story in progress.... its sad
Mood:  a-ok
Barred inside the tiny space she called her room. No way to escape. The bone-chilling wind flew in through the window. Desperate for a way out, she grabbed a small container. Her tear stained face red with anger. A short note on a scrap of paper slipped to the floor. She opened the bottle.

"Finally!" She cried, swallowing pill after pill. Chugging her last ounce of water, she smiled. "They'll regret punishing me now! Once I'm dead, they are going to realize how dumb they were!"

She paused, understanding what she had said. She was going to die of her own cause. In the mirror, her eyes widened with fright. This wasn't one of those dramatic stories. This was real life. And if she didn't act soon, her life would end.

Reluctant but rushed, she screamed downstairs. "Dad, we've got to get to the hospital right away!"

In the hospital bed, she was given disgusted looks. Why was it her fault? She didn't want to admit her mistakes- how could it be all her fault? Being saved from her poison was difficult, and she was so confused by the thoughts going on through her head.

"Why are you here? Why couldn't you let yourself die, you worthless piece of crap?" "Stay alive, so many people love you" "Die child, you are nothing in the world".

Picking up her pen and a notepad, she took a deep breath. She needed to think clearly, to understand herself.

"Dear Camille,
I'm in the hospital. I tried to take my life again with an overdose of pills. I'm so scared, I don't understand anything that is going on. I just had to drink some charcoal to dry out the liquids in my stomach. I love you, you're my best friend. Don't leave me. I don't want to die, and I'm so frightened of what is going to happen to me. I feel so clausterphobic in this room. Why don't they believe me about anything? Why don't they smile? I need you with me now. Please keep me alive.
-Nicole

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Okay that's my story. Its not all that good because I hadn't worked on it that long. So if you have suggestions/comments etc, please put them as your comment. lol. And I'll either have a regular blog entry today or tommorow... Lots has happened with Jason and Damon *giggles* But I'm not gonna hint anything! Okay, gotta get ready for dance now! Ciao!
*hugs*
--janessa
I feel so confused, what should I do? I don't want to lead you on, but I also do like you, such a comprimising situation. I don't want to feel like I'm just stringing you along in case it doesn't work out with him. I'm sorry beforehand, even though its HIGHLY unlikely you'd ever see this... Oh well