so my mom is fucking insane.. well last night I cut, a lot. And I did it on my arms but today I wore a hoodie so noone could see, my leg, both wrists everywhere. Well, when my mom and I got home from picking me up from my detention, she was looking at the writing on my arms and hands and she pulled up my sleeve and saw. She was like "this is gonna have to stop, you aren't going anywhere with your negative friends, and you can't be trusted to be home alone" and I was like "mom, if you take me away from my friends who are what I live for and the only reason I would ever want to stop, then you'll be taking away the last thing that I have and I guarantee you I wont be along for much longer if you do that bullshit" and she was like "Jackie, I'm sick of you threatening me everytime you don't get your way what are you gonna do, go up and have a pity party a cut your stupid little wrists" and I was like "i don't know mom, take the only thing I have and you'll find out, you'll see" and then she was gonna unplug the computer but I told her not to because I was writing in here.. this all happened like 2 seconds ago.. anyhow, she's upstairs right now, and as if I haven't lost most of my friends already, she's taking the rest away from me, so whatever, it's bullshit and I hope she doesn't think she's helping me. Oh yeah, they can't fucking leave me home alone but when Fred's at a meeting my mom just goes out and could give a shit less how much and how deep i cut. She's fucking clueless and she thinks that everything I say is a threat to her, it's not, I'm just explaining why I do it since she always wants to know so bad.. and then she thinks I do this for attention.. well unlike her, my life doesn't revolve around making everybody look at me constantly and it's obvious that's what she wants by the way she dresses and acts. I fucking hate her and she's sitting here saying "you have 5 more minutes" over and over and over again.. I have to go I fucking hate her so much, but I hope she knows that once she takes the computer and the TV away from me, I'll be sitting up in my room doing guess what. Keri, if you get online, please call me, I need to talk to you I don't know what i'm gonna do, well actually I do but I need someone to stop me.
~Jack~