March 21, 2003
CLICK HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-Patricia bit you at 8:26 a.m.

March 21, 2003
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Good morning! Not so good actually...my throat hurts REALLY
bad and once again..last night I broke out. blah!

Anyway...Im just gonna do my Fridat Five then Im out!

1. If you had the chance to meet someone you've never met,
from the past or present, who would it be?
Thats a toughy! Alright...
Regular person: Ryan
Famous Person: Lucy from I love lucy...or Marilyn Monroe.

2. If you had to live in a different century,
past or future, which would it be?
80's...I was born in the 80's but didnt get to actually live
through it...I think the 80's is the most popular if you ask me.

3. If you had to move anywhere else on Earth, where would it be?
New York...I really wanna see ground zero...

4. If you had to be a fictional character, who would it be?
Joan from the book Fan Mail (which I finished?! it was great?!), because
she knew how to handle EVERYTHING! She was always in control even
when things got waaaay out of hand.

5. If you had to live with having someone else's face as
your own for the rest of your life, whose would it be?
If you would have asked me this before I had this allergic
reaction I would probably say Marylin Monroe..but..I wouldnt
change my face for anything. Ive learned to accept who I am. =)

Alright! Gonna go now.....I got the breakfast munchies! MmMmM!

-Patricia bit you at 8:26 a.m.

March 20, 2003
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I just want to thank everyone for thier sweet
words. But noooooow I know why Im breaking out.

Its because of JEN!...she did it!?

LMAO...See...Jen and I hit it off really good
because we were like twin sisters..whatever happened to me
would soon or did happen to her and vise versa. She
IM-ed me last night and told me a couple weeks ago she
broke out in hives. LOL...Crazy huh?

Which Jen, I am takin pretazone...=\
But oh well...I just got back from my doctor and he
said Im having a bad reaction to something and that
I could still be being exposed to it since Im still breaking
out. But also because Im itching and thats a big NO NO!

He put me on a lot of medications. Im even gonna have a(n)
EPI-stick..? Where you give yourself a shot.

If I start having trouble breathing again...I have
to give myself a shot and if THAT doesnt work then I have
to go to the hospital. Im also going to an allergist to see
what Im allergic to. Thaaaaaaaaatsss great! MOOOOORE shots!

FERRRRGGGIIIITTTTTTT!??! I ITCH!?

Fergit is.....not a word...=)

Omg what the hell is it that is making me itch?!
I BET YOU ITS.....!?!?
wait brb!?

Okay the doc said it could be something I always used
but my body has now become sensitive to it...meaning
pretty much I developed an allergy to something.

Welllllllll!...I think its the Tide we use to wash clothes.
I put a shirt on that my mom just washed right before we
went to the doctor and my back and arms itch like crazy!

So I just changed my shirt to one I havent worn in a loooooong
time.

Im so scared though guys. I feel like this is gonna go on
forever. And Im also gonna be tested for my skin after this is gone.
What if it comes back as something bad? Im so scared.

Oh...Marcus MIGHT help me with my website tomorrow....MAYBE! If
he has enough gas to come over.

I need to take my mind off itching so Im gonna go ahead and
do two surveys. One I got from Jens site and one I got from
an email from Diana...alright here we go...

1. WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME?
"You must be outside your mind!" - Remember the Titans...=) But my first name is Patricia...

2. WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?
HEY! Second question and alllreadyyyyyy your gettin personal!
But if you must know..Im wearing OLD soccer shorts. =)

3. WHAT ARE THE LAST 4 DIGITS OF YOUR PHONE NUMBER?
I have this feeling your tryin to track me down!

4.WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
Megas! Tortillia slices with egg...YUMMAAAYYYY!

5. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
Piiiiiiiink...=)

6. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW?
Its kinda chilly out..but feels good for me!

7. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Ummmm...I think Steve...telling him I wont be commin in to work today.

8. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Eyes and personality. Nick had really pretty eyes...long lashes..
Marcus has really pretty eyes...I want em! *licks eyeballs* lol

9. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS?
Helllll nah..I hate the bitch...lmao JK D! I love youuuuu!

10. HOW ARE YOU TODAY?
*Looks confused...* Um...shouldnt this have been
the first question? LOL..

11. FAVORITE DRINK?
My dads lemon tea. MmMmMm!

12. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?
Bacardi Silver...orrrr Strawberry Daceri (sp?)

13. FAVORITE SPORTS?
Dont have one anymore...=\

14.HAIR COLOR?
I just dyed it..seee..

The reason my face is bright is because I had
to have the light on my face to see my hair kinda
how it is now. This pic was taken BEFORE I broke out..
I really wish I had my face back. Im never gonna diss
my looks again!

15. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
Yes, well...I used to for color but havent in a while..

16. SIBLINGS AND THEIR AGES?
Good lawd! 3 brothers and 1 sister...I actually have like..7 bros
but yeah thats another story...3 brothers and one sister.

17. FAVORITE MONTH?
July..my birthday and SUMMER!

18. FAVORITE FOOD?
LMAO! Anything that istn seafood..and...well yeah..=)

19. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Dont laugh...okay? OKAY?! But..Home Alone II..yes
I know what a dork but...I watch all my DVDS. =)

20. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
Fridays....

21. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
When I was in about 5th or 6th grade I asked George out...
I heard he liked me too but was REALLY shy...so I asked him out...
He said no in front of everyone. JACK ASS?! But since then..nope...havent
asked a guy out.

