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Liz's Journal
Karen's Journal
Krystle's Journal

December 25, 2003

So I guess I’ll just talk about the weekend. I don’t know when I last updated so I’ll just start with Friday. I hung out with Kristin all day, and we ran errands and I got my hair cut. It’s really short, and I liked it when the guy styled it, but I don’t like it when it’s just down. I guess I’ll have to work on styling it. Its cute with a hat though, and I like it in a ponytail, but I’m just not really satisfied with it down. Oh well, hair grows. Later that day I studied a bit, and then we went to dinner with Ben and Paul and their friend Tracy. Then later I got another dinner, a chicken wrap, and went to coldstone with Kristin and Jen. Oh yeah and before that I went to the midnight madness sale at freeride and got a beanie and a backpack for half price. It was funny after coldstone Kristin mentioned something about how Amelia’s new boyfriend is the guy that Kristin hooked up with three times and had a huge crush on, and I looked at Jen and she goes “heh, I guess that’s just the way things work” cause it’s the exact same situation here too. Anyway I went to bed early that night cause I had my test early Sat. morning.

Saturday morning I woke up at 6:45 to go take my test, which I got a 85 on, giving me a B+ in that class. Good enough. Then I went back to bed and Kristin and I went for coffee, and then made collages all day. They’re really neat. We cut up magazines and pics and they came out really well. I made hers and she made mine. Then we went to the condo with Jen, did some laundry, showered, and baked Christmas cookies for the boys although Ryan got them all cause Kyle already left. Last night was fun. After we ate we went over to Bobby’s at lakeside around 10:30 with Ryan, and his brother bought us a bunch of beer. We played ring of fire and shoulders, and then went to the bit 21st birthday party with an open bar. I had some of that, and and ice shot. So I was pretty bad. On the car ride home, I kissed Mike (new), or well maybe he kissed me, which was probly a mistake but it was just real fast. Like I think the kid is really cool but I don’t like the fact that they’re like friends with Ryan and Kyle, and I’d rather not have Kyle know about it, even if nothing is going to happen with me and him again, I dunno I just wouldn’t want him to know. Oh well, whatever happens happens. It was only like a two second thing. The whole night was really fun though. I have marker all over both of my arms and my hips, although I was the one that let people write. It’s funny I guess. We hung out with Ryan a little bit it his room after lakeside and ate a bunch of the cookies, and then went to bed. I definitely didn’t get much sleep cause it was like 4:30 and I got up at 8:30. Oh well. Now I’m stuck in this airport, which is why this is so long. I have nothing better to do with my time. I’m kinda sad about going home just cause I’m going to miss all the fun things we do in Florida, but it’ll be good to see everyone at home. Hopefully I can visit other colleges too, and it’ll be a good time. I guess I’ll end my rambling on that note.

Today wasn't all that productive, but it seemed so because I wasn't really in my room at all. First we went and got me cold medicine because it felt like someone was stabbing me in the throat. Then we went to the bank, and then to Florida Book Store to sell back out books. I got 95$ which is nothing compared to what I paid for them, but I haven't had 95$ cash since I've been here so it'd pretty sweet. Then we went to starbucks, and then to make an appointment to get my hair cut. Next we went to the mall, but didn't buy anything except funky polka dot tights from gap kids that didn't fit, but I'm going to turn them into knee socks. I tryed to get seven or diesel jeans but there wasn't good ones. Anyway, that was that. Tonight was pretty fun. We talked to Bobby online and then me and Kristin went over there and hung out for awhile with him and his other roommate Mike, and then Christine came over later. At like 1 we went to pita pit and then to buy playing cards so we could play drinking games. We ran out of beer real past though, so I only got buzzed. We had a good time though just hanging out with new boys and all. They're really fun too. We came home about 2:30, and saw Ryan and Kyle coming back at the same time and walked back to them dorms with them and now it's time for bed.

Other random stuff from the day: The food sucked, lunch and dinner. Me and Kristin were just like what?? is going on here. They must be trying to get rid of stuff for the holidays or something. I picked up an "exam survival kit" that Mom had sent which is just full of candy and food, so I've been eating that, and also a coupon for a free "good luck pizza". And we saw Kyle outside and he said he didn't mean anything by the "what the fuck are you wearing" remark yesterday. haha I didn't think he thought he actually hurt my feelings, which he didn't cause I deserved it, haha but that was pretty cool. I guess thats about it, now all I have to the study for psych for Wednesday.

