My Freshmen Year


-07/26/02-
For the first time ever, I have changed my webthingy. Theres a ShoutOut page and my links r now "easy to get to." I dont like change, but sometimes its best. If any of u have any compliants on such things, please, fill free to email me ur conserns and comments at sweetnoodle2002@yahoo.com. I will be sure to take them all under consideration. Thank you for caring, cuz without you, the fans, this page is nothing.
-07/25/02-
Home At Last.
-07/22/02-
ON THE ROAD AGAIN! Hoome Hoome On the range... where the... damn I'll have to get a copy of that stupid hayward version of that song from Kw when I get home.
Mother (After driving 3 hours with justin and Anel to the Carlsbad Caverns. Entering the first huge cave opening. Mother puts her hat on): Let me put my hat on so I wont lose it. Plus its cold...
--3 MilesOf Hiking Later--
Mother (Still wearing her hat): Oh shit! Whered I put my hat??
Noodle(Shaking her head sadly): Look on ur head...
-07/17/02-
Happy Birthday to mother penny max and anels mother.
we head home monday. THANK THE LORD!
-07/14/02-
Hey there Kitten! purrr........
Note To Self: Goin home 22nd. dollface is gone for the count.
-07/10/02-
Noodle(while getting into the convertable car after some rain, 18 hours of driving): My butt is wett from the rain, I have a blister from these horrible sandals, I have a huge bump on my hand from an unknown bug, my leg is asleep, and I have a migrane...
Noodle's Mother(totally ignoring her child): Damnit... my hats wet.
-07/02/02-
goodbyee :: waves ::
Song Of The Day:
Hard Candy Christmas by Dolly Parton
Hey, maybe I'll dye my hair
Maybe I'll move somewhere
Maybe I'll get a car
Maybe I'll drive so far
They'll all lose track
Me, I'll bounce right back
Maybe I'll sleep real late
Maybe I'll lose some weight
Maybe I'll clear my junk
Maybe I'll just get drunk on apple wine
Me, I'll be just
Fine and Dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow bring me way down
I'll be fine and dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow get me way down
Hey, maybe I'll learn to sew
Maybe I'll just lie low
Maybe I'll hit the bars
Maybe I'll count the stars until dawn
Me, I will go on
Maybe I'll settle down
Maybe I'll just leave town
Maybe I'll have some fun
Maybe I'll meet someone
And make him mine
Me, I'll be just
Fine and dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting throung tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow bring me way down
I'll be fine and dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow bring me way down
I'll be fine and dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow bring me way down
'Cause I'll be fine
(I'll be fine)
Oh, I'll be fine

-07/01/02-
scramble is the shit!
-06/30/02-
Thank You Fred.
-06/28/02-
Words Of The Day: "...is just.."
Meaning: ...
-06/27/02-
a river runs through
-06/26/02-
koolaidehurts: Is it me, or is it him?
koolaidehurts: because its not you...
seXxy Noodle: thank you
seXxy Noodle: I think..
eXxy Noodle: why dont u ask him?
koolaidehurts: Ask him what?
seXxy Noodle: Is it me, or is it you? b/c its not her..


I want a spring time. I want to lay down and have no shame. I want no regrets and I want to smile and not only appear beautiful, but BE beautiful. I want a time.
-06/25/02-
My gaming website--
http://www.angelfire.com/journal2/internalhell/Lustful_Lalic.html
-06/24/02-
Hmm.. lemme think.. for today...
Word Of The Day: Fair.
Meaning: A place where people of all ages go to have fun. Its known for night time dating. Cotton Candy, Clowns, and rides. Over priced riged games, and expensive food. Fair.
-06/23/02-
Lalic looked up at Gallan, letting herself get lost in his the shining silver doors to his soul.
-06/22/02-
Song Of The Day:
Letting Go by Sozzi
Don't call me
Don't write
Don't show up in the middle of the night
You know that we needed
Some time and space to breathe
I still recall the words you said to me
It's what you did not say that sets me free
Now how can I find peace of mind
When you keep coming back again
It's not OK for you to play
This game of see-saw with my head
Now it hurts too much
And it hits too hard
And I won't play this part
Don't call me
Don't write
Don't show up in the middle of the night
You know that we needed
Some time and space to breathe
So now I say the things I want to say
Sometimes it's better letting go this way
I'll always know down in my soul
We really had so far to go
I've given all I had to give
And now it's time for me to live
And I won't look back
And I won't regret
Though hurts like hell
Someday I will forget
Don't call me
Don't write
Don't show up in the middle of the night
You know that we needed
Some time and space to breathe
Don't call me
Don't write
Don't show up in the middle of the night
You know that we needed
Some time and space to breathe
To say that you've been thinkin'
Cause I know it's just the drink in you
It's funny how we seem to end up here
I never thought I'd see this soul disappear
Don't call me
Don't write
Don't show up in the middle of the night
You know that we needed
Some time and space to breathe
And this is letting go
This is letting go
And this is letting go
This is letting go
Don't call me
Don't write
Don't show up in the middle of the night
You know that we needed
Some time and space to breathe
Don't call me
Don't write
Don't show up in the middle of the night
To say that you've been thinkin'
Cause I know it's just the drink in you


-06/21/02-
ANgEL992k: "Hey, Joke? Yeah. I think we should be just friends..."
seXxy Noodle: "hey dont feel bad baby... :: crases cheek and thigh :: its not you.. its me"


New Link Added To Noodles Links! CLICK THE SHIT!
http://www.angelfire.com/journal2/internalhell/myfurrysexfriends.html
Top 10 Rejection Lines Given By Women (and what they actually mean.............)

10. I think of you as a brother. (You remind me of that inbred banjo-playing geek in "Deliverance.")
9. There's a slight difference in our ages. (You are one jurassic geezer.)
8. I'm not attracted to you in 'that' way. (You are the ugliest dork I've ever laid eyes upon.)
7. My life is too complicated right now. (I'm waiting for a rich Sugardaddy.)
6. I've got a boyfriend. (I've got a vibrator.)
5. I don't date men where I work. (Hey, bud, I wouldn't even date you if you were in the same 'solar system', much less the same building.)
4. It's not you, it's me. (It's not me, it's you.)
3. I'm concentrating on my career. (Even something as boring and unfulfilling as my job is better than dating you.)
2. I'm celibate. (One look at you and I'm ready to swear off men altogether.)
...and the number 1 rejection line given by women (and what it actually means)
1. Let's be friends. (I want you to stay around so I can tell you in excruciating detail about all the other men I meet and have sex with.)

-06/20/02-
Catch a falling star an’ put it in your pocket,
Never let it fade away!
Catch a falling star an’ put it in your pocket,
Save it for a rainy day!
For love may come an' tap you on the shoulder,
Some star-less night!
Just in case you feel you wanna’ hold her,
You’ll have a pocketful of starlight!

Catch a falling star an’ ( Catch a falling . . . )
put it in your pocket,
Never let it fade away! ( Never let it fade away! )
Catch a falling star an’ ( Catch a falling . . . )
put it in your pocket, Save it for a rainy day! ( Save it for a rainy day! )
For love may come and tap you on the shoulder,
Some star-less night!
An’ just in case you feel you wanta’ hold her,
You’ll have a pocketful of starlight!
( . . . pocketful of starlight! ) [ hum in time ]

Catch a falling star an’ ( Catch a falling . . . )
put it in your pocket,
Never let it fade away! ( Never let it fade away! )
Catch a falling star an’ ( Catch a falling . . . )
put it in your pocket,
Save it for a rainy day! ( Save it for a rainy . . . )

Save it for a rainy, rainy rainy day! )
For when your troubles startn’ multiplyin’,
An' they just might!
It’s easy to forget them without tryin’,
With just a pocketful of starlight!
Catch a falling star an’ ( Catch a falling . . . )
put it in your pocket,
Never let it fade away! ( Never let it fade away! )
Catch a falling star an’ put it in your pocket,
Save it for a rainy day!
( Save it for rainy day! ) Save it for a rainy day!


-06/19/02-
MoonLupin: do not fret
MoonLupin: little tams
MoonLupin: mon apetite
-06/18/02-
Fly fly away...

I SAID GET UP OFF UR ASS AND FLY DAMN IT!
-06/17/02-


Kinky Kw.


-06/16/02-
The Repeative Word Of The Night: Wonderful.
Meaning: Depends on how u use it. It can be used for anything.
Word Of The Day: Simple.
Meaning: Complex enough that one word can describe it
-06/13/02-

"For Totally Touchable Skin!"


