Its amazing how you can feel totally in control of your like and then in a whirlwind have it completely change its direction. I feel so dumb even writing this about a guy. But these are the crazy emotions i am going through right now. I am so afraid that this is all too good to be true. I know my wonderful dream is going to end, i am just not this lucky. I don't even remember what it is like to be in a relationship. I am so "in like" with this guy. Like more than i have been in almost in 2 years. Even when i started dating Jason i didn't feel this. I thought he and i were going to get married. My mind is so full of mixed emotions. Go ahead and keep living this awesome dream....or hold back, don't get hurt... My life is so crazy right now, it seems like he is the only one that holds any stability. Am i ready for this? I really don't know...but i am going to let it go as i can.