22. DO YOU LIKE SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDING MOVIES BETTER?
I love Horror...and blood..and all that good stuff...SCARY MOVIES!

23. SUMMER OR WINTER?
A couple months ago I would have said winter...but after
we got hit with snow and the cold weather..I would have to say SUMMER!

24. HUGS OR KISSES?
Alright gushy moment!
Depends...Marcus caaaaan huuuuuug! And he can kiss too?!
Um...I would have to say...kiss...because it usually
ends up being a hug too.
Marcus= yummy! lol

25. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
Hahaha...relationships...I can have a one night
stand with Marcus..lmao.

26. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA?
Vaaniiiiiilllllaaaa yummmmmmmm!

27. DO YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO WRITE BACK?
If they knew how to write back in this site..then sure!

28. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
Hmmmmm...read above!

29. WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
Okay dude...thats enough.

30. LIVING ARRANGEMENTS?
Whyyyyy plannin on commin over? Please do baby!
LOL...brother..mom..her boyfriend..and lil ol me!

31. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING?
Thats funny you ask! Im reading Fan Mail...which
IS......WOW GREAT! And I think I know who did it!?

32. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
For my birthday my dads exwife..the one before my mom
put a picture of my dad and I on a mouse pad...I love it!?

33. FAVORITE BOARD GAME?
LOL...We used to make up our own Checker games..but...yeah checkers!

34. WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT?
Heh...If only you knew! I was itching and cryin like crazy!

35. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK ABOUT WHEN YOU GET UP IN THE MORNING??
Weekdays--->As of the moment..wondering if this allergic
reaction is ever gonna go away!
Weekends---> Uh...wondering what Im gonna do...lol. Mostly work though!

THANKS DIANA! LOVED IT! NOW ON TO JENS!

1 MINUTE AGO:
I got my blanket...=)

1 DAY AGO:
I was in the hospital...

1 WEEK AGO:
Um..lets see..oh! At work! I think...*scratches head*

1 YEAR AGO:
LMAO WOAH NELLY!? I dont knowwwwwwww!

I HURT:
All over! I itch...

I LOVE:
Jen had a really good response to this...but I love my family,
Marcus, friends, teachers...god..everything and everyone who has been
there for me through thick and thin.

I HATE:
Like Jen said..hate is a strong word...But..I dislike
violence, cheaters, haters, fakes, people who think they are "pimp"
RACISM, animal abusers (Jens), domestic violence...gosh..you name it.
Its also sad that you can have a long list of things you dislike...
And almost all of them are things happening in the world right now.

I FEAR:
I cant say what I fear because once someone reads this..and tells someone...
Ill be strapped down in a white suit..in a white room by myself (mental hospital).

I HOPE:
My cousin...whose water just broke earlier today...I hope her and her
baby turn out a-ok!

I FEEL:
Like I dont know who I am....and...itchy..=\

I LISTEN:
To my friends..I love listening to what they have to say...
I ALWAYS have to be there for someone...even when I dont know who
they are.

I HIDE:
My feelings...who I am..and who I wish I was....

I DRIVE:
"illegally"- Jen....lmao how cute...anyway..my resonse...
A peice of shit Acura Integra '93..but at least I have a car...
I have to appreciate that..since the people who dont..always tell me that
and make me feel bad...=\

I PLAY:
With my friends...Marcus (we wrestle), family, computer games, PSP2...etc...

I MISS:
My old self...if only some of you knew...

I LEARNED:
To appreciate myself more...when my face turned ugly
because of the hives on my face...I actually cried for my
normal face back. =\
And thats pretty bad since a lot of you know how low my self
esteem is. And how annoying it is..lol

I KNOW:
Soooooomeethinnnnnng youuuuuuu dooooonttttt knooooooooowwwww... lol

I WAIT:
For my dream of finding who I am again...

I NEED:
To stop itching?!

I THINK:
Sometimes I dont...=\

Current Clothes:
What is up with people and asking about clothes?! LOL

Current Mood:
Annoyed...because I dont know what the hell
Im allergic to....and that Im missing so much school
and work. Im about to graduate in 2 1/2 months...and Im
missing so much school because of this hives shit!

Current Music:
Mariah Careys "I can make it through the rain"...
Dont laugh..I was singing it earlier over and over again...

Current Taste:
I have cotton mouth..lol...from these pills...yuck?!

Current Hair:
"it's held up with a hair-chopstick." - Jen..
I hate you jen! I could never do that?! LOL....
But mine is in a ponytail!

Current Annoyance:
This damn allergic reaction! Stop asking?! LOL...
*rubs against you* Ohhhh yeah...ohhhh yeah riiiiiight there!
OHHHHH YEAAAAAAAAAAH!?!?!?!?...thanks for helping me itch!

Current Smell:
My breath...GOOD LAWD!? lmao...jk!...Um...nothing really...

Current thing I should be Doing:
ITCHING?! But....I cant...um...sleeping?

Current Desktop Picture:
Christina Aguilera with her quote from "Beautiful"

Current Favorite bands/singers:
Mariah Carey...X-tina, Aaliyah....50 cent, Missy Elliot...a lot more!

Current Book:
I just toooooold youuuu! Fan mail...=)
You should know that by now...so since its in your head...
GO GET IT?!

Current Movie In VCR:
Nothing...but since I have a DVD+VHS player...HOME ALONE..is in there...=)

Current Refreshment:
Your an hour late...but Dr.Pepper...