Maybe if the trees hadn't been so tall that day, or the sky so cloudy.Or maybe if the wind hadn't been blowing so hard I wouldnt have had such a strange feeling on a day such as that.But the simple fact is, the trees were tall, the sky was cloudy, and yes, the wind was still blowing strong and believe it or not, I had an odd feeling about the day ahead of me.The different color leaves danced jagged movements around my boots.The yellow stayed away from the darker shades of reds and oranges and the shadows cast from the waving trees made the leaves look lost and cold as they danced.My senses raced in dazed puzzlement as I tried to decode my awkward feelings.My surroundings wisped around me leaving me in a naked sense of truth.The wind swirling around me slowly.Im filled with a sense of calm unknowing.
-06/10/02-
Oh... the memories.
-06/09/02-
Aj Aj Aj
Jose Jose Jose
"shes so chicken too bad shes a rooster"
-06/08/02-
I feel... violated... AGAIN.
ONLY 86... good luck Edlett! Im right behind ya! (woo it stinks back here..)
Quote of the Day: "u ate my poptart u bitch"
-06/07/02-
Damn.. still working.
-06/06/02-
Work... Work... Work...
-06/05/02-
Oh yes... I should have gotten to work on my science portfolio by now, lol
-06/05/02-
I cannot wait for gaming..
-06/04/02-
Im foolin round
-06/03/02-
No! Just say No! I shall not submit! No nO No! NEVER!
-06/01/02-


Songs On My New CD:
1. Skater Boy by Avril
2. Complicated by Avril
3. The Middle by Jimmy Eats World
4. Can You Take It by Puddle Of Mud
5. Underneath Your Clothes by Shakira
6. Ironic by Alanis Morissette
7. Wasting Time by Blink 182
8. Higher by Creed
9. Echo by Incubus
10. If Your Gone by Matchbox 20
11. Hero by Nickelback
12. You Set Me Free by Michelle
13. Around The World(lalalalala) by ATC
-05/31/02-
"Skater Boy"
He was a boy, she was a girl
Can I make it anymore obvious?
He was a punk,she did ballet
What more can I say?
He wanted her, she'd never tell
secretly she wanted him as well.
But all of her friends stuck up their nose
they had a problem with his baggy clothes.
He was a skater boy, she said see ya later boy
he wasn't good enough for her
She had a pretty face, but her head was up in space
she needed to come back down to earth.
five years from now, she sits at home
feeding the baby
she's all alone
she turns on tv
guess who she sees
skater boy rockin' up MTV.
she calles up her friends,they already know
and they've all got tickets to see his show
she tags along and stands in the crowd
looks up at the man that she turned down.
He was a skater boy, she said see ya later boy
he wasn't good enough for her
now he's a super star
slamin' on his guitar
does your pretty face see what he's worth?
sorry girl but you missed out
well tough luck that boys mine now
we are more than just good friends
this is how the story ends
too bad that you couldn't see
see that man that boy could be

there is more that meets the eye
I see the soul that is inside
He's just a boy, and i'm just a girl
can I make it anymore obvious?
we are in love, haven't you heard
how we rock eachothers world
I'm with the skater boy, I said see ya later boy
i'll be back stage after the show
i'll be at a studio
singing the song we wrote
about a girl he used to know
-05/30/02-
Eye Of The Tiger
Risin' up
back on the street
did my time took my chances
went the distance
now i'm back on my feet
just a man and and his will to survive
so many times
it happens too fast
you trade your passion for glory
don't lose your grip on the dreams of the past
you must fight just to keep them alive
Chorus
It's the eye of the tiger
it's the thrill of the fight
risin' up to the challenge of our rival
and the last known survivor stalks his prey in the night
and he's watchin us all with the eye
of the tiger

Face to face
out in the heat
hangin' tough
stayin' hungry
they stack the odds
still we take to the street
for the kill with the will to survive
Chorus
Risin' up
straight to the top
had the guts
got the glory
went the distance
now i'm not gonna stop
just a man and his will to survive
-05/28/02-
Divertido:)
-05/27/02-
6...6...5....665...6..6..5....665...
-05/26/02-
I saw the stupides website today. It was my "friends" website. I am thinking of disowning the friend even more b/c of their site. It is a disgrace to angelfire. They should kick it offline.
They read you cinderella
You hoped it would come true
That one day your prince charming would come rescue you
You like romantic movies
And you never will forget the way you felt when romeo kissed juliet
And all this time that you've been waiting
You dont have to wait no more

-05/25/02-
I got boat sick today. Trains r better.
-05/24/02-
Packing my bags...
-05/23/02-
Ickness...
-05/22/02-
An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
Isn't it ironic... don't you think
It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures
Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids good-bye
He waited his whole damn life to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought
Well, isn't this nice
And Isn't this ironic ... don't you think?
It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures
Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's oka and everythings going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think evertyhing's gone wrong and everthing blows up
In your face
A traffic jam when you're already late
A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like 10,000 spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic... don't you think
A little too ironic.. and yeah I really do think...
It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures
Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
And life has a funny way of helping you out
Helping you out

-05/21/02-
My Daily Horoscope:
Always the naysayer when it comes to matters of the heart! Water-bearer, who do you go to such great lengths to convince yourself that your crushes never like you back? This one does, so knock it off. Ever hear of a self-fulfilling prophecy?
-05/20/02-


Ich liebe dich
Sie sind mein erster Kub
Ich bin fur Sie uberhaupt verletzen traurig
Aber ich liebte Sie so sehr, scared ich, den ich obsessed werden wurde und den Sie von mir ermuden wurden. Es war fur mich, wenn ich Sie gehen lieb, und Bewachung von einem Abstand einfacher.
Aber die Tatsache, dab Sie das einzige für mich sind und die Tatsache, dab ich nie wirklich uber Ihnen bin, Wille verblassen nie.
eines Tages kann die Welt denken, dab ich komplett bin, aber die nicht zutreffend ist, bis der Tag kommt, wenn ich Sie frei umarmen kann wieder.
Mein liebstes, hoffe ich, daß Sie verstehen. Es gibt keine andere Weise, damit ich dieses sage, aber ich glaube nicht, daß Sie wirklich auf irgendein umgezogen sind. Möglicherweise hoffnungsvoll eines Tages, quellen wir sind zusammen wieder hervor. Bis dann hoffe ich, daß Sie mich Ihr Freund sein lassen. Ich möchte nur für uns glücklich sein zusammen wieder.


-05/19/02-

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-05/18/02-
au revoir, mon apetite
-05/17/02-
Reminder to myself: CALL AJ TONIGHT AT 9! DO NOT 4GET!
-05/16/02-
Im a NyQuil Girl at heart.
-05/15/02-
Everything is slowly falling into place. And I have no control over it. Its taken me too long to make my choices, so now they're being made by themselves. I hope I dont get blamed for any of it.
-05/14/02-
I still love you, you know who you are.
-05/13/02-
Thoughts of The Moment: Ahhhh!!!!!!!!! I wanna shove my face in a pillow and never come out! Just scream and scream and scream until my voice is gone and Im no long able to move. Things get worse and worse as the days go on. And the only things I have to hold onto arnt even real. Just pretty lies I tell myself, and live for every other day, when Im half way sane. Just when I get ready to tell someone what the fuck is wrong with me, they either make it very clear that they dont wanna know, or I choose not to tell them. The ppl that matter r supposed to care, but in my case the ppl that matter r the ones who DONT CARE. And whos fault is this? Prolly my god damned fault. I wish I could give up. But I cant b/c too many ppl r depending on me. Kill Kill and be Dead Dead.
-05/12/02-
Uggg smoke.
-05/11/02-
Song Of The Day:
(Chorus)
Smelly cat, smelly cat
What are they feeding you?
Smelly cat, smelly cat
It's not your fault

They won't take you to the vet
You're obviously not their favourite pet
You may not be a bed of roses
And you're no friend to those with noses

(Repeat Chorus)
Shout Out Of The Day: Happy Birthday Mario
Ahhh! I spent all night doing hw, and I havent gotten anything done!! Why? Why?!?!?!! WHY?!?! B/c I was doing Kws hw! Thats WHy!!! But it was fun, lol.
What puts you to sleep at night? Tjs peaceful smile brings me such sweet dreams.
Ahhh go!
-05/10/02-
How was my day? I spent the day with my sister. so.. ya know. How was ur day?
-05/09/02-
Ahhh no school tomorrow! I wish I had better plans than sleeping in. I may be able to stir somethin up though... Theres always hope.
Song Of The Day:
Used to be that I believed in something
Used to be that I believed in love
It's been a long time since I've had that feeling
I could love someone
I could trust someone
I said I'd never let nobody near my heart again darlin'
I said I'd never let nobody in
Somehow ever since I've been around you
Can't go back to being on my own
Can't help feeling darling since I've found you
That I've found my home
That I'm finally home
I said I'd never let nobody get too close to me darling
I said I needed, needed to be free
But if you asked me to
I just might change my mind
And let you in my life forever
If you asked me to
I just might give my heart
And stay here in your arms forever
If you asked me to
If you asked me to

-05/8/02-
Me: maybe maybe the school will shut the math department down
Me: accidently
Me: it could happen
Me: fire all math teachers
Me: hold them hostage
Me: in a deep dark hole under ground
Me: throw bread crumbs
Me: and splash water
Me: and have only one spot with sun shine
Me: and and
Me: when they make too much noise
Me: throw math books at them
Me: and rules
Me: NOT the safety rules either
Me: the hard pointy ones
Kw: theres a safe kind?
Me: yes
Me: they bend
Me: I flung one accross the room yesterday
Kw: my mom has one like that
Kw: i like it
Me: hit the teacher in the knee..
Kwi like to play with it
Meyes, they r fun
Me: wait u ruined my plotting
Kw: its my job

