Some before pics
I have decided to put up some before pictures. I have blocked my face out. If I decide to keep this journal running I will post before and midway pics showing my face when I advertise it to the world.





I hope this works!

End of week 1.......
and I'm down 2.6kg. My weight now sits on 93.5kg! I'm very happy with that result. If I can rid myself of another 1kg this week I'll be very happy indeed. I really need to work on my exercise this week and I didn't do much last week.

I'm having tomorrow off sick as I've had the runs all afternoon and dinner came out the same (I know too much info), so I think I'll keep my burning ring of fire at home. My FIL will be arriving on Wednesday so it will give me a good chance to clean up the whole house (while being close to the loo) and I might even attempt my Walk Away the pounds DVD that I haven't done yet. I should try and do that each morning and get up when Bry does but this house doesn't have a lot of room in the lounge area, but once we move to the new house I will have no excuse as the lounge room is a much better layout and has plenty of room.

Once the weather warms up a bit and all the work has been completed on the new house I'm going to start walking to work in the morning. I'm hoping to build this up to running. It's around 5.5km from home to work and there is a shower in the Gents which I can use (my boss will put a good lock on the door) so that won't be a problem. I will drop my uniforms off on a Sunday afternoon and keep some makeup and a small hairdryer in my locker. Ther only thing will be getting a lift home of an afternoon. That part I haven't worked out yet! I have a while to think about it anyway.

I had my meeting tonight with Michelle. She was lovely and I hate to say it but I prefer her to Becky. I know that Becky is new and everyone needs to start somewhere but the fact that she doesn't really need to lose weight and has never been on Jenny Craig really turned me off. I want to speak to someone who has been where I have. It doesn't matter if they had to lose 5kg or 150kg, that fact that they believe in JC means everything to someone who is hoping that JC can change their life!!!

I've decided that after the three weeks of planned meals I am going to shake things up a bit by choosing my own meals each day. I'm hoping that this will start to prepare me for when I hit halfway and have to go it alone 2 days each week. The portion control thing is what has really blown me away. I now realise that I was eating two-four times what I should be. I have not been hungry (as long as I eat my salads and vegies) and am blown away by how much less I am eating.

I can't wait to be seeing 80? on the scales!

My Doctor is a bloody idiot!
I've decided that I am definatly going to change my Doctor.

As I have PCOS I had to get a letter from my Dr saying that it was OK for me to go on JC. When I went in he told me that JC was not medically sound but he would sign it for me. He then went on to tell me that I was only fighting my genetics and I should be happy with my weight.....HELLO.... I'm friggin 30 kilos overweight, a very high risk for type 2 diabeties (PCOS related) and your telling me to be happy with my weight! He then went on to tell me that the average person eats around 5 times what they should each day and that the only way for me to be successful with my weight loss is through self control. Yes I can have a hamburger, but only two bites and then I have to through the rest away (year right!). He then asked me what sort of exercise I was doing. I told him usually around 15-30mins on the elleptical trainer and then 20 minutes on the bike, oh and I also try and do a couple of pump classes a week. He then asked me if I thought exercise would help me lose weight of which of course I answered YES! Apparently not according to Dr Idiot. For exercise to make you lose weight you would need to do 6 hours a day, however exercise is good for you so I should keep it up. He then went on to tell me that I should be able to live on a boiled egg a day as the human body is designed to be able to go without food for months on end. At this point I was not going to argue with this Dr because he obviously knew everything. What a stupid thing to say to someone who is trying to lose weight for their health and wellbeing!!! AAAARRRRGGGGHHHH!

Anyway I'm not listening to his nonsense as I know that JC is going to help me lose weight and their program will also help me to keep it off forever, no matter how genetically disfunct my body is.....lol.

I am still loving the food and the feeling of being in control. I have had some pretty bad withdrawls from the alcohol but I know that they will go away. It feels great to wake up in the morning with a clear head. I've have been pretty moody which I am putting down to lack of alcohol, but I'm sure that will also pass and I will be back to my happy self before long.

Better get back to work and finish this end of financial year clean up!

You little ripper!!!!
The water weight is coming off. I know I should not weigh mid week but I understand that the scale does lie at time and if overall they are on a downward slide and my measurements are fine then I don't let it bother me. It's nice to keep yourself in check and I will only weigh once midweek, not mulitple times a day like I use to. Anyway they are down to 93.8kg (down 2.3kg) so my water weight is definatly moving, now let's get working of the fat!!!! YEAH!!!