Current Worry:
Um...my chest is starting to feel thick...so..yeaaah...

Current Crush:I love Marcus...but I do have a crush..
and I am not saying his or her name...LMAO
I was gonna leave that there..but some people will freak! No her...
Silly!

Aw man..thats it?! Well my friday five is commin tomorrow too!
But those were fun! Got anymore?! Send them to me via email!!!!
Heavenlyhopes@hotmail.com
Make sure you copy and paste that because people keep telling
me they sent me mail...and Im like...mmmm no..no you didnt...=)

Alright...Im gonna go surf the net and see if I can make a better
layout for my site...
*SMOOCHES!*

-Patricia pulled your hair at 6:22 p.m.

March 19, 2003
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UPDATE!!! =)

Tuesday evening...got at the hospital at 7:30 p.m.

Alright well yesterday night...actually in the after noon
I was joking with my mom that my throat was closing because
she had said something about it being good its not.

Well...I shouldnt have joked around. Because that night...
my throat started to close. I was weezing (sp?) and I was havin short
short breaths. So my mom was like...okay lemme call the doctor.

I heard her in the other room say "Okay do we have to go to Arlington
or to the closest one?" Right when I heard her say that I went into the
bathroom and brushed my teeth and started to get ready.

I had to go to the hospital. I was so scared and itching.
I thought I would have to wait forever but after we filled out
a lil short question sheet. It just asked my name SS#, and what
was wrong with me. After we finished it they took me to take my
blood pressure. And they told my mom she had to wait in the
waiting room. But when she asked what shot I got at the doctors
I didnt know and kinda looked confused as my mom says.

So my mom got up from the waiting room
and told her and the lady goes
"Okay well I need you to go sit in the waiting room okay?"
I couldnt figure out why they didnt want my mom in there.
But they started asking me a bunch of questions about my meds
and doctor..then she asked me something that shocked me.

AND I KNEW AT THAT POINT WHY THEY DIDNT WANT MY MOM AROUND

She asked if anyone was abusing me or threating me in ANY way.
I go nooooo and had a look on my face like whaaaat?

Then they put this on me

But then they took me to my room...room 20 =)

The nurse took my blood pressure and all that..and then the doctor came
and he made me tell him EVERYTHING I did Sunday so that we could figure
out what was causing this terrible allergic reaction
but I told him everything and NOTHING was different and he said
that what I told him doesnt really help and I was like "I know...
I went to work at 9am...go off at 7:45p.m and about an hour later
I broke out...out of no where."

They said they were gonna put an IV on me. OMG...they put
saline in it..and that shit buuuuurned! I just started crying.

They put like...at the most...5 or 6 and the least...4 medications
through the IV..I started shaking. And I got so scared I was gonna
have a panic attack.

Then people kept commin in and out taking my blood pressure.
and all this other stuff. I swear I met about 6 people that night. LOL.
And that is noooo lie! Even a trash lady.lol.

But then I was in there for a while and they kept checkin
the little baggy connected to my IV. But then they took it off.
Like 5 min after they took my IV off..I started itching.

And I told the nurse and she said that if when I go home..it starts
up again...that I need to come back.

Well we went home. And I was itching and I started crying again.
My mom asked if I wanted to go back but since I had just
taken my medicine...I thought I would be okay. Which I was
I stopped itching and went to sleep. Noooow..lets move on the the next day!

But first........
Heres some pics of that day.

I think thats another reason they thought I was being abused.
My lip was swollen and my eye was puffy and my face looked like I
had just gotton beaten up......

Wednesday 8:00 am I wake up..and right when I do..I notice my lip felt bigger than
yesterday. So I went into the bathroom to take a look.
HOLY SHIT! REMEMBER HOW I WANTED BIGGER LIPS?! WELLLLLL TAKE A LOOK!

This was just normal now if I pouted..it looked like this

Scary huh. My mom was joking about how now I dont need lip implants.
Oh hush! lol. It was reallllllly fat!

Alright well after I woke up I started itching like crazy again. This time..
worse and I got scared so we went to the hospital again. And they just couldnt
believe what was going on. They were just as shocked as we were. They were dying
to know what it was that I was allergic to. They put another IV in my other arm...

But this time they only put like 3 medications in it. They were stronger steriods.
But the nurse this time was ever nicer! She was so funny and talkin with us
just about stupid things like..she asked if I shaved my arms and I said yeah
and she said there was this guy that worked there with a hairy body and got this
surgery or something and now he has no hair. LOL..it was funny. But yeah
then I stayed there a little bit and they said that tomorrow I have to go
to my doctor for a follow up kinda and that if it comes back really bad,
that Ill have to go to my doctor and see about going to an allergist.

The doctor at the hospital said that we need to investigate this and see
what caused me to break out really bad for 4 days. Im still brekaing out...
But its a little better. My face has cleared up and my lip has gone down.

But I have a bunch of bruises because I scratched so hard and once the welts
went away I was in pain.

Closing Statement.....

Man this has been a HORRIBLE week for me. I hate all of
this but it really has taught me to appreciate who I am. I was crying non-
stop sayin that I wanted my face back and that I just wanted to be normal again.
I mean I wanted to go back to work and school. God you will never hear me say Im
ugly or fat. I mean my whole body is swollen from all the welts. I mean I looked like
I had gained 10 pounds in one day! I mean god I wish this never happened to me. I just
kept crying and prayin for this all to go away. Im a bit better now because I dont have
any welts on me anymore.