** Oh yeah! I forgot to mention I got the drunkest picture I've ever seen of myself developed today. I'm laying under the covers in Ben's bed with Kristin and I have one eye half closed, and theyre pointing in, and this crazy weird smile, and don't think I'm even looking at the camera, hahah. Needless to say that one didn't make it to the album.

**Just adding in other key funny factors of the night. I somehow text Jen "Im fuckinsuckin drunk" and when she asked who was driving me I said "you bitch" haha when she wasn't even with us. Kristin stole a caution wet floor thing, and it was in her room this morning (carried it up 4 flights of stairs I guess). I took an hour long nap in Ben's room, I've been falling alseep while drunk alot lately. And as for some advice, never wear birkenstocks to a big party.

This morning when I woke up I didn't have my phone, and I was really scared. We called it, but no one answered, but then I called Ben and it was in his room, and I got it back. Phew, I wouldn't know what to do if I lost my phone. Today I'm going to see "A Christmas Carol" at the hippodrome theatre with the Johnston's and Kristin, and then I don't know what later. I'm excited for the play though, should be fun.

Saturday I woke up at like 9:30 and felt really sick at first, but then felt better. I hate when I mix so many different drinks its so bad. I had like bacardi in the jello and strawberry, beer, crown royale, and some of a screwdriver, thats not cool to mix all that, making me sick even though I wasn't extremely drunk or anything. So I was kind of hung over but I got better. Kristin picked us up from Mike's and we went thrift shopping. I didn't get anything though. Then we took Karen to pita pit, and came back and chilled here. We got Christine and went to Jen's condo and watched a movie, and made our pina coladas. They were soooo good! We headed back to the dorms at like 10, and pregamed in Kristins room with just more of the bacardi and gatorade. Then we snaped over to Tuck's dorm in Yulee to hang out with those boys. We were planing on going to a party at the brick house after, but then the ra caught everyone drinking and smoking in the dorm room. Luckily me and Karen both weren't in the room cause we were both on our phones, so we went downstairs and didn't get in trouble. She just took everyone's info in the room and I guess they'll see what happens later. Karen was kind of tired, and it was already like 1, so we just decided not to go to the party, even though everyone else still went. I had sobered up so I drove us to Jen's condo so we could both have beds.

Today we got up at like 10 and impulsively decided to go to the beach cause it was so nice out. We got there by like 12:45 and it was sooo nice. Perfect weather, I was really glad Karen got to experience. We stayed on the beach till like 3, and then got food and walked around downtown St. Augustine. We left there at like 5:30. On the way home it got really dark, and we went the wrong way at one point, 30 minutes out of the way. It sucked and we were all so tired but we got back on track. It was soo scary though, at one point we passed this sketchy as hell black car sitting in the grass median in the middle of the road with the lights off, and some guy in the drivers seat who had that windows down was holding something pointing it out and we swore it was a gun. Kristin and I like flipped out, Karen didn't really see. It was such a scary feeling. We called the Florida Highway Patrol and they dispatched people to go check it out. Hopefully that all got fixed. Tonight we just got all cleaned up and put on comfy pj's and ordered chinese food and watched a movie in Kristins room. So I definitely had a really good time this weekend, and was really glad Karen could come. It won't be a very sad goodbye though cause I'm coming home Wednesday!! I'm so excited about that.

Today I had my psych test. I don't know how I did though because I didn't stay for the answers. I guess I'll find out tomorrow or Wednesday. As for the rest of the day I just hung out and finished my first year Florida portfolio. It's so stupid, but at least its done. I tired to go to yoga at 8 but the class was full so we went to Freshens instead. Try to work out but eat instead, of course, haha. Now I'm just hanging out here, cause Jen went to Mike's of course. I guess I could go upstairs to Kristins but I think im just going to watch some tv and then I have a phone date with Liz at 10:30.

