My sister and I have never gotten along. Why does my Mum insist I have her as a bridesmaid. If I was having 100 bridesmaids I still would not want my sister in my wedding party. Now Mum is pulling the old.... If you continue with this crap your Father and I won't be coming....... AARRRGGGHHHH!
So the result is I cannot ask my good friend of 10 years, Jo to be my bridesmaid and will only be having my cousin Kayla just so my sister isn't upset! The stupid cow hasn't called me since January as she's too upset with me! WHAT THE HELL DID I DO!!!!! It would be different if we were close in anyway. We lived in the same town together for nearly two years and only saw each other three times, I think that says it all! Of the three times we did see each other it was when I went over there. All I can think about is when she asked me to be her bridesmaid..... I don't want you to be my bridesmaid but Mum is making me! I know I should be forgiving but she makes it so hard.
Anyway enough of that. I drank a bottle of champagne last night after the conversation with my Mum which is not a good thing. I need to handle my stress better. Instead of drinking the champers I should have picked up my bible and prayed for strength! Today is another day and I keep saying to myself....... I no longer drink at home, I no longer drink at home. It will sink in eventually.
On a plus not this morning I was still stressed about the whole thing and thought to myself...... since I'm so stressed I might have a caramel slice. That will make me feel better. I managed to talk myself out of it and settled on a Diet Choc Mousse. It fixed my chocolate craving and is very low fat/cal so all is good. I may not have won with the champagne last night but at least I am not letting her get the better of me and my goals today!
I am hanging out for my JC food to arrive. I am doing my best to eat well and sort of follow the JC menu plans that were on the website, just using Lean Cuisines for lunches and light meals for dinners. My snacks have been healthy too. I am really proud of doing this becuase in the past if I knew I was going to WW on a Monday I would pig out all weekend on junk food to get my fix in before I started. JC is a lifestyle plan, yes I know I'm eating their food, but their plan also has a maintenance side to it which is a good thing. I know that I am going to be successful at this, not just to look good on my wedding day but to also live a healthier life.
Better get back to work, just wanted to vent about my sister and reinforce to myself that I will win this battle of the bulge and am not going to let my family stresses get me down!