I stopped smoking too. I said I was going to before. But all this scared me. Im

NOT going to mess up my body Im gonna start excersing and takin good
care of my body because my body does NOT deserve to go through all this. So
no more smoking for me. I cant anyway with my meds and shit. But I REFUSE
to smoke now. I dont even want to smell it. Ill probably puke. Going
through this has made me appreciate myself more. But yeah that was my two
days in the hospital. Ugh...Im so exausted from all this.

Well thats all for tonight. I may post more pictures tomorrow.
What I showed you was pretty bad but not NEARLY as bad as the rest
of my body.

OHHHH!?!?!? Have you guys ever seen "The Craft"? Remember Neve Cambel she
had those burn marks on her back? Well picture those "burn marks"
ALL OVER my back, arms, face, neck, hair, stomache...terrible!

Well Good night.
Oh and sorry for any misspells or run-on sentences...sorry for
bad grammer if there are any. =P

-Patricia wacked you at 9:29 p.m.

March 17, 2003
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Guys...=*( I am in sooooo much pain!

This hives shit has GOT to go!
I have never ever had hives before! Its
freakin me out! You guys dont understand.
I said I broke out...but I BROKE out!.
I didnt sleep at all. I started to but then
the itching made me wake up..and that was at like
4 in the mornin. It started to get really bad!
I kept waking up my mom but like the third time that
I got her she called the doctor because I couldnt stop
itchin! And the doctor said to go in 7 (a.m.) and
Ill get a shot. Well when we went to the doctors
There were two other people waiting but since I
signed in second I was second. And because my face
looked so ugly. Im dead seriouse. Im about to show you
guys what my neck and side of my face looked like.
Because I took pics. But anyway..my face was covered.
I was ugly! omg..everytime I looked in the mirror I scared
myself. So I knew the patients at the doctors would freak.
And so I made it clear I was having an allergic reaction.

I kept saying "I wonder what Im allergic toooooo!"
So..yeah they knew.

Everyone kept saying things like "Oh bless her heart"
and "Poooor thiiiiinggg" which made it worse for me. lol

But anyway I got a shot in my ass. YES! MY ASS! lol..
more like my hip..but I like the word ass better. =P
And it hurt like shit of course. But when I got home
I went to sleep because I was tired. I was up since 7
the morning before. And I know...a lot of people do that.
But the fact that I work 10 hours at work...really well...not
not couting lunch 9.5. LOL..anyway

And I went home and crashed! Well when I woke up.
Everything was gone. My face was back to normal.
Surprised I ran to the bathroom and looked at my tummy,
well you could still see the bumps but they werent as bad.

But of course later I started itchin. And this time it was
my legs! They got it bad!

Hold out your hand as if you were gonna give someone a high-five,
the welches were THAT big. I mean huuuuuge! Some even bigger than my
hand. I started freakin out! I

EEEK A BUG WAS JUST ON MY ARM!?!?! AHHHHH!

Anyway where was I...oh okay..so I was freakin!
I started cryin then because I freaked myself out
sooooo much I started shakin uncontrolably. I was
shakin sooooo bad and crying and rubbin my legs.
So finally I took my medicine. And the itching started
to go away. And everyone and thier mamma was callin for me.
Cept MARCUS which hurt a little bit because he knew I was
breakin out in hives and didnt call to see if I was okay.
Am I wrong to be upset? Anyyywayyy...

I stopped itchin again...I started breaking out again.
But then all of a sudden I just stopped. Im so sleepy too!
But now my head is itchin! But yeah Im going through HELL!.
I hate this so much. Im able to update now because Im not itching
as much. But wanna see my neck? =\ Its very nasty. But thats
only or that WAS only the beginning. This was yesterday before
it got real bad.

Alright ready? ewwwww its nasty!

Eeek! And to think that was JUST the start of it. Those arent pimples..
those are hives ewwwwwwww!

Alright this was a long enough post. Goodnight.

Im gonna try to get some sleep! *MUAH*

Oh and sorry for anything thats misspelled or anything I really dont care
at this point.

-Patricia made you itch at 11:53 p.m.

March 16, 2003
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I decided Id post..but its not gonna be much..but its only
because Im tryin to get my mind off itching. At work...

I started itching..I think it started at work. But I thought
maybe something bit me. But when I got home the inside of my
leg started itchin. But then when I was on the comp and reading
I started itchin everywhere..on my back..arms...neck. I was like
damn what the fuck! Did they leave all the doors open!? Or secretly
put ants in my fuckin bed?! Because really thats what it felt like.
Like someone poured ants all over me. Finally I decided to get my mom.

I was like..."Mom Im itchin...really bad" and she goes "Like you got
a rash?"

I never have rashes! I cant remember when I had one so I really dont know.
But I go ..."yeah..." and then she brought me into the light and I
showed her all "bug bites" and she was like "ohhhhh yeah....your breaking
out..your breaking out in hives"

WHAT THE HELL!?

IVE NEVER BROKE OUT IN HIVES?!!?

So yeah she just got me some benadryl..(sp?) and Im still itchen but
it takes a couple minutes. But my god! Im itchen like crazy!?
It might have been that spray stuff I used to clean the bathrooms
at work. I also sprayed Oust. Which I have sprayed before but I dunno.
Daaammnnnnniiiittttt I itch!?!

What the fuck is up man!? Anyone ever broken out in hives?! Good LAWD!

Alright Im gonna go be a baby and whine to my mom. =)

Bye!