Got up at 6 this morning, my alarm woke up Santrese too, to which her responce was "What the fuck?" haha gotta love that. We left to go to the race at 6:30. It started at 8, and was actually pretty fun. I enjoyed running those 9.3 miles. I ran an 1:18.52, which is 8:27 pace so thats good enough for me now. It felt really good to acomplish finishing such a long race. We came back and ate at Broward, I tried to nap but Jen called and was like "we're going to Mike's" so I went there, watch the Gators win the game, and we went down to the art festival downtown. They had really neat stuff but it was all really expensive. Came back from that, oh yeah, and we got to ride in Mike's bug!! It's one of those really old restored ones, and it's bright yellow. I don't really mind being around him anymore, but he seems so down, or just not excited about anything, or something. Later we went to Freshens, and out to Chili's, and then we went over to Mike's and chilled there till like 12. Us girls were basically just chillin in his house playing nintendo walking around while he sat in his room and watched a movie, haha. So we decided to leave at 12. Highlight of the night was I drove alot which was pretty cool. Kristin's extera, I like driving suv's. So this was a pretty low key weekend, but thats alright, I went out Thursday, and was def too tired tonight to do anything spectacular after that race. Karen comes next weekend, yay I can't wait!

Today I went to advising and fiqured out the classes I need to register. I need to take another education class, statistics, geology, and speech. So it should be pretty hard, but at least I'm only going to take 12 credits. I'd rather be here longer, and have more fun and not be so stressed, than deal with 5 classes each semester. Later I think we're going to go sneak into that hot tub at the Hilton and maybe go out, I'm not sure yet so we'll see. Oh yeah and I got two surprise packages today!! Cal and Eagles both sent me shot glasses from DC, but when I was reaching for a box on top of my bookcase the one from Eagles fell and broke. :( It was sad, I only had it for like two hours. But at least I got packages which was happy. That about it for now, time to do more psych, yesss!

Today we skipped education, I slept till 11:30, and we went to lunch and then to some cute little boutiques. I wish I was rich though. Tonight is like a Sat night so no classes tomorrow. I wouln't mind going out but I also wouldnt mid just hanging around and doing fun stuff like last night, so we'll see how that goes. AND I get to sleep in again, yes!

So anyway, Kevin came on Thursday. That was cool to get to see him. We went on a little walk around campus, but it got dark so he didn't really get to see much of it, only like a little bit. Then we went to El Indio and Coldstone, yum yum. That night a bunch of us went out to some kid Ben's apartment I think it was, or his friends, or something. Kristin knows him through a girl on her floor I think. We chilled there for awhile, and I attemped to play a few drinking games but there were kind of too many people. After awhile Ryan and Kyle met up with us there with some other people. We didn't stay long though, came back to the dorms around 1 or 1:30 and we all just hung out in the hallway/my room. We ordered five star, and took a good group of random drunken pictures in the hallway. Those kids are pretty funny to hang out around. I enjoy it. I guess I went to bed around 3ish?? Maybe 4, not to sure.

Friday we got up at 8:30, got football tix at 9, and made our way to St. Augustine at 9:30. It was sooo nice out. Perfect beach weather. Maybe the nicest day I've been to the beach so far that I've been here. It was me, Kev, Kristin, and Christine, and we stayed for about 3 hours I guess. I don't feel like I got much color though, bleh. I def didn't get burned. We came back, and got ready for Gator Growl. It was eh, ok. The first commedian was funny, the second was only ok, and Sugay Ray was just whatever, haha. It just wan't a super amount of fun. Afterwords we went to that surf house for a party, but it was really huge and hard to walk around, so we just went back to Mike's. I had fun, but I dunno it just bothers me. Why did the kid change so much, err. I just don't feel good hanging around there anymore. It was decent though, we played some drinknig games for a bit. Then we went to bed though and it was both me and Jen sleeping in his bed. Real cool I know. I felt out of place and weird though. Like I shouldn't have even been in his bed, but yet two weeks ago it was soo different. And the kid pisses me off. He'll just randomly rub my leg, when he obviously doesn't want anything. Err. I was like falling off the bed. Whatever, he was really messed up, and I got no sleep, and had uncool dreams, for the short time I did sleep. Luckly though, I woke up with no hangover at all cause I drank alot of water.

Today I guess we were all up around 9, and I took a shower there. I must say he does have a super awesome shower. I felt awkward and quiet though, I don't know why it's got to be like that. We came back to the dorms around 12, and went to gator dining and the game. The game was fun, and we kicked ass. It was cool to get to bring Kevin to a Florida game. Afterwards we got pics developed, all showered at Jen's condo, and then went out to Moe's. We tried to go to a party at campus lodge tonight but didn't get there till aroun 11:30 and they had stopped letting people in. I didn't feel like going to the house party that Kristin and them went here so Kevin and I just came back to the dorms. I've had like 8 hours of sleep or less in the past two nights so I think I'm due for some. I really did have a good weekend though, except for little things. But yeah, it was a good time. I get another visitor in two weeks. Yay Karen.

