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Dun Dun Dun NUH NUH! 7-13-03 Aloha, OK so this is me telling you about my night. Well dan and i went froggy hunting so currently i have 10 froggies. after that we just kinda chilled till like 6 15 and we went to pick up some snacks then to kats but she wasnt ready then to nicks to pick him up and so nick and ANDY got in and we went to andys to pick up money then we went to wendys to get nick and andy food then to stop by dans house real quick then to meijer gas station then to kats and then to the theature. The OUTDOOR one! and we just kinda played cards for the first movie.. sinbad... then i got sick... then the 2nd movie i kinda wanted to see so i tried to stay outta everyones way. but turns out they wanted to leave and shit.. so the movie kinda sucked cause i was the only one watching. and after we dropped nick and andy off.. me dan and kat were drivinb down 120 and a cop pulls us over!! i was just about ready to freak out but dan handled it really well and we got to go on our way without any tickets. then i get home and that leads me to now. i still feel a little sick and i know i have to get up early but i dont care. well i told you i would tell ya wat happened later today and this is it! so i guess i will update LATER today cause its like 2:30 almost. sweet dreams everyone! idono 7-12-03 Aloha, Well another day has gone by. I am just so confused about certain things.. last night i went to see american english with dan kat and joe. it was awesome! I had a great time! they sound pretty much like the beatles it was cool. after that we went on the best ride at the carnival. i luv it! lol then we walked to my house and waited for kat to get picked up and then dan went home. then i went to bed around 1 ish? and when i woke up my sister and her bf took me to the car show cause i go every year cause its something me and my dad used to do. and now me and dan are gonna go to the car show again cause its more fun with someone who i can talk to. and we might possibly see a movie later with kat and nick but i dont know yet. hopefully today will be good too. i will return later tonight to update this and tell ya wat happened today! O MAN O MAN! 7-11-03 Aloha, Well it has been so long since i have written in here... so yesterday i went to the carnival with dan and we got soaked cause it rained real hard. then it was windy and COLD! it sucked being cold but we had a good time just walking around and talking. Today i went with dan to the carnival again! well first me and dan and joe went to the park and were juss goofin around. then we walked to the carnival ish area but it wasnt started yet so we went down the bike path and joe went home and me and dan took my car to wendys and had sum lunch! it was cool.. then we stopped by my house and went to the carnival again and walked around a ton of times.. then went to my house so i could pee cause i aint gonna go in a porter potty! i got some money and we went back to the carnival and on the way there joe showed up so we talked to him a little then we got our tickets and rode the one cool ride there is. lol then we felt very light so we walked around till 9 and then i went home and waited for jess to pick me up. we went to the roller rink and the first band was the aggitated with the singer being pete.. the guy from my drivers ed class... then was jeff's band. they were pretty good i think. then the VILE! but we had to leave before the vile started.. its ok tho! cause tomarrow is joe's party and the vile will be there so i just might stop by to watch them! well thats all thats new so ill write more when something happens!! Jeebuz..... 7-10-03 Aloha, OK! so it is 12:35 am accourding to nicks lucky charms watch. uhm i cant sleep.. i dont go to bed until about 4 am lately. i dont know why. i have had a lot on my mind i guess. i havent been the happiest of people lately. yesterday i was watching nightmere on elms street in the dark and painting my nails then i got scared and didnt want to go to my room so i waited a while then got to bed around 3: 45. It is amazing how many memories come rushing back to you when you have nothing to do during the day. It is kinda sad... you just think about all the fun times... all the sad... through everything.. and just your different reactions to everything. it just makes you want to go back and re live those moments exactly how they were... who they were with.. and all of that stuff... I dont really know what to do about it anymore... i will just go with what my heart tells me... on a more realistic mode... OK PEOPLE! if you supposidly try and try and try so hard to be my friend and it hasnt worked yet i dont think it will anytime soon.. so you should just stop. and i dont appreciate you talking about me behind my back either. thats all for today maybe i will check in tomarrow! Jeebuz.... Wat The Fuck... 7-2-03 Aloha, OK so within a day it is unsuprising that yes i feel like shit. SO today was my last day of driving and it sucked. I did good but i just didnt want to be there. then i get home and call my mom and she bitches at me and so i wash the dishes.. make myself dinner because i cant expect her to feed me.. then did some of my laundry... and she gets home and i have to sit with her until 7:30 because its our "family time" while we wait for my sister to come over.. and she doesnt so i get pist and say lets just go.. so i drive her to meijer and do her shopping and drive her home.. then i have to make dinner for her and me because she decides she wants to eat.. and im such a fucking idiot i burned my fingers really bad and i said "fucking shit!" really loud and mom got pist cause im not sposed to swear. and i freaked and told her she should clean the house and drive around and do shit and then burn herself and see wat she might say! well i just dug my own grave there.. she freaked even more started crying and it was another one of those "you ruined my life i hate you" sorta conversations.. im used to it now