-Patricia rubbed against you at 10:27 p.m.

March 15, 2003
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No one noticed my hair at work today...except for Steve
my assistant manager...and he said it looked good. I guess
I was freakin out about nothing. I thought it looked REALLY
light. But I dunno.

Man I looooove these new cars that are commin out. Ill post them
tomorrow..they are BAD ASS?! But Im really tired. I got to be
at work tomorrow early to help out Steve.

DAAAAMMNNNNNN! Im watchin "Cheaters" thats a good show.
Good that they catch them tricks or wannabe pimps who cheat.

Im gonna go read some more. I dont really feel like
postin anything right now. Really tired and worn out.

Cept...early I took three pills at once...my mom said I
shouldnt mix them...but I did...well she told me AFTER I
took them...but anyway..and when I went to work I was shaky..
gettin hot flashes and ugh felt soooooo bad. I took three
different pills at once.

LMAO Lesbian girls on cheaters. Nothing against lesbians...
but she said "I am no longer into girls. I think they are very
dramatic" LMAO...you cant be lesbian then into guys. You either arent
or you are! Well..theres Bi...but still.

Do you believe people can cheat and then say they will never
cheat again? Respond at the tagboard. Just wonderin. Ive thought
about cheating....but its kinda hard. I DID talk to some guy
when Marcus was..."Away" because I didnt think Marcus and I would
be able to get together. But yeah...so what do you think?

-Patricia hugged on you at 11:54 a.m.

March 15, 2003
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Good morning guys. I just wanted to post my excitment! I THINK I know who the "Fan" is!? I think! Man this book is getting good!
Go to your local library and get it!? Its called Fan Mail by
RONALD MUNSON. Seeeeeee....

thats what it looks like just so you know...and OH!

Look what STEPHEN KING said about it!

seee so you knoooooooow its gotta be good! The King
said it himself! Well I got a headache from hell..and
Im gonna read more to see who the freakin fan is.
I think I know. Because...aw hell...just read it yourself!

-Patricia hugged on you at 10:02 a.m.

March 14, 2003
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Holy shit...Holy shit...HOLY SHIT!

Okay I really wanted to dye my hair lighter you know?
Hmmmmm...well..its a little TOO light! IM SCARED?! lol
Im not gonna post what it looks like JUST yet because
Marcus might see it and I wanna see the look on his face
Um...its really light...wow! Im scared! Once he sees it
Ill show you guys.

On another note...click here

Yeah! Thats my site! The one I dont have?! I dont know
how to login..or where to login. I asked Marcus since he
set it up for me and he goes "uhhhh lemme think..."
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!?!!?!?!? Damnit!? I was gonna
just make a lame site instead of the high-tech one I really want
but nope I cant even access it. Damn you marcus! I love you though.

That is all...=) Im just freakin about my hair?!

-Patricia peed on you at 9:07 p.m.

March 14, 2003
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Good Mornin everyone!
Here my Friday Five

1. Do you like talking on the phone? Why or why not?
Nooooooo! Im not a phone person. People have to call me I dont
call them. Ill talk...but not long. I would rather talk in person.

2. Who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
Marcus...wanted to call and tell me he loved me before I went
to bed. MMMMMhhhhhmmmmmmm Hes a sweety. And sometimes I take him
for granted. =\

3. About how many telephones do you have at home?
Only 2. I would have one in my room cept the crazy people that
used to live here didnt put phone jacks in any rooms cept the
dining room and living room. =\ Marcus bought me a phone for christmas
too and I am DYING to hook it up! Its soooooooo cute?!

4. Have you encountered anyone who has really bad phone manners? What happened?
MMMMMMMMM......telemarketers. Because my last name is Spanish..they ASSUME I speak
spanish. I DONT! They called and said "hable/habla *which is it? lmao thats sad* espanol?"
and I WASNT havin a good day and I go "what?!" and they said it again and I go "NO!" and hung
up. I just hate when people assume I speak spanish. Sorry I dont..dont know how to spell it...
nor speak it.

5. Would you rather pick up the phone and call someone or write them an e-mail or a letter? Why or why not?
Email or letter. Because you say what you have to say no chit-chat or interruptions.
Then they can reply and so forth. I think its just easier. You can say what you need to say
you dont have worry about takin back anything you can delete or erase anything stupid you might
have said. =P

I just got done calling Steve about the whole situation at work. Phew!

GGGGGGGrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!! FUCK! I just called steve back because before we got off
the phone a lil while ago he asked if I worked in the photo lab tues. and wed.
which I do every week and I told him yes. But then I forgot that they wanted me to
work this Sunday. So I called him back and asked if he remembered. And he goes
"Yeah they said if I didnt need you." and I go "oh..do you need me?" and he goes
yeah"

DAMNIT!?! 9 Hours on the register again! Fuckers. I hate rephsie! DIE!
Hmmmm thats mean..okay dont die. Just hurry up and leave! This is her last week!

And two cute guys put in application yesterday...
eek! Think: Marcus Marcus Marcus Marcus Marcus...lmao jk...I wouldnt ever cheat
on Marcus.

I gotta pee...and work out..will I really work out. I say I will...but lets see
if I pull through. Prob Not! lol...Man I really have to pee! Bye!

-Patricia poked you at 8:29 a.m.

March 13, 2003
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My Prayer
LMAO!
Thats what I feel like today!

And I love PURPLEPUSSY!