Hey, don't write yourself off yet It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on.
Just try your best, try everything you can. And don't you worry what they tell themselves when you're away.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle, it'll up the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine, everything (everything) will be allright (alright).
Hey, you know they're all the same. You know you're doing better on your own, so don't buy in.
Live right now. Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine, everything (everything) will be allright (alright).
Hey, don't write yourself off yet. It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on.
Just do your best, do everything you can.
And don't you worry what the bitter hearts are gonna say.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine, everything (everything) will be allright (alright).
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine, everything (everything) will be allright (alright).

So yeah, I dunno those lyrics just work well right now. Other than that, Whit asked me to go see a movie later, and at first I said ys, but then I changed my mind. I dunno I just am so not into going on "dates" for some reason. They're weird to me. But he's a nice kid and maybe I will later, but I really have alot of shit to get done tonight. A whole book to read in two days, plus psych, and then it'd be a pain in the ass to get all showered and ready. No offence to him though, but yeah. So I think I'll just go running later, eat, and do work, maybe call some people from home.

We had to leave at like 9 in the morning, cause Whit's parents were coming to get him because he had a funeral to go to today. I don't think they were supposed to know he had girls over either, he's like that good of a kid, haha. So we left and had a fun music ride home, and that was it. I didn't get much sleep so I think I'll take a nap now.

Yesterday was my busy Tuesday with double volunteering and classes and all the mess. It went fine though, and we had our final massage class, man it was awesome. We each just got a one hour full body massage. We went to go slide down the hill in the rain after but it kind of stopped raining, and I didn;t do it cause I didn't wanna get sick again. Then Jen and Mike picked me up and we went to Mike's and I gave them back massages with his "Wild Sex" body oil, haha that stuff was pretty icky, haha. It was cool though I think they liked it. So yeah, then I came home and went to bed. I'm not feeling like Mike's into me anymore, I dunno maybe I'm just telling myself that, because I usually do that, but yeah. He used to like ask me to lunch and stuff, that hasn't happened in awhile...

Today was education test, dunno how good I did, but whatever. Then I did some psych experiment, it was pretty stupid, and went wing shopping with Kritin, but no luck. I got the skirt from Liz today though along with my ae stuff I ordered, so I'm happy about that. Oh yeah and that kid (name...) haha asked if me if I was going to Jacksonville this weekend, and I was like yeah but we don't have a place to stay yet, and he was like "well I live in Jacksonville, you can stay at my place" so thats pretty cool. (Side note the Florida vs. Georgia game is in Jacksonville this weekend for some reason, and even though we don't have tickets alot of people just go there to hang out). So he got my number and hopefully that will be fun. Theres some frat halloween costume party on Friday too so at least I know theres something to do that night. I guess that about it for now.

Oh yeah! I forgot to mention, I'm not going to 311 tomorrow anymore because Mike found out he has a test at 8:30 on Friday morning. :( That sucks cause it would have been alot of fun, but I guess nothing I can do about it. Just a let down.

Today I got up and went to Kristin and Christine's for a little bit to chat with them. Then I came and did like 10 minutes worth of work, went to get my study guide, did a speck more work, and went and got lunch. Then I came back did like 10 minute more of work, and now I'm doing this. I just can't study for this damn test, and I'm probably going to do bad. It's so weird I feel like I don't know anything in these chapters, but yet I know it. It's weird. Heh, but I guess I'll try and get back to that now.

So last night I did go out, but it was kind of just ehh. We went to the SAE "get drunk Thursday" but they were like out of beer already and it was only like 12. So I didn't have a drop of alcohol. A few of us left cause it was just kind of a bunch of frat guys paying attention to the soriety sluts and we were like nahh. So Kristin, Christine, and Jessica, and I went back to the dorms, hung around outside a bit, get stuff from the Oasis, changed into boxers and walked around outside more like cool kids. Then we ended up just going up to Jessica's room and watched "A Walk to Remember" to just emphasize the boyfriend thing, haha. I went home around 3 and slept till 11 today.

