Rating: NC 17
Author: Me! Trina!
Summery: Shannon and Matt sort our their true feelings
Notes: This is a sequel to my other fic "How Does It Feel"
"Mmm yeah...you like that don't you bitch?" Shannon moaned and he thrust into Matt's ass over and over. "Uh huh mmm godd yesss don't stop please!" Shannon grinned gripping his cock and slamming against Matt's spot has hard as he could. "Oh fuck Shaaaaaannnn!!!" Matt came hard tightening around Shannon and pushing him over the edge.
"Mmmm fuck....go clean yourself up then come back to bed" Shannon said slipping out of him.
"OK Shan." He said quickly getting up and heading in to the bathroom.
Shannon lay there, thoughts racing through his head. It had been almost a month since that little episode in the shower that changed everything. Was he happy with how things were now? Yes, and no. He had Matt, but not the way he wanted him. He sighed rolling onto his side.
I have Matt, I should be happy. I have his body...his touch...his taste...and I can have them whenever I like. He even hungers for me, he gets off so much on the change in me. I can tell... I made him do things he's never even dreamt of before... but..I don't have his heart...the only thing I really ever wanted. I can't even be nice to him, if I let up a bit I'm afraid it will all slip away and it will go back to the way it was. Matt's...he's not one that will just give up control....it has to be taken. I realized that about a week after I snapped.... I came to my senses...but I couldn't stop doing this to him for fear of losing him all together...
Shannon rolled over trying to fall asleep before Matt finished up. The urge to cuddle with him and touch him in a loving way was so strong when they were that close. Most of the time when he got an urge like that he'd just grab him and fuck the hell out of him. It was the only contact with Matt he allowed himself.
Matt hurried in the shower and hopped quickly back in to bed. He looked over seeing Shannon sound asleep and frowned sighing to himself.
Things have changed so much... I feel things... things I've never felt before. About myself and about Shannon. When he took me like that....realized just what I had been doing to him...just how far I had pushed him.... it hurt both psychically and mentally....but the pleasure....
He shuddered thinking of it.
I've never felt anything like it...so I submitted completely...utterly....in pleasure and shame.....I was ashamed for what I had done to him... I want to bring it up....say sorry...but.... maybe there's no going back...maybe I've lost that sweet Shannon for good. Maybe this cold..empty person is all that's left...and I've pushed him to this...
He softly touched Shannon's face as he slept, and whispered. "I'm so sorry Shan....what have I done to you...."
I know he had to have wanted me for a while.... I mean when he snapped that way all his desired were pushed to the front... and I was what he desired....I never even thought of him like that.....hell I never even thought of any man like that.....but Shan is beautiful...it makes me think.....he was attracted to me when I was more myself....so dominant and very male...
Matt bit his lip all the thoughts in his head pushing him towards one thought.
He didn't want me like this....didn't want me to be his bitch... he wanted me to be the dominant one.... treat him like I did all those girls..... he wanted to be the one under me writhing and begging for more....maybe...that's the way to get him back.... give him what he's always wanted....
Matt grinned darkly a plan forming in his mind. He knew what he had to do. It would all be worth it in the end if he could get Shan back. He longed to see his smile again, hear him laugh. God I'm turning in to such a sap, must be the whole being a bitch thing. He thought laughing to himself, then rolling over and drifting off to sleep.
The next night Matt laid in bed while Shannon slipped into the shower. Shannon had ordered him to wait naked on the bed for him. But Matt had other plans. He got up quickly walking to the bathroom and stepping into the shower.
"Hey Shan...." He said grinning.
"What the fuck are you doing in here?"
"I just came to give you what you want Shan...." He licked his lips and pinned Shannon to the wall. Their drenched bodies pressed tightly together, Matt's hard cock throbbing between them.
"I I I..I wanted you to go wait on the fucking bed for me." He said trying to sound forceful but the stuttering and shaky tone in his voice sounded anything but.
"Mmm....that's not what you want...." he leaned in whispering.. "You want fucked...you always have....you ache for me Shan.....I can see it in your eyes....my cock is what you've always wanted..."
Shannon shuddered his own cock was hard and throbbing against Matt's now. "I...I don't....your the bitch..." He panted and whimpered.
"Mmm..." Matt grinned. "That's only cause you got tired of waiting for me....you snapped...." Matt ground his cock against Shannon's...."Stop fighting Shan....give in....you can't win..."
