much to weak a feeling to show
My heart blocks out your love
So my love for other things cannot grow

I can't tell you my problems
I wouldn't even know where to begin
I'm not sure where it started
I only wish it would end
And I know

I'm lost
Trying to find the answers
Searching for a way
Cursed into blinding darkness
I'll make it through, I pray

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