Today was just kind of bleh. Definitely didn't feel like a school day at all yet I had to deal with classes. I went out to Pita Pit with Jen and her mom and then just chilled by myself in my room and got nothing done. I was like flipping out cause all of the sudden I had so much energy and nothing to do and no where to go and no one was around, haha. It was the weirdest thing ever. So I called Mike but he decided to go to Talahassee tonight to visit some friends at FSU I guess. Whatever man, maybe we'll hang out tomorrow if he makes it home. So I went to the mall with Jen and her mom and bought a sweatshirt and 2 pairs of underwear from american eagle. Then I went to her condo and now I'm here. And yeah.

On Saturday morning we woke up early to go to the beach. Jen, Tim, Lynda, and I went to Mike's house, but he was still sleeping when we got there, and didn't want to come cause there was going to be no waves. We decided to still go though, and it was pretty nice. A little windy, but nice enough. We stayed at the beach for a bit, went to eat, walked around St. Augustine, back to the beach, and then to a few surf shops. I wish everything wasn't so expensive, cause I want it all. Whatever. So last night we all ended up going over to Mike's, then to his friend Dave's. I had hard alcohol for the first time in while. Me and Kristin each had two pretty hard mixed drinks, and then a bunch of vodka shots, so we were pretty gone. Kristin ended up throwing up which is crazy cause she has high tolerance. After Dave's we all decided we would go to Sky, the club, but we got there around 1, and the clubs shut down at 2, so we figured no point and just went back to Mikes. I slept over. It was a fun night, although I was drunker than I have been in awhile so I don't remember alot of stuff. I hate that, theres just like gaps. It's alright though, I had a good time.

This morning Mike and I forced ourselves to get up to go surfing at like 9. We picked up Aaron and went to St. Augustine. The waves sucked though, it was just like super choppy and a pain in the ass. I didn't even attempt to ride a single one cause I was scared, and it was just a crazy ocean. Even the boys only got two rides each. So we layed and napped for a little bit, went to Wendy's and came home. I'm gunna take a nap now because I'm exhausted. I don't remember what time I went to bed, heh. Must not have been very early. So yes, that concludes my weekend.

Now onto this weekend...it was a really great time. I really had a great weekend, both guy wise, and fun wise. I'll recap each day.

Friday: First key point. I saw that hot guy that I love that lives in my area a few times, and when I was walking back from psych he smiled and waved at me, so he obviously at least has seen me before, and remembers what I look like and such. I just thought that was really cool. Then at night Jen and I went out with Mike and a bunch of his friends to some party at campus lodge. Everyone was just chilling around this huge pool and there was a bunch of kegs and it was just fun. The cops came eventually considering there was a big party outside in the middle of an appartment complex, so we just went into one of the apartments for awhile. Oh and I forgot to mention...I met these two guys, one of which was pretty cute, that were like hey you live in Trusler right? So I was like yeah, and they knew me because I guess they live in Simpson and had seen me before, and later they told me that the nickname they had for me between the two of them was legs, cause I had really nice legs. I just thought that was soooo flattering, hehe I was so happy. Ok, so then we decided it would be fun to just go back to Mike's house. By the way this is the kid with the super awesome house. He told me and Jen to sleepover so he gave us like boxers and tshirts and stuff. We all just hung out/ordered pizza/drank till like 5 in the morning and went to bed. Mike was cute and put his arm around me when we went to sleep. I think he's a really cool kid but I kind of wanna not jump into liking someone so quick. Especially at college with so many people around. I know that sounds pretty contradictory compared to earlier entries but I dunno, we'll see. So at 7:30 in the morning Jen couldn't sleep and woke me up and we came back to the dorms to have our own beds, and that was about it.

Saturday: I kind of dosed in and out of sleeping from 8-11, and then got up to go to the game at 12. I went with Lynda and Jen and Mike came with I guess some friends I don't know that I saw any though. We only stayed till beginning of the 4th cause it was so hot, and we ended up losing anyway, sucks. Jen, Lynda and I went to gator dining, then back to Jen's comdo to do a little studying. We did that for an hour, then went grocery shopping/getting my pictures developed which I think came out really well. We went back to the condo, ate pizza, did some more work, Mike came over to get calculus help from Jen, and then we just came back to the dorms around 12:30 and went to bed.