I have to write in here about how great I felt last night for overcoming one of my weaknesses, alcohol. Yesterday was end of financial year so the pressure was really on at work and as usual most of the jobs were left until the last minute and then passed onto me (NOT HAPPY JAN!!!), so anyway, on my way home the committe in my head started on me..... Get a bottle of wine, you deserve it, you've had such a hard day, go on. I managed to steer the car home without driving through the bottleshop. When I get home I'm doing the dishes and B calls, I'm coming home with a guest for dinner do you want anything from the bottleshop. It's a sign!!!! Yes go on and have a bottle you know you want to. I SAID YES, then quickly said no. I've spent all this money on JC food AND I want to achieve my goals. Drinking wine will not get me closer to my goals and I've told myself that I no longer drink at home. PHEW! I was so glad I didn't have that drink and this morning I woke up with a smile knowing that I was 1 day closer to looking stunning on my wedding day. In the past I would have drunk the wine without giving it a second thought. I know now that I have to work out my stresses in other ways. I was all fired up to go to the gym but with our dinner guest I had to cook extra dinner but I'm not going to beat myself up over it. I stuck with my JC plan and I can make up the exercise today!

I will be so happy if I step on those scales Monday morning and they read 93kg (205#). I'm going to be back under that 200 pound mark before I know it!

Can I lick the bowl pleeeeease!!!!
Well I'm half way through day two and I have to tell you............I'm loving it!

The food has been really nice which I must admit I'm a little suprised about. You know how frozen foods sometimes can taste! B made a comment last night that the food must be OK becuase I just about licked the bowl!

Anyway I had not real problems yesterday. My chocolate mousse was to die for (that one will be a regular on my food plan) and the times I found myself thinking about food and thinking myself hungry I managed to have a glass of water and snap myself out of it. I know I eat a lot out of boredom and now that I realise that and acknowledge it I'm hoping it will not become such an issue for me.

B has just informed me that we have a BBQ on this Friday night. A friend who I met on the JC forum was telling me about a BBQ she went to last weekend. She ate her JC meal before she went and just had salad when she got there. That is what I'm going to do. I'll also drive so there will be no excuse for alcohol!

Day 1 begins
I need to take some pics today to show my start weight with JC. Might take the digital camera home tonight and get the boy to take some for me.

The food for today looks great. I think I will have trouble getting through it all, but we will see how I'm feeling at the end of the day. I have my gym bag packed and will head off straight from work (no excuses!!!)

My goals for the week:

1. Stick with the plan day by day
2. Get in at least 30 minutes exercise a day (if I miss a day I need to catch up with 60 minutes the following day)
3. No alcohol.

On the no alcohol part. I think I will be fine with this (says a bottle of wine per night drinker). I am spending my wine money on JC food so I CAN'T drink anything for quite a while. I just have to keep telling myself that. If we go out to dinner with friends I will indulge in one or two glasses but from now on no drinking at home!!!!

My food for today looks like this:

Flakes, fruit & fibre
1/2 cup non fat milk
2 slices of toast (I only had one)
2 tsp peanut butter

Banana

Broccoli & cheese baked potato
Garden salad
1 tomato
3 tbs avacado
1 apple

1 kiwifruit
2/3 cup fat free yoghurt

Beef lasagne
1 cup green beans

Chocolate mousse (yummmo)
1 kiwifruit

Don't know how I will go eating all of that but I'll give it a try (remind me I said that in three days when I'm starving....lololol).

I'm excited!
MY FOOD ARRIVED!!!! I went and paid my $22 postage at the railway and picked up two boxes (one frozen and one dry). I ducked home and put my frozen box in our deep freeze, ripped open the dry box and grabbed out the info about the foods etc and headed back to work.

I have had a look over the three weeks of menu plans and am excited about trying different things.

I have glanced over the success journals etc and the information looks very good. Whoever said that JC don't teach you how to eat on your own were kidding themselves. There is heaps of information in the pack I received and a whole big booklet on maintenance.

I'll let you know how it all goes after I have spoken to Michelle (a counsellor) tonight.

I know that this will work for me!