Everythings so blurry.... everyones so fake everybodys empty and everything is so messed up...
Uh, check it out now
Uh, no doubt now
Uh, yo, check it out now
Uh, no doubt, yo
Special girl, real good girl
Biggest thing in my itty bitty world
Called her up and she made me feel right
Wish the bliss could never take flight
Sittin back with this mic in my hand
Spittin hot shit tryin to see grand
Imprinted on my mind every minute
Make my plans and you always in it, yo

[Chorus] You're such a vivrant thing,
Vivrant thing, a vivrant thing
And even though we both fly
Give each other space and not the evil eye
Actin like grownups
Don't even try to hide cause the spot blown up
Girlfriend tellin you she wanna see
I say 'I dunno' but you say 'Gladly'
And when we both do hemp
We go on and on and on and on and on and
Sweeter than Ben & Jerry
Can I rhyme? Well you know I gets mine
Sittin round in my abstract part
This abstract thing goin abstract far, yo
Chorus (4X)
Gettin back to my MC status
All the willy that I kick make the other niggaz
maddest
Movin, to your town and situation
Shorty thought she subtle but she really was blatant when she
shook her thing and violated
Now these wolf-like thoughts are formulated
I'm sayin, "Yo is this some heartfelt shit here?
Am I strong-backed nigga? Well shit yeah"
Plus we can hold a convo'
or go to the movies, my crib, whatever yo
Just wanna see you by my side
We on 95, know the stash is in the ride
A rappin nigga for real
You would find me in a cypher if I didn't cop a deal
Rap slate like big grate
You buy, I sell, we split big cake
Uh uh, just move your little thing
Move it around and shake your little thing
Uh uhh yo

Chorus (3X)

-05/07/02-
Poem Of The Day:
Your breath upon my face
Your hands trace my body
The fire within rises
From my lips to my neck
Your lips travel my body
Inch by inch
Your body is closer
Slowly
I see you
Only you
Your touch
Your embrace
The warmth
Time stood still



-05/06/02-
Headache.
-05/05/02-
Word Of The Day: Lost. Can YOU spell Lost? Si. L - O - S - D.
Quotes Of The Day:
Brain: Promise me something, Pinky. Never breed.
Pink: I'll try.
Pinky: Whatcha doin' over there, Brain?
Brain: Contemplating your afterlife, Pinky.
The Song Of The Day:
They're Pinky and The Brain
Yes, Pinky and The Brain
One is a genius
The other's insane.
They're laboratory mice
Their genes have been spliced
They're dinky
They're Pinky and The Brain, Brain, Brain, Brain
Brain, Brain, Brain, Brain
Brain.

Before each night is done
Their plan will be unfurled
By the dawning of the sun
They'll take over the world.
They're Pinky and The Brain
Yes, Pinky and The Brain
Their twilight campaign
Is easy to explain.
To prove their mousey worth
They'll overthrow the Earth
They're dinky
They're Pinky and The Brain, Brain, Brain, Brain
Brain, Brain, Brain, Brain
Narf!
-05/04/02-
Like two sparrows in a hurricane
Trying to find their way
With a head full of dreams
And faith that can move anything
They've heard it's all uphill
But all they know is how they feel
The world says they'll never make it, love says they will.

-05/03/02-
6... a snack?... wow... sick... hungry... very...tired...
koolaidehurts: CONNECT GODAMN YOU
koolaidehurts: DONT MAKE ME TURN THIS CAR AROUND
koolaidehurts: I WILL
koolaidehurts: I SWEAR
koolaidehurts: NOOOOOOOOOOOW
koolaidehurts: DONT THINK I WONT DO IT
koolaidehurts has cancelled request due to no response from you; no connection was made. (If you and your buddy are each behind a different firewall, then the connection will not work; check with your network administrator if you are not sure about your firewall status. You should also try going into the Talk or IM Images sections of AIM preferences and toggle the 'Use Address' option.).
koolaidehurts: OH YOU FUCKER

-05/02/02-
Edish Eds need an Edit.
-05/01/02-
I dont hate her, I just dislike her to the point of which one unknowingly might be so surpassed by it, might mistake it for hate. See? There is a difference.
-04/30/02-
Hello Miss Murthy. :: Waves ::
-04/29/02-
Stupid upload wont work, lol
-04/28/02-
Today was a good day.
-04/27/02-
Im considering having someone take nude pictures of me. Im making a pro and con list. But all the things on my lists can be either pros or cons, lol
"from the good people who brought to you SexxyNoodle"
"Now you can get SexxyNoodle Light"
"And also try SexxyNoodlePlus"
-04/26/02-
Today is not a good day.
-04/25/02-
To see you when I wake up, is a gift I didn't think could be real
To know that you feel the same, as I do, is a Three-fold utopian dream
You do something to me
That I can't explain
So would I be out of line, If I said
I miss you.
I see your picture, I smell your skin on, the empty pillow next to mine
You have only been gone ten days, but already I am wasting away
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon
But I need you to know, that I care
And I miss you

-04/24/02-
I hate my sister. She is the reason for the webthingy move. I thank all of you for ur support. I send my love. *~*~hugs & kisses~*~* -Noodle
-04/23/02-


He kept getting closer to me… I moved closer as well. Sometimes he’d move back. Sometimes I would. He rubbed my thighs… I bet he’d be great at pleasing a girl with either his hands... or his tongue. Our heads met... his hands creasing mine, close to my inner thigh. I rubbed his forehead with my cheek and chin. I breathed heavy on him. Letting my breath shake against his skin. His hands moved around my waste, making me more self conscious of myself, as I always am. My hair flew into his face from the wind… and he blew it away softly… then he kissed it. My mouth moved down to his nose. He lifted up his head a little, and stuck his tongue inside my mouth. I gave it right back to him. Not wasting any time to prove myself. I stopped, bringing my cheek down to his mouth...
-04/22/02-

I picked a lil baby up today on my way home that looked like this. Kw drew it for me a few weeks ago. Thank you Kw.

-04/21/02-

You cant see his eyes, but they're just black dots.

I am proud of all the semi-sane ppl out there who DID NOT SUBMIT to the drug urge yesterday. (Yay Mikey!)
-04/20/02-
Careful out there... the crazys are out tonight. Happy birthday Hitler.

Cause there is only one kind of guy
For this kind of girl
And I want her
And I need her
I gotta have this girl

Girl
A pretty girl
A lovely girl
Girl
A down for whatever special girl
Girl
A smart girl
A real girl
I need her in my life always
Girl
A sexy girl
A lovely girl
Girl
A down for whatever
special girl


What a boyfriend SHOULD do!

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Put your arms around her waist and whisper in her ears.

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Kiss her every chance you get.

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Hold her close when she's cold.

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When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.

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Kiss her on the tip of her nose, it will give her the hint that you want to kiss.

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While in the movie, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder... then lean in and tilt her chin and kiss her lightly.

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When she complains that her neck/shoulders hurt, massage it/them for her.

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When people diss her, stand up for her.

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Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.

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Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart. Link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.

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Now make a wish about something you would like to happen between you and your crush...




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STOP!!
Ur wish will come true at that exact moment when u feel the happiest uve felt in a long time within the next month.


-04/19/02-
89% addicted to Instant Messenger. How about you?
87% SEVERELY ADDICTED to Instant Messenger. How about you?
84% addicted to SmarterChild. How about you?
This is my future boyfriend right here!
I swear by the the moon
and the stars in the skies
and I swear
like the shadow that's by your side
I see the questions in your eyes
I know what's weighing on your mind
you can be sure I know my part
'cause I stand beside you through the years
you'll only cry those happy tears
and though I make mistakes
I'll never break your heart
and I swear by the moon
and the stars in the skies I'll be there
I swear like the shadow that's by your side
I'll be there for better or worse
'till death do us part
I'll love you with every beat of my heart
and I swear
I'll give you everything I can
I'll build your dreams with these two hands
we'll hang some memories on the wall
and when (and when) just the two of us are there
you won't have to ask if I still care
'cause as the time turns the page
my love won't age at all

and I swear (I swear)
by the moon and the stars in the skies
I'll be there (I'll be there)
I swear (and I swear)
like the shadow that's by your side
I'll be there (I'll be there)
for better or worse
till death do us part
I'll love you with every beat of my heart
and I swear
I swear (I swear)
by the moon and the stars in the skies
I'll be there (I'll be there)
I swear
like the shadow that's by your side
I'll be there (I'll be there)
for better or worse (better or worse)
till death do us part I'll love you
with every single beat of my heart
I swear I swear I swear