Sunday: Today was the coolest. Mike picked up Kristin and I at like 7:15 this morning to go surfing in St. Augustine. It was sooo awesome. We kind of went with the surf club, yet kind of had our own little group of us and some of his friends. We stopped at this little surf shop to rent boards for the people who didnt have them, so I got one. What was cool was the place accidently gave us 5 boards even though we only rented/deposited on 4, so Mike ended up stealing the one I used, (that sounds bad, but it was their mistake for giving it to us) that way I can go again and use it, hehe. I'm so excited about that. Anyway though we surfed for like 3 hours. It was so much fun but alot mor work than you would think. Not that its super hard to catch a ride or anything, but its alot of paddleing, and really hard to get out past the breaking waves every time you ride one in. I loved it though. It really is rough. I got beat the shit out of by the water a few times. When you wipe out its not just like you fall...like the waves takes you and your board in all kind of crazy directions and you feel like youre drowning for a few seconds. Its scary, but I think I handled it well though. I never actually stood up, cause the waves really werent small and I was scared, but I got a few rides and got up on my knees a few time. hey ya gotta start somewhere. The guys were really good with me and said I was doing really well for my first time. It's just so awesome like sitting out there on the water with a bunch of people talking and catching a wave every now and then. I love it. When we were walking back from how far we drifted, like holding our boards, Mike told me I had sexy back muscles. Hehe, I was just like..."wow" haha no ones ever said anything like that to me before. It was pretty sweet, haha even though I guess it sounds weird. I swear I could do that every day though now. Just walking down the beach after getting out of the water holding a board in the sun with some cool guys. It's so neat. I'm really excited though because next saturday I'm going with the Johnston's to a surf clinic to get real lessons, and then the weekend after that we'll probably go back as a group again. I love the beach so much, I'm so excited.

After that I got showered and went to the game with Jen and Lynda. It was fun, we killed them 63-3, but it wasn't as exciting as the last game. Although, Florida A&M has a sweet band and the half time show was really cool.

So then at night I went out with Kristen, her room mate Christine, Andrea, and this girl Jen and her roommate. We went to a Sig Ep party. It was pretty crazy, just long hallways with a different shot in every room. They kind of mix the shots though, cause I guess they guys actually care, and know that girls would be dying if they actually took a real shot in every room. So after that we went to a Delt party, but only staed there for like 15 minutes, and headed over to SAE. That was the same as usual, except this time I met a guy there, who I ended up hooking up with. I kind of regret it now though. It just makes me feel weird, like I barely know the kid. I think I just did it to prove something to myself, or something, haha I'm not sure. I've been feeling very boy-less and so I guess I just was drunk and took advantage of the chance. Whatever. Buy anyway here's the sucky part of the night. We came home around 4, and I pretty much just went to bed. I wasn't even really bad at that point either cause I totally remember everything. Apparently I got up around 5:30 and tried to go into Lynda's room and get into Italis's bed, cause I honestly thought it was mine. Lynda said I was acting really scary and her heart was actually pounding because she didn't know what was wrong with me. I'm honestly scared I got drugged or something, because I have no recolection of it at all. She said it was like I didn't know who I was or where I was. And I don't think being drunk would have had that affect, nor would it kick in an hour and a half after I went to bed. So I'm really freaked out about this whole situation, and haven't been feeling normal all day. I have a huge test tomorrow, but my mind absolutely cannot concentrate. This is really freaking me out. :(

Highlight: Cal got me the guitar pick Dashboard used in his show, with his autograph. And it's a cute story too. He ran up and grabbed the pick right after the show, and then chashed dashboard to his tour bus. The security guard was like no, but Cal was like please it would really mean so much to my girlfriend. Then Chris Carabba was like wow I bet your gf is beautiful, and Cal was like yeah she is. And then he signed it for me. So in a way Chris Carabba called me beautiful, hehehe. That's so exciting for me.

Annoyances: My comp shut itself off, so I had to restart it, and now the ethernet won't work for me, and I probably won't be able to use Kazaa. It's soo annoying.

On the brighter side of things, my busy day today went by quite smoothly and I think I did well on both of my quizzes. I went out to 3 parties last night and had a good time without drinking so I was able to go to classes and not feel like crap. It's amazing how many people in college party on school nights by the way. Then I worked out today twice (stadiums and spinning) and ate good food afterwords. Tomorrow is Jen's birthday and we get home cooked chicken parm and ice cream cake cause shes having people over to her condo. It should be cool.

