Thoughts I need to let out
Mood:
sad
Well it is late in the night and I cant really sleep. I haven't gotten to talk to you since Thursday night. Hurt because I didn't get to tell you I loved you and well I found out you got transferred. There is no telling how long it will be before I get to see you again or even till I am able to talk to you on the phone again! I'm just not sure what I am going to do now. Things just aren't going well for me... and I am not too sure what I am going to do next. Baby I know you aren't going to get to read this till after you get home but this is one way I know will help me to release the way I am feeling. I love you so much and miss you too! Maybe the pace will pick up and go by faster. I am not sure how I am going to make it but I am doing everything known to man to hold in here! I am by your side and I pray every night that you will be able to come home sooner than what we think. There is nothing more I could ask for than to have you in my life. I look forward to the day that we will finally be together for the rest of out lives. I am trying to get into the doctors to get a visit so i can see how far I have till the baby is born. I'm kind of hoping it is a boy. I know you don't want me to have to do things on my own but I am going to and I am going to do everything that I can to make sure that we have a happy family when you get home! I miss you so much honey! I seriously do not know what I would do without you! You have helped me come a long way since I moved back here. You helped me get the job I have and I love it there.. they are always helping me with things and trying to keep me on the high side of like and not in a bad mood or upset mood b/c I cant be with you and hold you right now. Everyone there is really trying to help me make it through. Well baby, honey, love of my life, I love you more than anything but I probably should go for the night... it is like 2:10 am and I need to get some kind of sleep. I need it being pregnant and well... I cant put my body through this stress other wise we wont have a baby due to it... I love you and please baby take care of yourself so you can come home sooner!! I love you so much honey. I'm here for you 110% and I love you with all my heart and soul!