The Other Side

i walk into the room
you don't have to scream i can hear you
bad trip, the needle sticks
you get your kicks from confrontation
i try to make it past
i don't wanna get into it right now
can't this family have one day
to get away from all the pain

i'm sick of all the heat
you can taste the hate in the air
running through this family, uncomfortably
it's burning me
is anybody there
in your eyes there's nothing to see
just because your dreams have died
don't drag me down, i've still got mine.

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Yesterday all i did was piss people off. :-/ Then I got into it with my dad and now its official...i hate that muther fucker. I'm moving with my mom or Roni. Probly roni...cuz my mom just got laid off and she doesnt exactly have much room for me. But i dunno....i'll see.

Its just fucked up.

..Music...
I got the new Smile Empty Soul and Saliva CD from Ryan for my b-day! i love the SES one....theres these 2songs that remind me of my family....


silhouettes above the cradle hold me down
they won't let me go the wrong way
my mother taught me all the fables, told me how
in the end all the sinners have to pay
but...

i don't wanna live like my mother
i don't wanna let fear rule my life
and i don't wanna live like my father
i don't wanna give up before i die

he worked so hard his bones are breaking
he wore them down but long ago he lost the feeling
his good intentions leave me shaking, show me how
i don't ever want to end up like he did
and...

[chorus]

when i have kids
i won't put any chains on their wrists, i won't
i'll tell them this
there's nothing in this world that you can't be if you want it enough

Fuckin Shit...
God damnit...yea I just went down to get money outta my room to go shopping today and my fucking $100 bill is missing. So i looked everywhere and i cant find it and yea now im pissed. GOD DAMNIT!!!!!!!

I went to Ryans today...he's no longer pissed at me ( :-D ) and we just chilled there and we eventually passed out cuz we were tired....then he took me home cuz he had to work. That sucked...cuz i wanted to spend more time with him. :-/

Now I have to listen to my dad's shit cuz i lost the money he gave me. BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHBLAH YOUR FUCKING STUPID BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHBLAH thats all im hearin. yea i love my dad. haha arent i cute when i lie?