Why can't we pick our relatives!!!!
My sister and I have never gotten along. Why does my Mum insist I have her as a bridesmaid. If I was having 100 bridesmaids I still would not want my sister in my wedding party. Now Mum is pulling the old.... If you continue with this crap your Father and I won't be coming....... AARRRGGGHHHH!

So the result is I cannot ask my good friend of 10 years, Jo to be my bridesmaid and will only be having my cousin Kayla just so my sister isn't upset! The stupid cow hasn't called me since January as she's too upset with me! WHAT THE HELL DID I DO!!!!! It would be different if we were close in anyway. We lived in the same town together for nearly two years and only saw each other three times, I think that says it all! Of the three times we did see each other it was when I went over there. All I can think about is when she asked me to be her bridesmaid..... I don't want you to be my bridesmaid but Mum is making me! I know I should be forgiving but she makes it so hard.

Anyway enough of that. I drank a bottle of champagne last night after the conversation with my Mum which is not a good thing. I need to handle my stress better. Instead of drinking the champers I should have picked up my bible and prayed for strength! Today is another day and I keep saying to myself....... I no longer drink at home, I no longer drink at home. It will sink in eventually.

On a plus not this morning I was still stressed about the whole thing and thought to myself...... since I'm so stressed I might have a caramel slice. That will make me feel better. I managed to talk myself out of it and settled on a Diet Choc Mousse. It fixed my chocolate craving and is very low fat/cal so all is good. I may not have won with the champagne last night but at least I am not letting her get the better of me and my goals today!

I am hanging out for my JC food to arrive. I am doing my best to eat well and sort of follow the JC menu plans that were on the website, just using Lean Cuisines for lunches and light meals for dinners. My snacks have been healthy too. I am really proud of doing this becuase in the past if I knew I was going to WW on a Monday I would pig out all weekend on junk food to get my fix in before I started. JC is a lifestyle plan, yes I know I'm eating their food, but their plan also has a maintenance side to it which is a good thing. I know that I am going to be successful at this, not just to look good on my wedding day but to also live a healthier life.

Better get back to work, just wanted to vent about my sister and reinforce to myself that I will win this battle of the bulge and am not going to let my family stresses get me down!

Have to wait until Monday!
I have been struggling with my weight for quite sometime now and am SICK OF IT!!!!!

The past 6 months I have tried numerous things to try and shift this weight but have not had any success. I find I change my mind too often and find it hard to stick with things. I know Jenny Craig will fix that. I need the structure of knowing what I will be eating each day and at this point in time the convenience of not having to prepare food each day. I know a lot of people don't believe this is the right way to go, however I have fully researched the JC program and it does have a maintenance program that follow the weight loss one. I guess too many people think once they get to goal they no longer need help which as we all know is a sure fire way to end up back where you begun or even worse, heavier! I am going to stick with this program until I am at my goal weight and then I WILL follow the maintenance program to ensure I learn what I need to keep at goal weight.

This journal is for me. I have decided I will start advertising the fact that I have it when I am halfway to goal (82kg). If you are reading this then guess what.....I'm halfway to goal! My goal I have set for myself if 68kg. I would love to be at that weight for my wedding in April of next year but if I get down to 74kg I will still be very happy, so either way we look at it I still have a lot of weight to lose. My start weight is 96kg and the heaviest I have ever been was 99.3kg.

As I live in a remote part of Australia my JC food has to come by rail to me. I ordered my first three weeks of the set menu (minus seafood....yuk) and am now waiting impatiently for Monday to roll around so I can start fresh on Tuesday morning.

I spoke with Tracey from the Townsville JC Centre and she was very helpful and seems to be a genuine person. Michelle will be calling me on Monday night after I have received my food to go over everything with me and answer any questions I might have. One thing that JC promotes is support, something I really need if I want to be looking stunning on my wedding day.

My exercise routine is OK. I joined our local gym (thanks to my wonderful employer who paid for half of it) and have been going (fairly) consistantly since I joined. The only problem being that my eating plan seemed to go out the window at the same time. It's probably due to the exercise that I'm not currently over 100kg because I sure should be with the amount I have been eating.

To keep me motivated I have printed out all of the success stories on the JC websites and have been reading through them in my spare time. So many people have been successful with JC and have managed to keep the weight off. I know that next year my picture will be one of those success stories! I have also joined the JC forum. There are a lot of lovely people on there and the best part is that we all have the same goal in mind, weight loss and health. I look forward to getting to know them all better and share in their successes also.