-04/18/02-
The Auction
koolaidehurts: T-hooker knows
SeXxy NoOdLe: ahh he doesnt count
SeXxy NoOdLe: lol
koolaidehurts: but he did not say anything
koolaidehurts: he probably forgot
koolaidehurts: l0l
SeXxy NoOdLe: he isnt a whole person
SeXxy NoOdLe: lol
SeXxy NoOdLe: 1.2
koolaidehurts: lmao
SeXxy NoOdLe: 1.2 ppl know
koolaidehurts: 1.2?
SeXxy NoOdLe: he is .2
koolaidehurts: 1.5
koolaidehurts: he is at least half
SeXxy NoOdLe: nahh
SeXxy NoOdLe: he lost some of his half when he did what he did, lol
koolaidehurts: or at least a quarter
koolaidehurts: lol
koolaidehurts: .25
SeXxy NoOdLe: .22
koolaidehurts: lol
SeXxy NoOdLe: Thats as high as Im going
koolaidehurts: .23
SeXxy NoOdLe: lol
koolaidehurts: Thats as low as Im going
koolaidehurts: lol
koolaidehurts: wait
koolaidehurts: why am i defended his semi half?
koolaidehurts: lmao
SeXxy NoOdLe: Do I hear .223
SeXxy NoOdLe: lol
koolaidehurts: .225!!
SeXxy NoOdLe: .224
koolaidehurts: this is like an action
SeXxy NoOdLe: lol
koolaidehurts: .2245
SeXxy NoOdLe: lmao
koolaidehurts: agreed?
koolaidehurts: lol
SeXxy NoOdLe: .22451
SeXxy NoOdLe: thats it
SeXxy NoOdLe: lol
koolaidehurts: argh
koolaidehurts: lol
SeXxy NoOdLe: I am NOT raising
SeXxy NoOdLe: lol
koolaidehurts: lol
koolaidehurts: fine
koolaidehurts: agreed?
SeXxy NoOdLe: agreed

-04/17/02-
Thought Of The Moment: Sometimes things are confusing. Sometimes there is only One person who ud thought would ever understand you. Sometimes things r so confusing you have to just try to tell ur self that everything is okay. Everything is not OK. I am not OK. So dont ask me how I am. B/c I dont know anymore.
One Tear For One Moment.
-04/16/02-
Take the Personality test (Link at the bottom) to see what ur scores are! These are mine:


"My ReportCard"


Paranoid
Paranoid personality disorder is characterized by a distrust of others and a constant suspicion that people around you have sinister motives. People with this disorder tend to have excessive trust in their own knowledge and abilities and usually avoid close relationships with others. They search for hidden meanings in everything and read hostile intentions into the actions of others. They are quick to challenge the loyalties of friends and loved ones and often appear cold and distant to others. They usually shift blame to others and tend to carry long grudges.
Schizoid
People with schizoid personality disorder avoid relationships and do not show much emotion. They genuinely prefer to be alone and do not secretly wish for popularity. They tend to seek jobs that require little social contact. Their social skills are often weak and they do not show a need for attention or acceptance. They are perceived as humorless and distant and often are termed "loners."
Schizotypal
Many believe that schizotypal personality disorder represents mild schizophrenia. The disorder is characterized by odd forms of thinking and perceiving, and individuals with this disorder often seek isolation from others. They sometimes believe to have extra sensory ability or that unrelated events relate to them in some important way. They generally engage in eccentric behavior and have difficulty concentrating for long periods of time. Their speech is often over elaborate and difficult to follow.
Antisocial
A common misconception is that antisocial personality disorder refers to people who have poor social skills. The opposite is often the case. Instead, antisocial personality disorder is characterized by a lack of conscience. People with this disorder are prone to criminal behavior, believing that their victims are weak and deserving of being taken advantage of. They tend to lie and steal. Often, they are careless with money and take action without thinking about consequences. They are often agressive and are much more concerned with their own needs than the needs of others.
Borderline
Borderline personality disorder is characterized by mood instability and poor self-image. People with this disorder are prone to constant mood swings and bouts of anger. Often, they will take their anger out on themselves, causing themselves injury. Suicidal threats and actions are not uncommon. They think in very black and white terms and often form intense, conflict-ridden relationships. They are quick to anger when their expectations are not met.
Histrionic
People with histrionic personality disorder are constant attention seekers. They need to be the center of attention all the time, often interrupting others in order to dominate the conversation. They use grandiose language to discribe everyday events and seek constant praise. They may dress provacatively or exaggerate illnesses in order to gain attention. They also tend to exaggerate friendships and relationships, believing that everyone loves them. They are often manipulative.
Narcissistic
Narcissistic personality disorder is characterized by self-centeredness. Like histrionic disorder, people with this disorder seek attention and praise. They exaggerate their achievements, expecting others to recongize them as being superior. They tend to be choosy about picking friends, since they believe that not just anyone is worthy of being their friend. They tend to make good first impressions, yet have difficulty maintaining long-lasting relationships. They are generally uninterested in the feelings of others and may take advantage of them.
Avoidant
Avoidant personality disorder is characterized by extreme social anxiety. People with this disorder often feel inadequate, avoid social situations, and seek out jobs with little contact with others. They are fearful of being rejected and worry about embarassing themselves in front of others. They exaggerate the potential difficulties of new situations to rationalize avoiding them. Often, they will create fantasy worlds to substitute for the real one. Unlike schizoid personality disorder, avoidant people yearn for social relations yet feel they are unable to obtain them. They are frequently depressed and have low self-confidence.
Dependent
Dependent personality disorder is characterized by a need to be taken care of. People with this disorder tend to cling to people and fear losing them. They may become suicidal when a break-up is imminent. They tend to let others make important decisions for them and often jump from relationship to relationship. They often remain in abusive relationships. They are overly sensitive to disapproval. They often feel helpless and depressed.
Obsessive-Compulsive
Obsessive-Compulsive personality disorder is similar to obsessive-compulsive anxiety disorder. People with this disorder are overly focused on orderliness and perfection. Their need to do everything "right" often interferes with their productivity. They tend to get caught up in the details and miss the bigger picture. They set unreasonably high standards for themselves and others, and tend to be very critical of others when they do not live up to these high standards. They avoid working in teams, believing others to be too careless or incompetent. They avoid making decisions because they fear making mistakes and are rarely generous with their time or money. They often have difficulty expressing emotion.
-04/15/02-
Max: Liz, I just want to put everything that happened behind us.
Liz: Yeah, you know that I would, too, if i had impregnated an alien killer who murdered one of our best friends and then left the planet with my unborn child.
Max: So you're still holding on to that?



My Baby! Too bad he died.




This, my fellow webthingyers, is the hottest guy Ive ever seen. I LOVE HIS EYES!!!




This is The S Hooker AKA TesS. Can we spell S-L-U-T?!?!?!



-04/14/02-
C is for cookie that's good enough for me, C is for cookie that's good enough for me, C is for cookie that's good enough for me, cookie cookie cookie starts with C

I live to eat
I eat to live
I am a cookie
A Fortune Cookie
I'll tell you a fortune
For a dime
I'll tell you a lie
Believe my words
They are my eyes
That see your future
I am a Cookie
So eat the
FUCKING
COOKIE!!!




I just wanted to see if I could put another picture on here, lol

-04/13/02-
Fancy computer......$2,000
Web domain....$99
Software....$50
Finally finding the simple color codes that you've been searching for forever and ever and ever, that you could have just asked your gaupa kw for forever go....
...priceless

Poem Of The Day:
I wrote a poem for Kw... but its about a cute ass guy. lol.
Do you remember?
At that time, we were young
You loved chatting
I loved smiling
Once we sat under a tree side by side
Fell into sleep without knowing why
Birds were singing
Winds were whispering
How many flowers flew down
In our dreams?

-04/12/02-
I love butterflies. The feeling that you don’t know everything about someone... but you’d really like to, thrills me
-04/10/02-
Im a yellow belt now! Second degree! Yahooooooooo
-04/9/02-
I love you, Hunnybuns.
That damn girl didnt do my homework.....
-04/08/02-

I feel violated.

Lollipop lollipop
Oh lolli lolli lolli
Lollipop lollipop.....
Call my baby lollipop
Tell you why
His kiss is sweeter than an apple pie
And when he does his shaky rockin' dance
Man, I haven't got a chance
I call him
Lollipop lollipop
Oh lolli lolli lolli
Lollipop lollipop.....
Sweeter than candy on a stick
Huckleberry, chimry or lime
If you had a choice
He'd be your pick
But lollipop is mine
Lollipop lollipop
Oh lolli lolli lolli
Lollipop lollipop.....
Crazy way he thrills me
Tell you why
Just like a lightning from the sky
He loves to kiss me till I can't see straight
GEE, MY LOLLIPOP IS GREAT
I call him
Lollipop lollipop
Oh lolli lolli lolli
Lollipop lollipop.....

