Why do people cut?
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: U2
Topic: depression
Why do people cut? Does it relieve them somehow?
One of my friends says this "...I cut myself because, believe it or not, it makes me feel good..." It relieves the stress of everyday angers and trials. In november, one of my closest friends had serious depression. she was cutting herself and her parents didn't even notice. How on earth not?

Have you realized just how much people can cover up and pretend hasn't happened? LIke when i had my depression a while back, I put on a really thick mask. There would be no way you could tell what was going on, unless you asked and really meant it. Or read my songs I wrote then. Or the poems. Or heard me cry.

The scars would be obvious, you'd think. Tiny incisions just at the wrist, red and puffy. Most of the time, the cutter will hide them with long shirts, wrist bands, big jewelry, anything. When confronted in the changeroom, the cutter sometimes makes up "white" lies to hide the true fact. Right. Having seen this many time, it hurts me inside.

And why does it provide such an intersting subject for gossip? "Oh, Billy cuts his wrist!" TRANSLATION: "Billy takes knives to his skin and pierces it to relieve tension, allowing blood to flow. Well, that's not really a good translation but its what the truth is.

Some people also think that its "cool" to cut. I've talked to many people and then they randomly say "Look at my wrists! I was cutting AGAIN last night. Oh, its such a bad habit, isnt it! I really need to stop!" But they say it with such drama that it makes you wonder if they actually have depression or not.

Now isn't the time for me to get into depression. It's too deep a problem. I will slowly explore this subject as well, dont worry.

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Heavenly Father,
Help me to heal these lost and lonely people. Help me to be the Defender for them, to Fight for Your Cause. I want to be on the battle lines protecting the weak, and destroying the Devil, even if in the smallest way. Make me a vessel of your triumph, give me strength each day to renew myself and be one of your workers.
God, you alone know how much I love you, and want to be with you. You know how much i need your help, and you alone are the one to help me. Help me to love you, help me to help you.
I pray for guidance, oh Merciful Lord, to know what to do. I pray for Patience to seek Your Word. I pray for forgivness of my bountiful sins, and that you will guide me to no longer commit them. I pray for the passion to ressurect you in my life. I pray for the strength to Fight my Devils, to save others and to Love without end.
In Jesus' name,
AMEN.