Today went terrible! I gave someone someone elses bag of stuff at work
and had to give the person everything they purchased. But THANKFULLY
the person I gave the other peoples stuff too...called back.
Most people would keep the stuff. But she called back and is gonna
return the stuff tomorrow.

I was willing to pay for everything. Just in case the woman didnt give
it back. But my assist. manager said I was NOT gonna pay for ANYTHING
That Im not the person to screw up so it just needs to be a lesson
for me to learn and pay attention to who I give what to.

I just did my room pics. But Im too lazy to type everything
up right now. Tomorrow I have to get up early tomorrow to call
work and tell Steve what happened so when she returns it tomorrow
he knows what to do.

Ahhhhhhhh Im tired!

That book Im reading "Fan Mail" is suuuuuch a good book..so far?!

Oh today I got complimented on my nails a guy said..well heres what he said

Him: Nice nails...gothic lookin
Me:*giggles* yeah..my brother thinks Im a witch or something. *giggles*
Him: Nahhhhh. Did you know that in China *I think thats what he said*
they paint thier teeth black. And thats a sign of beauty..
Me: *giggles* well..I wont be doing that any time soon. *giggles*
Him: I think it looks great. You have a good day
Me: You too!

I got to thinking... whats great?! My nails or the black teeth? LMAO
I also giggle alot when talkin to people...=\

Whatever homeboy! Tomorrow Im gonna dye my hair..YAY! FINALLY!
I got like...5 inch roots showin here?! LMAO..well I dont know what
else to say. Gonna go read a lil bit.

-Patricia tickled you at 11:58 p.m.

March 12, 2003
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First..

Marcus says Hi! lmao

Second...

I cut my arm!? Look at that!
and I am NOT a wuss!
It...was just shocking!
Thats all!..lol

Well today I asked Steve about my peircing...mmmmhhhhmmmmm
NO!
Damn! I want that peircing sooo bad...but really..you cant
have that peircing and get a decent job. Unless..telemarketing.
Somewhere where your not talkin to people. Unlleeeesssss
Some place like Hot Topic...HEELLLLL YEAH! I think Ill look
into thaaaat! =P

Im gonna work on my site..
LMAO!?!?!?

yeaaaaaah thats funny..like Im even gonna have one!?
How about Ill just surprise you if I get one. =P

Well..I gotta go. Marcus is still sleepin.

Like he says...
Gonna do a lil dance..make a lil love..get down tonight...get down tonight!

MMMMMMMhhhhhhmmmmmm!

-Patricia scratched you at 9:56 p.m.

March 12, 2003
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Courtesy..of this post..oooooooof:
Tribalectic
BodyCandy

Alright this morning...I was looking at piercings for
the eye brow and labret...I wont those soooooo bad!
BUT I work at Eckerds and I dont know if they
will like that..annnnnnd SCHOOL! They suck ass!?
Id have to hide it from them and stuff. Its only three class
periods though..I miiiiight be able to pull it of. The only place
Im concerned about is work. So Im gonna ask them what they think. =\
Anyway wanna see the ones I really like and would get?

I havent found a good labret ring but here are my LOVES
of eyebrow rings.

IS THIS NOT THE CUTEST!?
BEAUTIFUL!?

Hellll yeah! beautimus!

this is my FAV of all!
I love it! Id prob
wear this one the most.

Hmmmmm Id prob wear this
one a lot too! Its soooo cute!

Alright thats it. Arent those cute?!
GAWD! I want a peircing so bad!
Im gonna try to get paypal. You guys wanna help
me get this peircing!? LOL...I love you guys!

I need to do the bike and run around the block
a few times. Im startin to get into it. DUDE!

You know those eckerd brand shakes I got...mmmmmmmmmm yummay?!

Alright..well I told Marcus about that guy...last night
we were talkin.....well...okay
nevermind..lmao...bye!

-Patricia pierced you at 9:51 a.m.

March 12, 2003
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Elemidate is nothin but a bunch of HATAZ! Its a really annoying funk!

STACY I LOVE YOU?! I JUST GOT YOUR "FEEDBACK"
BABY I LOVE YOU?!
lmao! And you know Im a crackhead?!
You act like you dont know me!? LOL...Remember Marcus?
How we went into that chat and all that mess? Wellll...Im stiiiiiilllll with Marcus!?
LMAO Aint that some shiat!? Hes sleepin on my bed right now...yeah..worn out! LMAO..jk
When's the next time your gonna be in town? We need to get together! Theres A LOT of shit I need
to catch you upp onnnnnnnn! Do you still talk to...Shawna...no..Shaina....no..OHhhhh shiiiiit!
I forgot her name?! =\ I remember the whole deal about her mom...awwwwwww girl I misssss you!?!?
You better email me. I dont know your email...so Uh..heavenlyhopes@hotmail.com
Email me girl!?

DAYUUUUMMMMM! Elimadate is so fuckin annoying I gotta change this mess. Its just a bunch of
girls talkin smack to eachother...wanna do that? Go on the Jerry Springer show where you can
actually kick some ass?!*looks at tv* And some stank hoes tooooooo! M...M...MMMMM! *shakes head*
DIRTY?!

HOLY HELL?! The guy on there looks familiar...lmao lame ass people go on shows to get a date. Some
of these guys are hot as hell tooooo...what are you doing on a shooooooow!?

