I'm excited!
MY FOOD ARRIVED!!!! I went and paid my $22 postage at the railway and picked up two boxes (one frozen and one dry). I ducked home and put my frozen box in our deep freeze, ripped open the dry box and grabbed out the info about the foods etc and headed back to work.

I have had a look over the three weeks of menu plans and am excited about trying different things.

I have glanced over the success journals etc and the information looks very good. Whoever said that JC don't teach you how to eat on your own were kidding themselves. There is heaps of information in the pack I received and a whole big booklet on maintenance.

I'll let you know how it all goes after I have spoken to Michelle (a counsellor) tonight.

I know that this will work for me!

Why can't we pick our relatives!!!!
My sister and I have never gotten along. Why does my Mum insist I have her as a bridesmaid. If I was having 100 bridesmaids I still would not want my sister in my wedding party. Now Mum is pulling the old.... If you continue with this crap your Father and I won't be coming....... AARRRGGGHHHH!

So the result is I cannot ask my good friend of 10 years, Jo to be my bridesmaid and will only be having my cousin Kayla just so my sister isn't upset! The stupid cow hasn't called me since January as she's too upset with me! WHAT THE HELL DID I DO!!!!! It would be different if we were close in anyway. We lived in the same town together for nearly two years and only saw each other three times, I think that says it all! Of the three times we did see each other it was when I went over there. All I can think about is when she asked me to be her bridesmaid..... I don't want you to be my bridesmaid but Mum is making me! I know I should be forgiving but she makes it so hard.

Anyway enough of that. I drank a bottle of champagne last night after the conversation with my Mum which is not a good thing. I need to handle my stress better. Instead of drinking the champers I should have picked up my bible and prayed for strength! Today is another day and I keep saying to myself....... I no longer drink at home, I no longer drink at home. It will sink in eventually.

On a plus not this morning I was still stressed about the whole thing and thought to myself...... since I'm so stressed I might have a caramel slice. That will make me feel better. I managed to talk myself out of it and settled on a Diet Choc Mousse. It fixed my chocolate craving and is very low fat/cal so all is good. I may not have won with the champagne last night but at least I am not letting her get the better of me and my goals today!

I am hanging out for my JC food to arrive. I am doing my best to eat well and sort of follow the JC menu plans that were on the website, just using Lean Cuisines for lunches and light meals for dinners. My snacks have been healthy too. I am really proud of doing this becuase in the past if I knew I was going to WW on a Monday I would pig out all weekend on junk food to get my fix in before I started. JC is a lifestyle plan, yes I know I'm eating their food, but their plan also has a maintenance side to it which is a good thing. I know that I am going to be successful at this, not just to look good on my wedding day but to also live a healthier life.

Better get back to work, just wanted to vent about my sister and reinforce to myself that I will win this battle of the bulge and am not going to let my family stresses get me down!

Have to wait until Monday!
I have been struggling with my weight for quite sometime now and am SICK OF IT!!!!!

The past 6 months I have tried numerous things to try and shift this weight but have not had any success. I find I change my mind too often and find it hard to stick with things. I know Jenny Craig will fix that. I need the structure of knowing what I will be eating each day and at this point in time the convenience of not having to prepare food each day. I know a lot of people don't believe this is the right way to go, however I have fully researched the JC program and it does have a maintenance program that follow the weight loss one. I guess too many people think once they get to goal they no longer need help which as we all know is a sure fire way to end up back where you begun or even worse, heavier! I am going to stick with this program until I am at my goal weight and then I WILL follow the maintenance program to ensure I learn what I need to keep at goal weight.

This journal is for me. I have decided I will start advertising the fact that I have it when I am halfway to goal (82kg). If you are reading this then guess what.....I'm halfway to goal! My goal I have set for myself if 68kg. I would love to be at that weight for my wedding in April of next year but if I get down to 74kg I will still be very happy, so either way we look at it I still have a lot of weight to lose. My start weight is 96kg and the heaviest I have ever been was 99.3kg.

As I live in a remote part of Australia my JC food has to come by rail to me. I ordered my first three weeks of the set menu (minus seafood....yuk) and am now waiting impatiently for Monday to roll around so I can start fresh on Tuesday morning.

I spoke with Tracey from the Townsville JC Centre and she was very helpful and seems to be a genuine person. Michelle will be calling me on Monday night after I have received my food to go over everything with me and answer any questions I might have. One thing that JC promotes is support, something I really need if I want to be looking stunning on my wedding day.

My exercise routine is OK. I joined our local gym (thanks to my wonderful employer who paid for half of it) and have been going (fairly) consistantly since I joined. The only problem being that my eating plan seemed to go out the window at the same time. It's probably due to the exercise that I'm not currently over 100kg because I sure should be with the amount I have been eating.

To keep me motivated I have printed out all of the success stories on the JC websites and have been reading through them in my spare time. So many people have been successful with JC and have managed to keep the weight off. I know that next year my picture will be one of those success stories! I have also joined the JC forum. There are a lot of lovely people on there and the best part is that we all have the same goal in mind, weight loss and health. I look forward to getting to know them all better and share in their successes also.