-04/07/02-
The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

CHORUS:
I'll Be your cryin' shoulder
I'll Be love suicide
I'll Be better when I'm older
I'll Be the greatest fan of your life
Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're My Survival, You're My Living Proof
My love is alive and not dead
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
I'll Be your cryin' shoulder
I'll Be love suicide
I'll Be better when I'm older
I'll Be the greatest fan of your life
I've dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on, remembered the things you said
I'll Be your cryin' shoulder
I'll Be love suicide
I'll Be better when I'm older
I'll Be the greatest fan of your life
-04/06/02-
"He slips his hand around her waste, as if he were the only thing holding her up. She leans into him, sighing as her hair falls lightly accross her face. He gilds the the peice of hair behind her ear automaticaly. She smiles, rubbing her cheek against his arm. Everyone around them feel sick and they pity her because they think shes helpless without him. But they dont know that its the other way around."
Quote Of The Night: Stupid Cupid, STOP PICKING ON ME U ASSHOLE PEICE OF FLYIN HARRY SHIT!" -me
-04/05/02-
Quote Of The Day: "A tree never hits an automobile except in self defense" -Me
Poem Of The Day:
I am a person too
I have ideas, plans,
Fantasies, cares, and demands
I am a person too
I am a person who
Has needs, worries, doubt,
Thoughts of wanting out
Of this life too
I am a person that
Knows and is aware
Of life because I care
No matter what
I am a person too
I laugh and cry
I live and will die
I am a person too

-04/04/02-
An erection is the swelling and stiffening of yourpenis. Erections don't only happen in sexual situations. It's also normal for to get a "hard-on" just from your pants rubbing against you.
koolaidehurts: Next up: Ejaculation
koolaidehurts: Dont miss it! (Look after song)

What is love
Oh baby, don't hurt me
Don't hurt me no more
Oh, baby don't hurt me
Don't hurt me no more
What is love
Yeah
Oh, I don't know why you're not there
I give you my love, but you don't care
So what is right and what is wrong
Gimme a sign
What is love
Oh baby, don't hurt me
Don't hurt me no more
What is love
Oh baby, don't hurt me
Don't hurt me no more
Whoa whoa whoa, oooh oooh
Whoa whoa whoa, oooh oooh
Oh, I don't know, what can I do
What else can I say, it's up to you
I know we're one, just me and you
I can't go on
What is love
Oh baby, don't hurt me
Don't hurt me no more
What is love
Oh baby, don't hurt me
Don't hurt me no more
Whoa whoa whoa, oooh oooh
Whoa whoa whoa, oooh oooh
What is love, oooh, oooh, oooh
What is love, oooh, oooh, oooh
What is love
Oh baby, don't hurt me
Don't hurt me no more

Don't hurt me
Don't hurt me
I want no other, no other lover
This is your life, our time
When we are together, I need you forever
Is it love
What is love
Oh baby, don't hurt me
Don't hurt me no more
What is love
Oh baby, don't hurt me
Don't hurt me no more (oooh, oooh)
What is love
Oh baby, don't hurt me
Don't hurt me no more
What is love
Oh baby, don't hurt me
Don't hurt me no more (oooh, oooh)
What is love?

koolaidehurts: When you ejaculate, sperm-rich semen comes out of your penis. If you ejaculate while asleep, its called a wet dream. Nothing "bad" happens if you don't ejaculate after erection: the erection just goes away.
-04/03/02-

When moonlight crawls along the street
Chasing away the summer heat
Footsteps outside somewhere below
The world revolves I let it go
We build our church above this street
We practice love between these sheets
The candy sweetness scent of you
It bathes my skin I'm stained by you
And all I have to do is hold you
There's a racing in my heart
I am barely touching you
Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable
The moonlight plays upon your skin
A kiss that lingers takes me in
I fall asleep inside of you
There are no words
There's only truth
Breathe in Breathe out
There is no sound
We move together up and down
We levitate our bodies soar
Our feet don't even touch the floor
And nobody knows you like I do
The world doesn't understand
But I grow stronger in your hands
Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable
We never sleep we're always holdin' hands
Kissin' for hours talkin' makin' plans
I feel like a better man
Just being in the same room
We never sleep there's just so much to do
Too much to say
Can't close my eyes when I'm with you
Insatiable the way I'm loving you

-04/2/02-
BRI-GHT-NAT
"Me felt Kw was brightnat upon siteing her profile About my state upon return from non-here land"

"Now thats some cum of a different flavor, Dorothy......."
-04/01/02-
Check out my pic, link on bottom (Headless Ppl).
SeXxy NoOdLe: they wont lemme go...
SeXxy NoOdLe: :: cries ::
koolaidehurts: who?
SeXxy NoOdLe: :: lays head on ur lap ::
koolaidehurts: ::strokes your hair::
SeXxy NoOdLe: :: kisses ur wrist ::
koolaidehurts: ::smiles::
-03/31/02-
HELLO ALANA! I WUV YOU!!!
I feel Very Big, And Sex and Violence.

Oh, and Kw loves ed.

-03/30/02-
Take South 5 on McBean all the way to LA and then keep going, straight on 'til morning.
-03/25/02-
Goodbye... I shall miss you all...
-03/24/02-
Well I intend well....
....but so did hitler
-03/22/02-
It needs to stop raining.
-03/21/02-
Sunday is far away... hmm.... Tomorrow is even farer.
-03/19/02-
Yo tengo es amiga Kw esta guapa y lindo.
-03/18/02-
Dupty is gonna throw lil girls off the bleachers, and then jump on them! But have no fear! Pam, Blaze (Woooo Hooo!), Straws, and Spock are here!!!!!!! Bam Bam and Pebbles arnt moving though, lol. Tim!?!?! What time is it??!?!
-03/17/02-
Keep an eye out for those girls who sell the vaccums.... they can be violent...
Im a teliporting Leprechaun...
I made a new friend. And I saw Peta today.
-03/16/02-
Im bored.
-03/11/02-

The Sad Life Of Kw Aka Kiwi
Kw: I am into history of music, maybe that is what i will grow up to be, a record collector or something.
Tams: Is that even a profession??
Kw: I’ll have a 2 room apt. filled with records and a sixy year old record player. I’ll have an empty fridge in the corner with only mustard and ice in it. And ketchup for when you come over and feel sorry for me and tell me that I am very successful.
Tams: Yes, I will come once a month.
Kw: Try to convince me to pay the electric bill, so they wll turn it back on; plug my phone back in for me, feed Jack.
Tams: And I'll smile when u pull out that little packett of ketchup, b/c u remembered how much I HATE mustard
Kw: And a can of beans. I’ll have packets of koolaide laying all over the floor and in the bathroom.
Tams: And popcorn leading to the lil doggy bed
Kw: Jack sleeps on a jacket I stole from some homeless person who lives outside my apt door. Oh and I’ll have a tube of lard for you, sitting on one of the millions of stacks of records, waiting for you, every month.

-03/10/02-
My Plans To Go On A Long Trip With Kw To Never-Never-Land.
SeXxy NoOdLe: :: cough ::
SeXxy NoOdLe: :: clears throat ::
SeXxy NoOdLe: Kw?

koolaidehurts: Yes?
SeXxy NoOdLe: Will you run away with me to Never-Never-Land?
koolaidehurts: When can I pencil you in?
SeXxy NoOdLe: When are you free?
koolaidehurts: Next yesterday
SeXxy NoOdLe: Okay, good
SeXxy NoOdLe: My bags have been packed since tomorrow

koolaidehurts: Well I cant pack until yeterday
SeXxy NoOdLe: Well then, I can wait for you
koolaidehurts: Okay good
SeXxy NoOdLe: What r we taking with us?
koolaidehurts: Bith'n' Dog Food
SeXxy NoOdLe: Is that all?
koolaidehurts: thats all I need
koolaidehurts: And a pair of socks
koolaidehurts: Why, what did you pack?

SeXxy NoOdLe: I have a list
koolaidehurts: What is your list?
SeXxy NoOdLe:
1. Power bars
2. Crayons
3. Hair tie
4. 3 pairs of socks
5. A sweater
6. 2 black bras
7. Animal shaped Children's Vitamins
8. My collection of nail polish
9. A safety pin
10. A spork
11. A shoe

koolaidehurts: why only one shoe?
SeXxy NoOdLe: B/c in Never-Never-Land theres only one bad guy
SeXxy NoOdLe: I'll only need to throw one

koolaidehurts: what if you miss?
SeXxy NoOdLe: I wont miss
koolaidehurts: you have good faith in your aim
SeXxy NoOdLe: yes, Thats about the only thing I have faith in these days
SeXxy NoOdLe: Who will you bring with you?

koolaidehurts: George (Back pack) and Gill (Jacket)
SeXxy NoOdLe: How long are we going to be gone?
koolaidehurts: Until yesterday
SeXxy NoOdLe: Wow, thats a long time
koolaidehurts: Yeah I know
SeXxy NoOdLe: Will we miss anybody?
koolaidehurts: I dont think so
SeXxy NoOdLe: Then I wont need to bring my marbles
koolaidehurts: Why would you need marbles?
SeXxy NoOdLe: B/c marbles make you remember
SeXxy NoOdLe: Did you lose ur marbles?

