"Play List"
Master Len,
You know who you are,,,,and
Who you belong to. I let you ask questions because I want you to be content,Maybe
even Happy, But I dont have to do it.
These words of Yours are
true, i want this M/s to work....i want all my dreams to come true that
i have ever had about this
lifestyle...my fantasies...and Yours..
The times that i have tried
and didn't make it was the times that my life shattered between two
seperated sides.......one....my
love for You....two...was not being what i know i am.
Yet, i know as a submissive,
i have things that i have no desire to do in this lifestyle.
As i know there is some
things that You don't like in this lifestyle.
Master as You, i want this
journey of ours to be so thrilling and exciting, our relationship that
we have had for the last
two years has been a journey, we have learned a lot about each other,
and we have took the good
as well as the bad....i feel like we have been through life's test of our
own in the last two years.
i don't want to argue or
have disagreements....as You say...this is not what it is about...
Its the special bond, the
deeper love....i have felt that being with You already as a submissive,
and i love You with all
my Heart, body, mind and soul...
By i making this list now...as
i have Total Surrender to You....that is if You still accept it after reading
this....hopefully if will
help in making our journey a awesome one...the one that we both want.
i went to the checklist that
You had found Master and gave me the url for and went through it.
If not relating to a felmale...course
didn't put it on here.
NO means that you will
NOT do that item under any circumstances.
Breath Control
Brown showers
Catheterization
Eating/drinking own waste
Golden showers
other Water Sports
Cutting
Given away
Humiliation in public
Knifeplay/GunPlay
Serving as ashtray
Serving as furniture
Serving as a pony
Swapping
Injections
Speculums (Anal)
dilation
Exhibitionism
slutty clothing(public)
Voyeurism( M/ w/others
Competitions (with other
subs)
i didn't put "Piercing" on
the NO list for the simple reason is.....someday in the future i might
be
comfortable with it....instead
i put it on a list where it would mean possible if both comes to terms
with it.
Some on the list i wasn't even certain of....
You said Master....that one
has to drive and the other follow....i need/want to follow You...and give
myself
to You....i want it to be
a journey that we will never forget....
i want the conflict between
us to stop....i write in my journal everything now that i am feeling,
with the emotions and things
that i am faced with....yet at times i feel like i am writing in clear
air.
I feel this has to be put
here....because it is something that has come between us...more then once
and one that i need/want
to clear up....i wrote in the journal last night about it...yet it wasn't
treaded out
so to speak.
i never said that i wouldn't
ever stay the night with You at Your place, yet i need/want You
to know and respect the
way i feel about it....we both know that our living arrangement is
different.
i have always wanted to
see Your place besides a pictures...and have told You that many times,
yet i couldn't feel right
about staying there at night...
Maybe i'm not explaining
this right.....it would be like...if i had another partner and You came
to see
me and knew it....in the
back of Your mind....You would not be "Totaly with me"...every little noise
You heard...You would wonder...is
it him...
i need You to understand
about this Master.....i want to be with You...see Your place...share some
of
it with You....yet i am
not ready to stay there yet...even if no one is going to be around.
Master You said....there
would be hard limits in my submission that i will face....and Your words
are true....and i know i
ask You to push those limits....and never want You to ever give up pushing
my limits,
i feel this is not a limit....that
needs to be pushed.......but a understanding that needs to come between
us
until time comes where the
said party is comfortable with it.
i never said i wouldn't come down to You....
i'm not sure if even making
this page will help any....i only hope that it will help us both in our
journey,
I know there is a lot of
the BDSM i don't even know about....yet there is things i know i am not
into