"Uhhhh godd Matt...." Shannon moaned and whimpered his whole body one fire with need. He had always wanted Matt this way...dreamed of it..ached for it.
"Uh huh....you like that don't you....mmmm" He lowered his head softly sucking over the pulse in Shannon's neck. Shannon moaned loudly his body arching against Matt's as he ground back against him.
"Mmm yess Matt...more...please..." the whimpering pleading tone in Shannon's voice made Matt's shudder, pre-cum oozing from his cock as it throbbed against his.
"Spread your legs." He said breathing hotly in Shannon's ear. Shannon melted completely giving himself over to Matt and the desire he had felt for so long. He spread his legs slowly looking up into Matt's eyes.
"Mmm god....you're so beautiful Shan...why didn't I see it before....." He lowered his head kissing Shannon deeply, lifted his leg hooking it around his waist and thrust deep inside of him.
"Ahhhh mmmmm Mattttt!" Shannon cried out at the feel of Matt filling him completely. So thick and throbbing inside of him. "Mmmm godd mmm your so fucking tight Shan.." Matt panted not believing the way it felt to be inside of him, he'd never felt anything like this..it was pure heaven.
"Moooore mmmm Matt please...fuck me...."
"Ooh god yes..."
Matt moved into him over and over. Slow and deep, pressing against Shannon's spot just enough to drive him crazy then pulling almost completely out of him and doing it again. Shannon's pants and cries of pleasure filled the room.
"Matt uhhh mmmm don't stop uhhh godd close..touch me..." He whimpered writhing against Matt.
"Uhhh mm fuck..yeah mmm close too..." He gripped Shannon's cock stroking it hard and fast as he began moving into him faster, slamming hard against his spot over and over.
"Uuuuuh ahhhhh MATTTTTTT!!!!!" Shannon screamed flooding into Matt's hand and clenching tightly around him as he came again and again.
"Ooooh fucckkkk SHANNNN!" He moaned loudly as he came deep inside of Shannon filling him over and over.
The didn't speak a word as the stepped out the shower and made their way to the bed. They lay there in silence neither knowing what to say.
"Shan..I.." Matt bit his lip. "I'm sorry for what I did to you... I.. it was wrong and I know I hurt you...and I turned you into this cold empty person.....I just want the real Shan back."
Shannon sighed "I've been myself for weeks now.... I just.... I was afraid I'd lose you if I didn't keep control over you...I've just wanted you for so long...and not like that....I wanted something more then fucking.....but if that's all I could have I didn't wanna lose it...and if I had to break you down to get it then I would..."
Matt pulled Shannon close "But you don't Shan..." He looked in to his eyes. "I want more too....you made me realize how much you meant to me....I missed the real you so much....your smile...your laugh....and I can't apologize enough for what I put you through...I think I was scared to let you get close to me...cause I felt something I didn't want to..."
Shannon smiled, wrapped his arms around Matt and snuggled close. "I forgive you..if you'll forgive me for taking you the way I did...I just couldn't take any more...I wasn't me really...."
Matt smiled holding him. "I do forgive you....besides..." He grinned....I've never cum so hard in my whole life....it wasn't exactly something I wanna forget any time soon...." He leaned down kissing the top of Shannon's head.
Shannon giggled. "You know I love you don't you?" He said biting his lip "I have since the first day I came home with Jeff and saw you there..." Matt blushed a bit "I know you do....I figured that out too.....why else would you put up with my shit...although I didn't know you've felt this way for so long..." Shannon smiled..."It was a tough thing to keep to myself....even worse cause I thought I had no shot with you." Shannon said frowning a bit.
Matt tilted Shannon's head up and looked into his eyes. "I love you too, you know that don't you?" he lowered his head and kissed him before he could answer. They both moaned softly into each others mouths. "Mmm I just have a fucked up way of showing it." Matt said laughing softly. "Well, you better watch it, cause if you try that shit with me again I'll switch right back to evil Shan and you won't know what hit you. Got it?" He grinned sucking softly at Matt's neck.
"Mmm got it...." Matt said laughing softly and running his hands through Shannon's hair. "But I kinda liked evil Shan. Can he come out and play once in a while?" He said grinning down at Shannon. "If you're a good boy I'll see what I can do about getting him to make a run in sometime..." Shannon said giggling softly.
"Mmm good...." Matt sighed, his eyes slowly drifting shut.
"Mmm you better be..." Shannon grinned falling asleep in his arms.