Alright...
today I took a ten minute *at work* with Kelly..and there was this guy sittin by her car.
Well we struck up a conversation with him. He was the sweetest guy and so into his kids.
He was an ex heroin addict. And he wanted to change his life so he sells magazines about how to
get out of that stuff. And showed us his kids and told us hes doin this to support them and that
they are the only reason hes here. I dont know...hes a really sweet guy.

*hears on tv*
"Next week on Dawsons Creek"
HOLY HELL?! That show is stiiiillllll on!?
I work so I dont see it..but shiat...joey likes dawson...dawson like jen...dawson wants joey
joey like pacey....joey likes dawson...dawson like ...me...SHIT! Its the saaaaaame thing over and
OVER AGAIN?!

Sorry Im naggin..Im watching a show thats a bunch of people naggin...plus nothin else to
talk about...cept Rephsie better shut her fuckin mouth before I shove her ass into the damn cash register
and then shell REALLY have to be on register..but I dont know if her fat ass can really fit through there.
fuckin bitch....thank GOD shes quitting?! Alright...Marcus needs me..LMAO..Love you bye!?

-Patricia nagged you at 1:19 a.m.

March 11, 2003
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Two squirrals were just fightin outside! They were wrestling and then one ran and the other ran after it. Never
saw anything like it!

Youll have to excuse my ....weirdness? I just had a conversation with a very interesting person.
His name? Auto Response...DUN DUN DUUUUUN! It started out with a conversation with Marcus. But enndded...well
Ill let youuuuuu read.

INTERRUPTION
JUST BECAUSE I AM MEXICAN DOES NOT MEAN I SPEAK SPANISH PEICE OF SHIT! GAAAAWD!

Alright back tooo...yeahh...alright heres the convo.

AnGeL1cBeAuTy (9:24:40 AM): DONT THINK I DONT KNOW WHAT YOUR DOING!

Auto response from ogcsupport (9:24:41 AM): I am currently away from the computer.

ogcsupport (9:24:51 AM): im watchen dude wheres my car

AnGeL1cBeAuTy (9:24:59 AM): PUTTIN YOUR AWAY MESSAGE ON THINKING I WOULD THINK YOUR TAKING A
SHOWER BUT REALLY WATCHING DUDE WHERE MY CAR!

AnGeL1cBeAuTy (9:25:05 AM): GET YOUR STINKY BUTT IN THE SHOWER?!@

AnGeL1cBeAuTy (9:25:17 AM): alright...you asked for it *BAM BAM BAM BAM!!*

I JUST SHOT HIM!

ogcsupport (9:25:18 AM): quit yelling at me woman im going

ogcsupport (9:25:19 AM): lol

ogcsupport (9:25:23 AM): ahhhh!

AnGeL1cBeAuTy (9:25:23 AM): OMG! I didnt mean to shoot you?!

AnGeL1cBeAuTy (9:25:26 AM): Im so sorry

ogcsupport (9:25:27 AM): *8runs the the bathroom*

AnGeL1cBeAuTy (9:25:29 AM): ohhhh nooooooo

ogcsupport (9:25:32 AM): lol

ogcsupport (9:25:35 AM): shut up im going

ogcsupport (9:25:37 AM): lol

AnGeL1cBeAuTy (9:25:45 AM): *shruggs* well hes shoulda got in the shower

AnGeL1cBeAuTy (9:25:51 AM): noooow look what he made me do

AnGeL1cBeAuTy (9:25:55 AM): now hes got a bullet up his ass

Auto response from ogcsupport (9:25:57 AM): I am currently away from the computer.

AnGeL1cBeAuTy (9:26:03 AM): yeaaaaaah thats right buddy!

Auto response from ogcsupport (9:26:04 AM): I am currently away from the computer.

AnGeL1cBeAuTy (9:26:36 AM): Hey! Auto response! Look you fucker! I already told you why I shot him
you mother fucker?!

AnGeL1cBeAuTy (9:27:13 AM): Hes got a poop bag now you say Auto? ahahahah...I hope he thinks
of me everytime he emptys that mother fuckin thing MOTHER FUCKER?!

Auto response from ogcsupport (9:27:14 AM): I am currently away from the computer.

AnGeL1cBeAuTy (9:27:35 AM): lmao woooooaaaaah I need to put that movie awaaayyyyyy

Auto response from ogcsupport (9:27:40 AM): I am currently away from the computer.

AnGeL1cBeAuTy (9:27:48 AM): ALRIGHT ALRIGHT ALRIGHT!?

Auto response from ogcsupport (9:27:51 AM): I am currently away from the computer.

AnGeL1cBeAuTy (9:27:53 AM): I SEE YOUR AWAY!?

AnGeL1cBeAuTy (9:28:08 AM): Okay!? *BAM BAM BAM shoots Auto Response*

AnGeL1cBeAuTy (9:28:13 AM): OMG...double murder?!

LMAO THAT is why I just need to put the movie Freeway away! Almost everything I said was from that movie...
and me adding my things so it will make sense. Sheesh. I love that movie though. Lots of cussing and lots
of killing. =\ But Reese Witherspoon is in it..And shes greeeeeeeat! *Tony the Tiger Baby!*

Hmmmmm...alright..I agree..I will step away from the computer. Im gonna go eat breakfast now.

PAYCE!

-Patricia shot you at 9:41 p.m.

March 10, 2003
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[edit]

you are... Foxy Fox! SLUT! WHORE! SKANK! These words just roll off
your back like beads of hot sweat. You are
constantly horny. You use your sexuality to
your advantage, and often get what you want.
Sometimes it irritates others, but you'd never
change for them.

