Forgiveness in the House of Our Father

used and broken
and worse: abandoned
for all your nice words
you left me stranded

with the guilt that you gave me
with the lie that you made me
and I'm done being angry
because I'm done being yours

ignored and forgotten
and still: rejected
for all your loving words
I had not expected

this guilt that you gave me
the lie that you made me
but I'm done being angry
because I'm done being yours

defiant and distant
and yet: still on the search
despite all your abuse
for something in this church

without that guilt that you gave me
free of the lies that you made me
I'm so tired of being angry
do you still think I'm yours?