Sunday: Sunday I kind of woke up with a hang over which was realy surprising because I didn't think I had drank that much, and I had two bottles of water before bed. But oh well. It basically lasted as a small annoying headache all day till 5 in the morning this morning. I went out and got lunch, then laid by the pool, then Jen came and we went to Target, and I dropped off my pics, and bought dividers. Then I went back to Jen's condo to do my laundry, and then over to the Johnston's. It was Katy's bday so we had the speghetti dinner, and then angel food cake with good whipped cream and strawberries. Then we went swimming for awhile, watched the end of chicago, and I slep over. I didn't get a very good sleep due to the headache but it was nice to have a real shower and bed and wake up and be around people. then I had a good breakfast, and now here I am. I have work to do, ick, so I better get going. I finally feel like a college girl though, whoohoo.

The good: I've started classes. They shouldn't be too hard to get decent grades in. I'm becoming better friends with Jen. We go out together alot. She has a condo here if we ever want to get away from campus, and she'll be getting a car in a little while when her mom leaves the condo. I'm learning my way around. I saw a few good looking guys today. I got my meal plan fixed. I feel like I've still been able to keep in pretty good contact with most of my friends. I met the girls across from me (one's from Hawaii and the other is from Puerto Rico!!) I went swimming in the pool, and its sooo nice. I layed out by the pool for a bit. I haven't been snacking much. I can at least use dial up to get online. I don't have to go to education class on fridays. I switched in the LSP program of first year florida (all people from my dorm)So thats the good for now.

The bad: My legs hurt. I have to walk soooo much, to everywhere I go. I still don't have too many friends, but it's early. I haven't talked to any guys except Alex (oh and I met a swimmer today named Mike so I lied) I didn't get to sign up for clubs today. I had to go to 3 bookstores and still didn't get my psych study guide. I sweat walking to class because it's so hot. I feel like I'm going to pass out walking to class because it's so hot. The ethernet still won't work for me. I'm getting unhealthy, cause there's not much healthy stuff around to eat. I drink soda with my meals now cause it's there. I still miss my friends. My carpet is shedding, haha. I feel stressed out about the amount of homework I get and the lack of time I have to do it.

I guess thats it. Thinking about it now though I guess it's more good than bad. I'm not a big complainer, just wanted to point it out. I vented, haha. But now it's all better. I actually got all my work done, not to great quality, but done, except for some writing reading that I have to do on grammer, ugh. Tomorrow I just have ed class at 10:40, and psych class at 3:00 and Jen and I are going to the gym in between. I guess that all for now. Miss ya NJ, but I'll be home in 3 months exactly today, hehe.

Thursday: I flew down with my mom. We missed our first standby flight because it was full, but got on the next one. We had to wait around in Atlanta for awhile, since we missed the connecting flight, but we made it to Gainesville arund 4. My mom, Dan, and I started moving me in pretty much right away. Then Katy came later. We just hung up all my clothes, unpacked, and that sort of stuff. Then we went back to the Johnstons, I hung out in the pool with Dan, and then I slept there.

Friday: Friday was crazy. It was an all day shopping/moving in day. I got up aorund 9, and went to target around 10. We got soo much stuff. (including a fridge, lots of decorations, bins for under the bed, etc.) Then we went to a carpet outlet and got a remnant for the room. It's a pretty bluish grey color. We came back here and started moving me in. Then we went out to bed bath and beyond to get more things, back to target, and then back to my room. By the way I really like my room. I was able to make it pretty nice looking. And I think I'll be able to make it nice. So we went back to the Johnston's and went for dinner at Leonardo's wich is just like a little pizza joint. Then I just slept there again.

