How will I be remembered
One perfect"How will I be Remembered?", the question of the year. Will I be remembered as the book worm, yearbook tyrant, buddy trainer, the goof ball, smart ass, computer geek, all round bad person. I always wonder what people think about me and recently I have been able to see who is a true friend, and who is just playing around. The ones that are just "playing around" try to hide it but it is just coming threw. I sometimes wish they would just come out and tell me they don't like me instead of playing games. Come on, we are graduating in less that two months, why keeps secrets. They may never see me again after we graduate. No one said that when we have reunions and go off to college we have to see each other. Of course there will be a few people that I will miss when I go off to college. I don't want to say any names(BRITTANY). Well, to sum all of this up I would say that most people would remember me as the goof ball that was in yearbook and was the trainer.

P.S. I really hope Brittany reads this.

Perfection

Perfection is impossible,
Never good enough,
You always miss the pitch,
You always say the wrong thing,
You always go the wrong way.
In others eyes there is always something wrong.
Perfection is impossible, that’s what pushes me.

Perfection is impossible.
There is always something better,
I can never make the perfect Yearbook cover,
Write the perfect English paper,
Read books quick enough,
I set the bar way too high.
Perfection is impossible, but I can be close.

Perfection is impossible.
There is always someone better,
Studying, practicing, preparing.
Always a step ahead, but never behind.
Looking over my shoulder,
Telling me I am wrong.
Perfection is impossible, but I can be better.

Perfection is impossible,
And it is all because of me.
In the world of my mind I am perfect,
But in the real world I am less than perfect,
The two worlds are waging a war that I am losing.
Perfection is impossible, but that’s what makes me try.

Tyler Jameson

Seperation
Now Playing: Coldfade
Slowly it is hiting home that I will be leaving soon for new places and to meet new people. Wonderful new things that will change my personality, (We all know that wouldn't hurt), and my friends. More than likely I will find new friends and slowly fade off into my own life. I sometimes wonder if I can handle the world out there and it's new and changing people. I'd like to think that I can handle it but I know inside that it will effect me in a more strong way. I'd like to think that I would get better but we all know that once rotten always rotten. Self-esteem

Its been a long time.
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Well, recently one of my friends reminded me that I have this site. She got her own site and I was just reminded. Well, My senior year is almost over and I am ready. Crow is getting pissy so I am ready to give of the Training job. Yearbook is slowly running down. And UIL is this week. Wonderful stuff.

Paperclips
I was sitting at work today trying to find something to do, looking at papers and stuff on my desk. I started to think, who made paperclips? All paper clips are bent pieces of metal. Who had time to think of that. Really, and was he laughed at when he showed the public his great invention that would solve all our paper holding problems. Did they say he was crazy, and was just ranting on about his invention. Paperclips, the great invention of a man with to much time on his hands.

Rednecks
A different kind of people. A people who drink, smoke and believe in strong family connections. Mostly to the owner of the faststop on the corner for liquoir but strong connections. They come in different shapes and sizes and live almost everywhere. Ranging from Texas to Wisconsin to oklahoma. You must be wondering where I get this information. Well, half of my family are "Rednecks". A curse I must live with for the rest of my life. Yes, I will survive. You should worry about me because they might just rub off on me. Time will tell whether I will become a "Redneck".

Soda
What can I say about soda. I can't live without it. You know how some people can't live without things like electricity or food. Well, I need soda. It's what wakes me up and keeps me awake. It's my kind of coffee. It come in different flavors but has the same effect on me. It's the only thing that keeps me from being shy. I tried to go a week without soda, that didn't work out. By the end of the week I was clawing at the walls yelling, "Soda, I must have soda.". What doesn't help is that I am at home a lot of the time and I just drink and drink until I am happy. At work I get a soda or I'm lost. I might drink about 5 to 6 sodas a day. I don't think I'm going to get better. I'm going to end up being one of those little old men who sit in rocking chairs and talk about the old days when all I did was drink soda and work. That's what I have to look forward too.

Comedy CD’s
This has got to be the best thing since the remote control for the TV. CD’s with comedy stand up on them. I am in heaven. Instead of having to go to a big stadium to listen to a comedian, I can wait till his CD comes out and sit on my ass and listen to it will I’m watching Futurama. Now, I can be a Lazy ass and listen to comedian like Rodney Carrington, Ron White, and Larry the Cable guy tell jokes about sex, marriage, and best of all drinking. Ow, my life is complete. I can die happy.

Simple Life
Ever wonder what life would be like if it was super easy. Like all you had to do was sleep, eat, and stay home. That would be great. Your mail was delivered to the chair you are sitting in, the channel on the TV changes just with a simple thought. Or maybe food that cooked itself, came too you, and feed itself to you. Ow, that would be wonderful. The simple life (Not the TV show). Only problem would be that at one point we would be so fat that we would die where we sat. That really killed the moment. Well, I’m looking forward to the future where we can be lazy asses, and be happy with that.

Computer Games
Recently I was watching my brother play a computer game of his. "Unreal Tournament 2004". Ok, thats great but thats what got me start thinking how the games they have today are so much more advanced than when I was a kid. When I was a kid we had Pak Man, ping pong, and a computer game with a little guy fighting aliens. Great time. Now we have game like Star Wars Jedi Knights, Kirbys great adventure, Zelda on gameboy. I'm not dissing the new games but I miss the simpler times when all you had to do is collect little dots and hit dots back and forth.