so i just sit there and space off.. which kinda made things worse because she started screaming that i wasnt listening and im just sick of being a pushover and said that ive heard it all before and then its another one of those "go ahead leave i dont need you here.. dont ever come back" conversations.. so then i explain to her that without me should would die but she doesnt listen and tries to push me outta the way but i didnt budge so it turned into another one of "THOSE" things some of you might know about.. and then its about 9:30 so i get on the net cause i need to escape reality yet again.. and now im here writting about my day cause it helps me.. idonno.. manage my anger and stuff.. its just one of those days where u sit back and think of waht happened you juss say WAT THE FUCK.. but i would recommend the song "Sic Transit Gloria...Glory Fades" by BRAND NEW cause its awesome.. i think.. so im done now hope you enjoyed this. well well well... 7-1-03 Aloha, Well well well... i havent written in here in a while and i have had a few people ask me to because it keeps them busy. :-D so here i am. i have a few things on my mind but nothing too serious. except for someone who didint talk to me anymore but when he started to he said it was my fault for not keeping in touch. well not really it was his but i dont feel like getting into that too much. not a lot has really happened lately. i have been driving for drivers ed.. its ok i suppose but not the greatest. i have poms every tuesday and thursday.. its ok i spose but not the greatest... lol hmm something that does piss me off tho is this huge.. hmm wats the word... ASS.. he isnt that mean to me but he is to one of my friends. and he brags SOOOOO much about everything. like skating and his girlfriend and going to CA and ALL that shit.. well its stupid so you should stop. and just cause one of my friends fell when she was skating and was scared she broke her ankle gives you no right to make fun of her.. especially behind her back! quit being a coward. get enuff balls to do it to her face. and im pretty sure he must be talking about me too so watever he has to say he should just say it to my face so then i can kick the shit outta him... but on a different note.. this other person is so gay i was fighting with him and he told me something about me liking girls so i said at least i dont suck balls.. and he said yeah well maybe my balls are bigger to suck.. well i think he is gay... just a hunch.. and he should get off his fat ass and do something instead of complaining to me cause its annoying as fuck and i wish i could shoot him right now. other than that all i have really done is stopped something so now i really am a good kid! arent you proud?? hahha well i have to go now.. poms... but i will leave with this one last sentance.. im gonna get my kicks before the hole shit house goes up in flames - Jim Morrison... so live it up people dont just wait for something to happen! later! Damn... 6-8-03 Aloha, Well in a matter of hours my happy mood of yesterday changed. I cant get into detail of what happened but i will sum it up. My mom got pist and stuff. SO i spent most of the night walking around town with my friend zacky and then we watched the movie the hot chick with his little sister then he walked me home at 12. then i couldnt sleep till like 2.. but thats ok rite? then today i spent the morning studying.. and the afternoon kinda studying.. then came home and just kinda chilled... so right now im just kinda trying to take my mind off of things... well thats all i have for today.. tune in next time cause.... damn... its fun What the Hell... 6-7-03 Aloha, Well im not in a bad mood but i guess i could say a few things to entertain my fans. haha! The end of school is near and this one chick in my spanish2 class started talking to me! I was in shock because she has never said anything to me before. Well... if you dont bother to talk to me at all during the year dont expect me to answer and be pleasant. Another thing, wats the deal with piling on homework at the end of the year?!? yall know we get lazy as fuck and have better things to do than do a fuckin problem set in alg.2 or work on a comp lit project.. so why even bother?! Its really gay how some people can give you the dirtiest looks. I was talking to a friend of mine and one of his groupies was there and just would NOT stop with the looks. I guess here face is juss so dirty then those are the only looks she can give! OH YES! the dirty look giver is also a slut! A guy came up to her in lunch and said hey lets go to the bathroom so they WENT and didnt come back till the end of lunch. she also is a bitch to one of my friends... ill just call her.. hmm my lil angel :) well this slut/look giver lied to my lil angel about a bunch of important shit. well this lil slut deserves to get whats coming to her.. and STD and a PUNCH in the face! too bad fish friday is gone cause i would have liked to gotten her for that one. Speaking of fish friday a certain kitten wrote FISH on my knuckles and everyone in my study hall thought i was a freshman then... they all said they thought i was a junior.. well.. im NOT! im a sophomore.. hoping to pass all my finals so i can become a junior! now one of my friends is going to move back where she came from and its sad. im really hoping that this summer we could still hang out. you know who you are boo boo kitty fuck. :) its also really annoying when people ditch you! like if they say they are gonna go to the movies or something with you and just decide they cant and already made plans with someone else .. yeah that shits gay but if you make it up im sure you will be forgivin. that is wat today is for. enough about that... another annoying thing.. this guy complains way too much. he sits on the net and complains about not doing anything.. so i tell him to go skate. well he has no one to skate with.. O BOO HOO! go skate by yourself at the skate park im sure people would be there.. well he just has a fit and