Saturday: I got up around 9 again, and my mom took me to campus a little before 10 before she had to catch her flight. It was pretty sad cause she like started crying, and I'm not used to showing any enotion in my family. I dunno we just don't do that sort of stuff. I met my room mate. Basically I think we'll get along just fine, but I don't think we'll hang out or anything like that. I spent the whole morning part of the day decorating my room, putting up all the pics and stuff like that. I decided to go out to lunch, and as I was walking out I met a girl named Andrea who was also going, so we went together. We just went to one of the meal plan places, which wasnt anything special, but was fine. We walked around a little bit and she showed me some things because she went to school here in the summer. Then I came back, and met a girl named Jen and a guy named Alex who likes to hang out in the girls dorm, haha. he's really nice he just walked around fixinf everys comps, cause theyre all giving us trouble. So he got the viruses out of mine for me, yay. Two girls from down the hall called me to hang out at night so I ended up going out with them and Jen. The girl were Ansley, who is from VA, and Sarah from NY. They were kind of crazy though. At least Ansley is. First we went into the guys dorm across the balcony thing, and knocked on like every door looking for some guys they had met before. When that didn't work, we walked over to the bus stop where we met another group of guys that wanted to hang out. They showed us thair honors dorms which were really awesome, but we ended up just sitting aorund there, so we decided to take the bus into town. Just the girls that is. They looked at my NJ licience, and realized that I'm only 17, so I can't go to any of the clubs yet, which is a When we got downtown, Jen and I just told Ansley and Sarah that we were going to go get somehting to eat, and went to taco bell. I really didn't feel like hanging out with them anymore, they were too obnoxious and outgoing for Jen and I. Although I have talked to Sarah more and she seems cool, Ansley is just a nut. She's been drinking since she was 12, in large amounts, and its just so loud and not my type at all. plus she uses crazy Va talk. So Jen and I just came home and looked at pics, and I went to bed around 1:30.

Today (Sunday): I woke up late, like 10:50, boy was I tired, and I went running. It felt nice to finally run again. Then I met up with Andrea and we went for lunch, and then Jen met up with us and we just walked around the campus, went to the bookstore, and stuff like that. Theyre cool girls and stuff, but just not the same as my friends. I'm looking forward to starign classes and clubs, so I can find more people to hang out with. Then I just hung around the dorms more. Alex tried to fix my comp again, but ethernet is still not workign right. For dinner I went out with Andrea and this girl Meghan who has a car to this little mexican place called El Indio. I got chicken nachos and water for a whopping $4.18. Haha, yay college towns. At Juanitos it would have been like $12. Then we went to this awesome ice cream place called coldstone. Its like you pick your fav ice cream flavor, then scoop it out, and put it on the cold stone counter. Then you pick whatever toppings oyu want, and I mean anything, like all kinds of candy bars, and fruit, and normal stuff, EVERYTHING, haha, and they mix it on the the cold stone counter. It's really yummy, but cost almost as much as my dinner, haha. i got sweet cream ice cream with oreo pie crust and resses in it. Yummmmm. So anyway, now I'm back at my dorm, and just getting ready for classes tomorrow. I hope they go weel, and that I find them all. On a final note I do miss NJ. Like I'm fine here but i just miss the little things. Like driving in the car and not playing the lexus game, or the yellow light game. And then I think of the inside jokes and have no one to point them out too. But I'm doing fine here, I just wanna start clubs and meet more people. It'll be a good time.

On the other hand though, today sucked. It was such a bad day. It was Pete's wake, and it was just so sad. Everyone was crying all over the place. I hate it. Seeing teenage boys crying is just so odd to me. Even my brother was crying. It's just such an aweful thing, and I know tomorrow is going to be even worse. We went back to teir house though after and soo many people had brought them food it was very nice. I think theyre getting by alright considering the circumstances. When I got home, I went to visit Eagles at acme, but then he had to go out. I hung out with Liz and Jen in RB which was cool till they kicked us out. Then Eagles called me and I went over to watch his camp video and just hang out for a bit. It felt awkward to me though and I don't know why. It just didn't feel good, and the same as before he went away. It's probably just a combination of me knowing how upset he is to be back, and then last night hanging out with so many different guys, and that being a blast, and I just dont know. It was weird. Just added to the sucky day. Although tomorrow will probably make today look good. Whatever, I'm off to bed.

Today was a nice day but then end went quite downhill. I hung out with Erin all day since she slept over Jenny's, and then we all went down to the fireworks. They was really nice, but I know Karen's mad at me now and I don't know what to do. I feel like everyone is mad at me all of the sudden, and I really hate this. I started crying on the way home when I was talking to Erin. Its just all of the sudden it feels like things are so different. The whole boy situation. I'm just so not used to these kind of problems I don't know how to deal with it. I mean I haven't had the feeling of someone liking me for over a year an a half, and I've dealt with every one of my good friends having a bf basically all school year long. But now that I'm kind of in that situation, I feel like I'm ruining things, and I don't know what to do. It just makes me pretty depressed. I don't even know what to write in here. I feel like I can't explain what I'm feeling. I'm about to cry. I can't go on with this topic. I just need to fix things with everybody and I don't know how.