Which Purple Pussy character are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

[/edit]

HAHAHAHA Thiiiiis is toooo funny! Yet....true...hmmmmmmmmmm...
Ask Marcus..I can ALWAYS get what I want...right baby? hahahaha.

I went to work today only to find out I DONT work today I work next monday so I came home. =P
I did go to the library..*gasp* I know. But I got three books.

One is called "The Third Witch"

Black nails..and a witch book..OH NO! IM A WITCH! LOL...thats what my brother willlll say once I
show him what books I got. lol..
He freaked when he saw my nails were black and said I was gothic.
Anyway I also got "Fan Mail" no not based on that dumb email movie
and I got "The body in the bookcase".

As strange as this sounds. Im obsessed with murder and witch
books. I have always had an obbsession with witches and death. Like visiting rotton.com. I think
thats another reason I would be great on crime scene investigations, which is my future career...my
dream career! =P I need to finish my room pics. But I feel like reading.

Anyone know any good books?
Scary, mystery, murder books? or even witches? Leave the name of the book in the tagboard link up there.
Well...oh...about the last post. Its buggin me!? Anyway...Im gonna go read a lil then do the bike. You
would think Marcus wasnt here by the things I did today and about to do.

HES SLEEPING?!
Fool always sleeps!? LOL...Ill wake him up in my own special way ;) Goodnight. Ill try to post
my room pics later tonight or tomorrow.

-Patricia gutted you at 7:57 p.m.

March 10, 2003
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...Have you ever just had a dream and it bring back old memories and makes you dwell on the past?
Maybe not...but I dwell on my past...I have a hard time moving on. But only things that...had an impact
on me in some weird way...whether it be pain, happiness...something! If I remember it...theres a reason
and I will remember it and dwell on it for a long time. Well last night

I had a dream about someone...and when I woke up...I felt like I had three different dreams..because well...
I did...but it was like...I felt as though I had them before. But I know I havent.

Heres a question...

Have you ever wanted something so bad you cant have?

Marcus would die if and when he sees this. Theres someone from my past I had a dream about. Hes a
mystery to me though. Its like...we met in a wierd way and ended in a terrible way. I saved some convos we
had online. And when I read them I was like..wtf was I thinkin when I said these things?! I realized
when I was younger I REALLY overreacted on A LOT of stuff....no wonder I was called a Drama Queen
=\ Well I had a dream about this person...and in a way I wish I went longer with him and got to know what
would have happened. Im the kind of person that says "well what if..." to a lot of things.

One thing I DONT regret is meeting Marcus and him being in my life right now. But then again
I wish I met him later because Im in such a committed relationship that I wish I got to experience with
other guys. I wish I met more guys and got out a lot more. I cant drop Marcus and be like "let me do my thing
then we can get back together later" you know? I wish I got to know this other guy. I even want to be his friend...
But Im scared Im gonna see the side of him people have told me they see that I didnt. And Ill fall for him. I
cant do that to Marcus. Marcus is the best thing that has happened to me. I love him so much. But I dont know..
I just...I have that question in my head..Ill say it again only because its runnin through my mind like wild fire.

Have you ever wanted something so bad you cant have?

I feel bad because I know Marcus is gonna be hurt. But Im being honest. Well I better go before I get too much into
this and blow the "him". I dont want anyone to know who it is. If this person ever found out that its him. It will
just...blow everything. I gotta go though. I got some errands to do. When Im not doin anything. Ill post my room pics. =)

-Patricia surprised you at 9:56 a.m.

March 9, 2003
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Wellllllllllll I didnt do anything I said I was gonna do...=) I was too tired....buuuuut remember
how I said I went shopping yesterday? Well I took pics of some of the stuff I got.
After I had put almost everything away I thought I would take pics..so I only have pics of some of the stuff I got.
I also got a lot more nail polishes today! They were free. To make a long story short...it was free after the coupon.
Heres the stuff!

I LOVE thier shampoo
and conditioner...they are great!
so I thought I should
try thier other stuff.

I got alllll these free!
I got all sorts of colors
plus the ones I got today.

I know Im lame for
for gettin this. But
I want plump lips!
But after much thought
I decided Im gonna return
it tomorrow. Long story.

When I have the sniffles..
I haaaaaave the sniffles!
These went into my car. =P

They were cute!
What more could I say!?

And theeese are for me
to get well! Generic
stuff works for me
so why not? =)

Alright I got all this stuff yesterday...and heres an update...that Got2B face wash...works good...lol on
the smooth part anyway. It says it makes your face feel smooth...it does! I havent tried the mask yet!
I also got diet shakes...but that,the pills, and the cough drops were all Eckerd Brand it was
70% off all Eckerd Brand products so I thought..hey with my 10% discount...80% off in all! Good deal! =P

Now I know
ALOT OF people are embarrassed to use coupons..well I use them....I dont care...anything to save me money
since Eckerds pays crappy I need to save money! Look at my reciept!

Saved almost 35 dollars! Go me Go me! SO you could image all the stuff I got.
This is just SOME of the stuff I got.

Total= $29.64
Total Discount(thats the employee discount)= $4.83
Saved in coupons= $28.45!

Thats $28.45 somone WOULDNT have if they didnt use coupons! LOL...

Wellllllllll! Im out! Ohhhhh! Tour of my room Pictures..DUH!

Wellllll! Ill work on that now! Ill post them later! Bye!

-Patricia excited you at 9:24 p.m.

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