doesnt go.. well its GAY! quit complaining and get off your ass and do something!! Well i think that concludes this entry but im sure i will add a nother soon! theres so much going on so its all just like.. wat the hell.... DUN DUN DUN... 6-4-03 Aloha, OK i know i havent made an entry in a while and i have had some requests for a new one! SOOOO here it is. ALOT has happened! Well my friend is home from... out of town. It is awesome he was away for a good 5 months i would say. Nice to have him back. Someone did something that they shouldnt have with a certain someone.. i cant tell ya wat to do and wat not.. but juss know that i have lost some respect for you. And a certain guy has no right to lecture the poor girl about ANYTHING because it does not include him at all! To another certain girl who cant handle a pinky... STOP TRYING TO BE MY FRIEND! its not working. No offense but you wouldnt like the real me. I do things you wouldnt approve of and i dont need you lecturing me. uhm... teachers you all suck and make my life hell! uhm .. my mother can die and rot in hell! She is a huge bitch! yellin at me for not taking out the garbage when i was doing my HOMEWORK! She doesnt like the way i have been looking or acting lately.. well WHAT the hell she knows damn well that i dont like to be like everyone else. She also said my dad would be ashamed i was his daughter. well that was the last straw... so i freaked... things are ok now though:-D uhm.. drivers ed is GAY! 2 people look like 2 of my ex's and well.. it scares me. hmmm.. i cant wait to get out of school.. i want a magarita...* wasted away again in magaritaville.. searchin for my lost shaker of salt* god damn that song.. *yellin* well thats my cue that its time to go. Wont you be my neighbor? DUN DUN DUN.... spoooooookyness..... Insane Crazy Kill You.... 5-19-03 Aloha, The subject of my newest entry is bullshit. There is a lot of bullshit in the world today. Some examples: People, School, Certain Mothers *cough* bitch *cough*, and rumors. Starting with people.. Some people are seriously just plain gay. The way they act and all.. Like, they say that they hate certain people and stuff and then go off and are ALL over that person that they said they hated. Well i guess its obvious your obsessed with her so stop bullshittin yourself! Your making your self a hypocrit and an ass. School is particularly bullshit for certain reasons like... the teachers are GAY... the classes are BORING.... and now starting drivers ed(which was a snore fest lemme tell ya) I dont know how i will manage to stay sane.. o yes i do... thats not the point.. dont worry about it. MOTHERS are bullshit. Mothers who dont feed their children and who yell at them for not doing something they were NOT asked to do. Mothers who blame their children for their own mistakes... BULLSHIT. And rumors.. *shudders* oo this is a big bullshitter. haha.. Yeah well dont always believe the rumors you hear! People for gay reasons start rumors about a lot of different people.. I dont believe these rumors and you shouldnt either because why? They are BULLSHIT! And if you think that you are all ruining my life.. your not. You are just being a pain but its not getting to me. Dont let rumors bring you down cause it will just prove that someone so low to start them would be winning. Well ya havent won this one so have fun down there! That concludes tonights Journal. Tune in 3 days from now to read the next!DOWN WITH BULLSHIT! Going To Hell.... 5-16-03 Aloha, The subject of this entry is the confuzzlement of many things. Like, I don't see why so many people are so against silly things. Like ok lets take weed. So many people are told that weed is such a bad thing and so on and so forth. But they have no reason to judge marijuana unless they have tried it. Same goes with certain people who shall stay un named... They think that MY friends are BAD! Well she doesnt even fucking KNOW my friends! I have never once judged her or her friends the way she does with mine. Just because I hang out with different people doesnt mean that they are bad... we are like you but with a few differences. We like to have fun but take bigger risks and have more adventure, thrill, or excitement. We dont sit around and wait for something to happen. We like to go out and seize the day! CARPE DIEM! The world doesnt revolve around you!! so get the fuck over it! damn... anyways a lot of other things bug me.. Like people who have money automatically think that they are better than people who dont.. like me. Well your not! People who dont have a lot of money dont need to buy fifty dollar pants that have a famous name like HOLLISTER or A&F on them! because we realize that it is stupid to WASTE money on such things to realize that they dont make you COOL! What is cool anyways? Having brand clothes cool? Putting other people down cool? I dont think so. Being cool is having friends and going out and having a great time even if you dont have money.. or a car to get around. As long as you have fun it is all that matters. Another thing that ticks me off... church. OK OK i know.... I went to a catholic school almost my entire life! I know! But that fucks it all up! TOO MUCH GOD! At catholic school they FORCE religion on you. with the uniforms and the praying 4 times a day and the mass every friday. I don't understand. At mass on sundays you have to pay... what if you dont have money to pay. What if you dont believe that you have to PAY to have a belief? To be not allowed into the church because you couldnt pay is bullshit. The lord will love us all even if we dont put in twenty bucks a week to something that most likely wont be used for the good of people. It is all just a big scam to burn your pockets. But you can keep on believing the way you do. I sure as hell believe in jeebus..er Jesus.. and all that fun stuff but i rather not pay to do so. I can believe on my own. Plus.. with all of the shit that i have done i KNOW that I AM GOING TO HELL..... MIGHT AS WELL LIVE IT UP THEN!