Long Distance Control
There is so many emotions that
goes through your mind as a long distance sub/slave,
but i also believe you have
to over come them if you believe in your Master.
Long distance control you
have to remember is not only hard for you but also hard for your Master
as well.
He has to believe and trust
that you are doing everything He has commanded you to do.
Whether it be a assignment
or a punishment...He has to trust that His commands has been done.
When you both are not able
to be together.
my Master at times has surprised
me in showing up....and believe me i was surprised when He
did after Him being sick for
so long....He was the last one i expected to be sitting there, and i
even by passed Him a couple
of times not knowing.
I believe a Master can tell
by just asking His sub/slave about things that He can tell if she has done
what He has ask..so i think it is safe to say never underestimate your
Master..He is experienced at issuing punishment, discipline and believe
He would know whether it has done it or not...by the respond and feelings
you tell.
.
And that is where honor bound
also comes in...and trust.
It will not be easy at times
to do what your Master commands for you to do...but if your heart is true
to submission to your Master then you will erase some of your doubts.
You can't erase all...it takes
time to grow..
There will be times when you will feel lonely, wanting..needing to feel His hands and the strenght of His mind...but you have to remember again...His needs are not the same as yours but He would like nothing better then to be able to get His hands on you...until the time comes when you both can, then you have to have faith.
There is so many things you
can do together online and some are fun..doing together, talking about.
Learning more about each other...express
openly to your Master about any doubts, fears, emotions you are feeling...He
doesn't know unless you tell Him what you are feeling...i think a lot of
us subs/slaves are at times afraid to express or true feelings afraid that
our Masters will think less of us...my thougths on that as i have express
to my sisters in submission is that if my Master ask me some of my dark
desires i may hold back.. let me describe dark desires better (things you
have fantasized about but would never dream of letting another person know)
then i would tell Him or maybe easlier for me sometimes to express in a
story.
A journal online is a good
way to express your feelings and emotions to your Master..
some of my sisters in submission
saids they have trouble expressing theirselves there because they know
their Masters can read it...and this subject just came up last night again
in a email from a sister...
And i was told this same thing...and
found it worked for me...
even though i write all the
time, i found that it was a lot harder to express myself in a journal i
knew someone would read.
My trick is: Pretend
like you're talking to the book. Not someone, and don't think
about the possibility that
your Master may read it sometime. Just write. No matter if
it's about your back hurting, being upset because your car is acting up,
how happy something your Master said made you, or getting the jitters about
meeting Him. Just write. It gets easier. On the
positive side, i've learned that writing in a dariy or journal helps me
gather my thoughts about certain things then i know i will be able to express
it more open...It is very easy not to write in Journal, and I for one know
that...sometimes I think I will just go back to it...but You have to remember,
even if your Master does not live but 20 miles from you...this is His way
of seeing what you are feeling...and what you have been doing...is His
way of keeping tabs on your emotions...thoughts...... Just remember....Don't
worry about how to express your doubts and fears to your Master, just write
your feelings & thoughts.
When and if He reads
your journal then, He will know what
to do if He is any kind of
Master. And yes, Masters are human too, they have
failings and frailties just
like the rest of us, so don't expect Him to be
perfect any more than He can
expect YOU to be perfect.
Just know you are embarking
on a wondrous journey. Yes, it will have its ups and
downs, its fears, worries
and doubts -- that is normal, that is human, that
is life. Take it, embrace
it, and trust that the two of you, if you have
love, respect and honor will
get through the rough spots and hopefully
discover the relationship
that you both will want and work on.
your journal is yours to express...if
your afraid of being punished for what you put in it...then ask your Master
about this..
and last....again my best
advise is..
keep your communication always
open with your Master
Just know that He is there
in spirit for you.
until He can get His hands
on You in R/T.