koolaidehurts: I probably never had em to begin with, but then again I wouldnt remember
SeXxy NoOdLe: Im always losing mine
SeXxy NoOdLe: But thats okay, B/c we wont need them in Never-Never-Land

koolaidehurts: I see
SeXxy NoOdLe: What else would we bring?
koolaidehurts: What else should we bring?
SeXxy NoOdLe: Hmm.......
SeXxy NoOdLe: Reflectors maybe

koolaidehurts: Why reflectors?
SeXxy NoOdLe: Well, we'll be flying around at night
koolaidehurts: I dont like to fly at night
SeXxy NoOdLe: Why not?
koolaidehurts: Its scary, you dont know what you might fly into
SeXxy NoOdLe: well in that case, we dont have to fly at night
koolaidehurts: No reflectors then
koolaidehurts: I dont have any anyways
koolaidehurts: I would have to take them off my bike

SeXxy NoOdLe: I can buy one a the Playboy bunny site, with Mums credit card
SeXxy NoOdLe: If we needed them, but we don’t

koolaidehurts: Just in case
SeXxy NoOdLe: Okay then, I'll order them
SeXxy NoOdLe: But they might not get here in time, if we leave next yesterday

koolaidehurts: Yeah you're right
koolaidehurts: Better not order them
koolaidehurts: We wont be here when they get here

SeXxy NoOdLe: That sux. Too bad UPS doesnt go to Never-Never-Land
koolaidehurts: Yeah
SeXxy NoOdLe: Theres always, TamsEx
SeXxy NoOdLe: But thats a dating service

koolaidehurts: We wont need dates where we're going
SeXxy NoOdLe: They also carry Pizza, Vacuums, and Grape Juice
koolaidehurts: Thats good to know
SeXxy NoOdLe: Why wont we need dates?
koolaidehurts: I dunno
SeXxy NoOdLe: The Lost boys are fine for one night stands, if we need them
koolaidehurts: who are the lost boys?
koolaidehurts: arent they......
koolaidehurts: boys?
koolaidehurts: Have a one night stand with a boy
koolaidehurts: Isnt that rape?

SeXxy NoOdLe: Nah, we're not 18
koolaidehurts: How old are they?
SeXxy NoOdLe: and some of em are real old
koolaidehurts: How real old
SeXxy NoOdLe: 7-16
koolaidehurts: Yayness
SeXxy NoOdLe: Yes
SeXxy NoOdLe: Perfect
SeXxy NoOdLe: So, the trip is settled?

koolaidehurts: Yeah

-03/09/02-
Rick is a stupid ass little green man.
-03/4/02-
I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm, he came around like he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry
Well you couldn't be that man I adored
You don't seem to know, don't seem to care what your heart is for
But I don't know him anymore
There's nothing where he used to lie
My conversation has run dry
That's whats going on, nothing's fine I'm torn
I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You're a little late, I'm already torn
So I guess the fortune teller's right
Should have seen just what was there and not some holy light
To crawl beneath my veins and now
I don't care, I have no luck, I don't miss it all that much
There's just so many things that I can't touch, I'm torn
I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You're a little late, I'm already torn. Torn.

There's nothing where he used to lie
My inspiration has run dry
That's what's going on, nothings right, I'm torn
I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I'm ashamed bound and broken on the floor
You're a little late, I'm already torn
-03/03/02
Happy Birthday to my Baby
-03/02/02-
Turn right! no no! ur OTHER right!
When all else fails, TAPE IT!!
Bonnie, Josie, and Sandra are watching over me...
-03/01/01-
Ickness...
-02/29/02
Depressing Weekend Ahead Of Me...
-02/28/02-
Peta!!!!
"right here put whatever you want the link to say"
-02/26/02-
Ive been given the choice. Either Im a full blown slut, or a lez. Choices Choices...
-02/25/02-
Fuck Off
-02/24/02-
Peter? Are you there Peter? We are looking for Peter.
Quote Of The Day: "Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you have decided to look beyond the imperfections."
-02/23/02-
Well it's not far down to paradise
At least not for me
And if the wind is right you can sail away
And find the tranquility
Oh the canvas can do miracles
Just you wait and see
Baby believe me

It's not far to Never - Never - Land
No reason to pretend
And if the wind is right you can find the joy
Of innocence again
Oh the canvas can do miracles
Just you wait and see
Baby believe me

Sailing takes me away
To where I've always heard it could be
Just a dream and a wind to carry me
Soon I'll be free

Fantasy It gets the best of me
When I'm sailing

All the world in a reverie
Every word is a symphony
Won't you believe me

CHORUS
It's not back to sanity
At least it's not for me
And if the wind is right you can sail away
And find serenity
The canvas can do miracles
Just you wait and see
Baby believe me

-02/21/02-
SeXxy NoOdLe: I wuv u Kw
koolaidehurts: Why do you wuv me
SeXxy NoOdLe: Whats not to wuv?
koolaidehurts: Wy do yoo wuv me, twammy
SeXxy NoOdLe: Becwuv ur sow wuvable
koolaidehurts: Bwut wy am I sow wuvable
SeXxy NoOdLe: Becwuv twats jwust da way Kw wis.
SeXxy NoOdLe: Dwoes kw wuv twammy?
koolaidehurts: Kw wuvs tha gweat twams

-02/20/02-
Song Of The Moment: This Song Reminds Me Of What I Dont Have.
Butterfly Kisses
By Bob Carlisle
There's two things I know for sure.
She was sent here from heaven,
and she's daddy's little girl.
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night,
she talks to Jesus, and I close my eyes.
And I thank God for all of the joy in my life,
But most of all, for...

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer.
Sticking' little white flowers all up in her hair.
"Walk beside the pony daddy, it's my first ride."
"I know the cake looks funny, daddy, but I sure tried."
Oh, with all that I've done wrong,
I must have done something right
To deserve a hug every morning,
And butterfly kisses at night.

Sweet sixteen today,
She's looking like her momma a little more every day.
One part woman, the other part girl.
To perfume and makeup, from ribbons and curls.
Trying her wings out in a great big world.
Oh but I remember...

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer.
Sticking' little white flowers all up in her hair.
"You know how much I love you daddy,
But if you don't mind,
I'm only going to kiss you on the cheek this time."
With all that I've done wrong,
I must have done something right
To deserve her love every morning,
And butterfly kisses at night.

All the precious time like the wind,
the years go by precious butterfly
Spread your wings and fly

She'll change her name today.
She'll make a promise, and I'll give her away.
Standing in the bride room just staring at her,
she asked me what I'm thinking,
and I said "I'm not sure,
I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl."

Then she leaned over...and gave me...
Butterfly Kisses, with her mama there
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair
"Walk me down the aisle daddy,
it's just about time"
"So does my wedding gown look pretty daddy?"
"Daddy don't cry"
With all that I've done wrong,
I must have done something right
To deserve her love every morning,
And butterfly kisses
I couldn't ask God for more,
man, this is what love is
I know I've gotta let her go,
but I'll always remember
Every hug in the morning, and butterfly kisses.

Song Of The Day: Sweet Lil Bumble Bee
oOoOoOoOo
Sweet lil bumble bee
I know what you want from me
Do do do do da da
Do do do do da da
Sweet lil bumble bee more than just a fantasy
Do do do do da da
Do do do do da da
My heart skips a beat when u walk in the room
I go boom boom boom you go zoom zoom zoom
Ur my play boy play toy love of my friend
I wanna be with you until the end.
I give my heart and my soul to you
To make u c it through
Im so confused baby cant u see
Please come rescue me!

-02/19/02-
Words Of The Day: Premium Rust-Oleum.
Meaning: A Good Explosive.
Quote Of The Day: "Distance is a dagger in the heart of two lovers."
-02/18/02-
Note Of The Moment: I would just like to REMIND all my FRIENDS that the WORDS and QUESTIONS of the day were created by ME. MY ideas. NOT urs. Posters...
-02/17/02-
Happi Berthdai to meeeeeeee
-02/12/02-
Word Of The Day: Lust
Meaning: Im still lookin this one up.
-02/11/01-
Word Of The Day: 10
Meaning: Known as a number. 10:00 Is the time. Where is Kw at 10? I dunno where... but I know where she ISN'T.And I know where she SHOULD be. She ISN'T online. She SHOULD be here, ONLINE.

-02/10/02-
She came calling
One early morning
She showed her crown of thorns
She whispered softly
To tell a story
About how she had been wronged
As she lay lifeless
He stole her innocence
And this is how she carried on
Well I guess she closed her eyes
And just imagined everything's alright
But she could not hide her tears
'Cause they were sent to wash away those years
They were sent to wash away those years
My anger's violent
But still I'm silent
When tragedy strikes at home
I know this decadence Is shared by millions
Remember you're not alone
For we have crossed many oceans
And we labor in between
In life there are many quotients
And I hope I find the mean

-02/07/02-
Quote Of The Day: I used to be a man of vision, before the medication cleared it up.
Thoughts Of The Moment: They Come They Go They Never Really Show B/c They're Never Really There They've Never Really Cared
Question Of The Day: Why
Answer: I dont know anymore.
-02/06/02-
Goal Of The Moment: I wanna fly away.
-02/05/02-
Short Skirt Looooooong Jacket!!
-02/04/02-
"Hello, my name is Noodle ."
-02/03/02-
Thought Of The Moment: I hate my friends.
Feeling Of The Moment: I love Creed. I've only heard 2 of their songs... and I have no clue what they look like... But Thats not my point. I love Creed.
-02/02/02-
Thought Of The Moment: Go Away Please.
Quote Of The Day: "I dun believe in friends but if u want me to say that u r my friend, then yes u r my friend. Although I'm not the type of person who likes to "hang out" because I believe it is a waste to say u like "hanging out" w/ someone just because someone else says its cool. So in other words I dun like "friends" I'd rather get wasted and pretend to have friends because I'd rather think ppl like me when they really don't. So I'm better off not knowing who is my friend, just in a little fantasy world I can really call someone "MY FREIND" -Mario
-02/01/02-
Moon Lupin: tres tres beau!!
Sexxy NoOdLe: hell no
Sexxy NoOdLe: lol
Moon Lupin: hell no??
Moon Lupin: lol
Sexxy NoOdLe: traslate THAT
Sexxy NoOdLe: lol
Moon Lupin: ummmmm..... gimme a sec
Sexxy NoOdLe: lol
Moon Lupin: no d'enfer
Moon Lupin: hell no
Sexxy NoOdLe: way longer than a sec, lol
Moon Lupin: lol
Moon Lupin: my seconds are long

-1/31/02-
Salut! Bonsior, Madame Tamme
Salut! Bonsior, Madame Kelly
Comment allez-vous?
Ah, je suis merveilleux
Que pensez-vouz du temps?
merveilleux!
ll est redoutable
merveilleux!
Vous ete en desaccord?
oui
Vous n'avez pas mis a jour, mon petite
montre...

-01/30/02-
Thought Of The Moment: People are always the same. Once they start a pattern, thats that. A never ending cycle. Its the NEW ppl that surprise me. It takes awhile to figer ppl out. I think I've found my new hobby, meeting new ppl, and figering them out. Its kinda fun, but frusterating at times.
-01/29/02-
Thought Of The Moment: We're all growing up so fast...
-01/28/02-
Hey Baby....
I’m the kinda girl that hangs with the guys
Like a fly on the wall with my secret eyes
Takin' it in, try to be feminine
With my makeup bag watchin' all the sin
Misfit, I sit
Lit up, wicked
Everybody else surrounded by the girls
With the tank tops and the flirty ways
I’m just sippin' on chamomile
Watching boys and girls and their sex appeal
With a stranger in my face who says he knows my mom
And went to my high school

All the boys say,
Hey baby, hey baby, hey
Girls say, girls say,
Hey baby, hey baby, hey
Hey baby, baby
Hey baby, hey baby, hey
Boys say, boys say
Hey baby, hey baby, hey
All the boys get the girls in the back
I’m the one they feed upon
Give a bit a star is born
And if you hide enough you’ll get the pass
And you can tell your friends how you made it back
No matter what they say I’m still the same
Somehow everybody knows my name
And all the girls wanna get with the boys
And the boys really like it
All the boys say,
Hey baby, hey baby, hey
Girls say, girls say,
Hey baby, hey baby, hey
Hey baby, baby
Hey baby, hey baby, hey
Boys say, boys say
Hey baby, hey baby, hey
All the boys get the girls in the back

-01/27/02-
Quote Of The Day: "believing is not seeing but excepting" -Mario
-01/25/02-
"To world is dimming" -Kw
For Kw:
[Please stay tuned after this song for another song, Thank you.]
THE TWIST
Come on, baby
Let's do the Twist
Come on, baby
Let's do the Twist
Take me by my little hand
And go like this
(Da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da-da-da-da-da)
The party was packed, talking back to back
There was a rapper that was rapping, to a beat that's whack
He was going through the motions out on the dance floor
But when the rapper was done, they wasn't
yelling "Hardcore!"
People were tired of the same old groove
They wanted something with depth, something new and improved
Something easy to do, but hard to resist
I've got something for y'all
What do you call it? "The Twist"!
Come on baby
Let's do the Twist
Chubby Checker and the Valley Boys
Were doing the Twist
Take us by our little hands
And go like this
Do the Twist, the Twist
Japan, do the Twist, the Twist
France, do the Twist, the Twist
Holland, do the Twist, the Twist
Germany...
Do the Twist!

For Erika:
CREED
Hello my friend we meet again
It’s been a while where should
we begin…feels like forever
Within my heart are memories
Of perfect love that you gave to me
I remember
When you are with me
I’m free…I’m careless…I believe
Above all the others we’ll fly
This brings tears to my eyes
My sacrifice
We’ve seen our share of ups and downs
Oh how quickly life can turn around in
an instant
It feels so good to reunite
Within yourself and within your mind
Let’s find peace there

When you are with me
I’m free…I’m careless…I believe
Above all the others we’ll fly
This brings tears to my eyes
My sacrifice
I just want to say hello again
-01/24/02-
"Love is just a word until someone you meet gives it a proper meaning."
Its still just a word.
-01/21/02-
> Name: Noodle
> Birthday February 17
> School: ****************
> City: *******
~*~*~*Have you ever...*~*~*~
> > > Done drugs: Hasn’t everybody?
> > > Eaten an entire box of Oreos? I don’t believe I have. They’re not my favorite.
> > > Eaten sushi? I’m afraid not.
> > > Been on stage: Yes. When I did my “monkeys jumping on the bed” play.
> > > Has anyone ever been unfaithful to u? Of course.
> > > Gotten in a car accident: yep.
> > > Watched Punky Brewster: who?
> > > Watched the Smurfs: OoOoOo! Little blue people! They send shivers up my spine.
> > > Hiked a mountain: I have brothers.
> > > Stayed home on a Saturday night, just because: I do that every night…
> > > Seen the White House: Yep. I said hello to nearby wild animals that guard the place (Squirrels)…
> > > ~*~*~*Either/Or*~*~*~
> > > > > > Cold or hot: Both at the same time
> > > Lace or Satin: Satin
> > > Blue or Red: Red.
> > > Rain or snow: Rain
> > > Wool or cotton: Cotton.
> > > Rose or daisy: Daisies. Too much red gives me headaches.
> > > Private school or public school: Public school
> > > Chocolate milk or plain milk: Chocolate milk. Always n’ forever.
> > > Spring or fall? Spring
> > > History or Science? Science
> > > Math or English: ENGLISH!!
> > > Fav music: The kind I like (aka Tams music)
> > > ~*~*~*Your Friends*~*~*~
> > > Who's your funniest friend? Must we name names?
> > > Who makes you laugh/smile the most? The ones I like to be around. I don’t smile easy… at lest that's what people tell me.
Who do you e-mail the most? Then or Now?
> > > Who's the loudest? Not me.
> > > Who's the shyest? Not me.
> > > Whose parents do you know the best? AJ
> > > Who are you jealous of? Everyone
> > > Who has the best room? Not me.
> > > ~*~*~*Within the last 24 hours*~*~*~
> > > Had a serious talk? Yes
> > > Hugged someone? Yes.
> > > Gotten along with your parents? Yes.
> > > Fought with a friend? Maybe. Define fight. There was no blood.
> > > ~*~*~*Do you like to*~*~*~
> > > Give hugs? Yes.
> > > Give backrubs? No.
> > > Take walks in the rain? Yes.
> > > What color is your floor/carpet in your room? I haven’t seen it since I got it. So I don’t remember.
> > > What was the last CD you bought? I don’t remember. I make my CDs.
> > > If you chew gum, what kind? Hot kind.
> > > Do you use chap stick? I like it sometimes.
> > > What’s the dumbest thing you have ever done? Fill out this email?
> > > What did u do last summer? Sat here. And lots of other scary things.
> > > ~*~*~*About You*~*~*~
> > > Sex: Yes please?
> > > Age: I’ll be 15 next month.
> > > Height: bout 5’3-5’4
> > > Nicknames: Heatherinia, Beans, Heath, Tams, Tammy, Noodle, Sexxy, Princess, Flower…
> > > Hair Color: Black, Brown, Red, Gold. All natural.
> > > Eye Color: Green, red, blue, yellow.
> > > Skin tone: Brown? Golden color…
> > > Any birthmarks? Yep.
> > > ~*~*~*Which one of your Friends?*~*~*~
> > > Is most likely to grow up to be a model: I’ll tell you in a few years.
> Which one knows most about you: Erika.
> > > Have you known the longest: AJ
> > > You know most about: Erika.
> > > Who will send this back the quickest: Someone who is as bored as me, and who took the time to actually read this, lol
> > > Best friends: I don’t have a best friend. And if I sit here and name all my friends, somebody is sure to get left out, and then I’m gonna have to deal with that, so I’m not gonna say any names. If I’m close to u, then u know it.
> > > Is the smartest: Not John.
> > > Most likely to end up in jail: Been there, done that. Maybe It’ll happen again.
> > > ~*~*~*Favorites...*~*~*~
> > > Food: Noodles.
> > > T.V. Show: Roswell, Gilmore Girls, Friends, and Charmed, Dason's Creek.
> > > Drink: Juice.
> > > Favorite ice cream: Rocky Road
> > > Movie: Now and Then… The Little Mermaid?
> > > Actor: umm...
> > > Actress: ummm...
> > > Place(s) My Happy Place... I have not yet found mine.
> > > Song: Peaches n’ Cream.
> Band: Band?
> > > Sport: Volleyball
> > > Colors: Green.
> > > Candy: M&Ms…. Gummy Worms… Jelly Beans?
> > > ~*~*~*Have You Ever*~*~*~
> > > Been to a concert: no.
> > > Loved someone so much it made you cry? Every teenage girl has.
> > > Had that falling dream: yep.
> >> Cheated on a test: Of course not! I didn't have Mr. Ric as my math teacher… :: cough :: … right Kw?
> > > Smoked: Eww. Hell no.
> > > Bought something and then saw it cheaper somewhere else? Very few moments in my life.
> > > ~*~*~*Love*~*~**
> > > Single or taken: Taken? Like a cookie?
> > > If single, are you looking for someone? ___________<---- fill in the blank.
> > > Who is your secret crush: Am I supposed to have one? Where do I get these? Is there a line I have to stand in? b/c if there's a line, I don’t want one.
> > > ~*~*~*Others*~*~*~
> > > What gets you really mad: When people think I should know how they feel when they don’t even tell me. Or when people are selfish.
> > > Scariest moment: I’m living in it. I’m “stuck in a moment, and I can’t get out of it”
> > > What do you feel about homosexuals: As in a body part? Can I have more than one answer?
> > > Would you ever be a homosexual: That depends on the question above.
> > > Do u dress like a slut/prep/snob/sporty/or just plain normal: Slut? Is there a right or wrong answer here?
> > > When was the last time you showered? I don’t remember, lmao
> > > What color pants do you have right now? Forest Green
> > > What color underwear do you have right now? Grey > > > What song are you listening to right now? The song in my heart? Food in my belly… and love in my family…
> > > What is the last thing that you said? “Maybe”
> > > What is right next to you? Mario’s red M&Ms.
> > > What is your computer desk made of? Wood.
> > > What are the first 3 digits in your phone number? ***
> > > What are the last 4 digits in your phone number? ****
> > > What was the last thing you ate? An M&M

> > > If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Neon Green. Glow in the dark. And Glitter.
> > > Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with? The little green people I see at night.
> > > Do you have a lava lamp? No… :(I’ve always wanted one…
> > > How many buddies do you have on your list? 51
> > > What did you do last night? Drove.
> > > Last person that you talked to on the phone? My brother.
> > > What's the nicest thing you find about the opposite sex? I’ll keep that to myself, thank you very much.
> > > Who do you admire most? My brother Justo
> > > Do you like the person that sent this to you? Depends on the day.
> Do you like the person that sent this to you as anything more than a friend? That would depend on the gay question, lol
> > > What is the nicest present you've gotten this year? The year is young, young grass hopper.
> > > How do you eat an OREO? Lick it clean baby, lick it clean.
> > > Favorite M&Ms? Green.
> > > Who makes you happy? The characters in my books. Because I know they don’t want anything from me. Its pure free amusement.
> > > Favorite CD? Dasons Creek
> > > What are you thinking of right now? An old memory of a lost friend.
> > > What do you want to name your children? Skylar
> > > Who means the most to you in your life right now? Rio
> > > Are you a meany? Sure. Why not?
> > Dream car: a bright neon green bug that I can drive.
> > > ~*~*~*We Wanna Know...*~*~*~
> > > Road Rules or Real World? I plead the 5th
> > WB or FOX? *yawns*
> > > ABC or NBC? Gemme a computer instead.
> > > TV or Movies? Depends on the movie.
> > > CDs or Mp3s? cds
> > > Email or Snail Mail? IM!
> > > Magazines or Books? Books
> > > Talk Shows or Soap Operas? Jerry Jerry Jerry!!!!
> > > Hangout? This chair is my life.
> > > Sunrise or Sunset? Sunset.
> > > Night or Day? Night
> > > Chips or Cookies? Cookie?
> > > ~*~*~*The Faves*~*~*~
> > > Solo Artist: Usher… nobody really. I just like certain songs from a bunch of people.
> > > Day of the Week: Saturday.
> > > Store: Wal-Mart (24/7)
> > > Mall: Southland
> > > ~*~*~*Friends*~*~*~
> > > How did you meet most of your friends? I go up to them and I say, “Hello, my name is Heather. Who are you?”
> > > Friend you've known the shortest: Sonia
> > > Sweetest Girl: I’ve only tasted one.
> > > Sweetest Guy: I haven’t chosen yet.
> > > Most Outgoing Girl: the girls I know stay mostly inside.
> > > Most Outgoing Guy: Denis
> > > Tallest Guy: Curtis
> shortest Girl: Sonia
> Shortest Guy: I already gots a dancing partner, lol
-01-17-02
The whole point of having a day off is sleeping. Try telling mom that... damn parents... makes u just wanna... fall asleep..
-01/15/02-
Today on the radio I heard the most horrible thing in the world. I was in a state of shock for like, five minutes. My ears rang with the most paralyzing memory of the sound. My body shook when I finally got the ability to turn the radio off. How did this all happen? Why, I’ll tell you the horrible story.
I was sitting there, outside my classroom, listening to my silver portable CD player. Everything was fine; I was flipping stations, my hands in my pockets. It was just like every other morning, cold. I wasn’t really awake yet, so my mind was elsewhere. Thinking about who knows what, probably the breakfast I hadn't had. Whatever it was that I was thinking about, had put a dreamy smile on my face. I was ripped out of my thoughts as fast as my smile was able to disappear. At first I wasn’t sure what was happening. Was there a dying cat? A singing dog? I wasn’t sure at that very moment, but whatever it was, I didn't want to know. My baffled mind stood still, in that very second, the sound ringing in my ears. Then I realized the morbid sound was coming from me! My ear phones! I rushed to pull them off, dropping them down on the ground in front of me. But deep inside my head I could still hear the noise. What had it been? The noise rose out of my ear phones once again, as I sat, staring at them. I scrunched up my face, and closed one of my eyes. It must be a laugh of some sort my mind tried to tell me. I stared at the ear phones that I no longer claimed. The “voice” went from that gruesome laugh to talking. Was that a human? Had it really been a laugh? That's when I noticed my friend standing in front of me, watching me. His eyes going from the abandoned earphones, to me, and then back again. I tried to move my mouth when he asked me what was wrong, but all I could manage to do was stare at the motionless earphones. Music was coming out of them now, but that made no difference. The noise still evaded my mind.
“Please, turn them off!” I managed to spit out. My friend bent down and flipped the switch. He stared at me curiously, but all I could do was have him help me up and get into class before the bell rang.
-01/14/02-
Thought Of The Moment: Finals suck much monkey ass.
-01/07/02-
Feeling Of The Moment: Frusterated.
-01/06/02-
Question Of The Day: Why didnt I do my homework?
Answer: Its boring.
Word Of The Day: Friend.
Meaning: Someone who just wants u to be happy. Is there not only when they need you, but when you need them. And, Somebody who you click with. If its meant to be, then so be it.

-01/04/02-
Feeling Of The Moment: Confused.
Song Of The Day:
Sometimes I have dreams
I picture myself flying
Above the clouds
High in the sky
Conquering the world
With my magic piano
Never being scared
But then I realize
Chorus:
I'm supergirl
And I'm here
To save the world
And I wanna know
Who's gonna save me?
I'm supergirl
And I'm here to
Save the world
And I wanna know
Why I feel so alone
Seems like a dream
But there's one thing missing
Nobody's here with me
(Here with me)
To share in all that
I've been given
Never being scared
I need someone
that's strong enough for me
Chorus
Hey ooh
I need someone
I won't stop till
I find the one
Who will start
Belonging in my life
I need someone
I won't stop till
I find the one
Who will start
Belonging in my life
Chorus
I'm supergirl
I wanna know
Who's gonna save me
I'm supergirl
And I'm here to
Save the world


-1/01/02-
Question Of The Day: Whats The Cure For Butterflies In Ur Stomach?
Answer Of The Day: Raid.
-12/30/01-
Word Of The Day: Excitment.
Meaning: Moving forward fast and blindly.
-12/28/01-
Song Of The Day
Thanx 2 our good friend Kevo
The Worlds Greatest by R Kelly
I am a mountain
I am a tall tree
Ohhh, I am a swift wind
Sweepin' the country
I am a river
Down in the valley
Ohhh, I am a vision
And I can see clearly
If anybody asks u who I am
Just stand up tall look 'em in the Face and say

[Chorus]
I'm that star up in the sky
I'm that mountain peak up high
I made it
I'm the worlds greatest
And I'm that little bit of hope
When my backs against the ropes
I can feel it mmm
I'm the worlds greatest

I am a giant
I am an eagle
I am a lion
Down in the jungle
I am a marchin' band
I am the people
I am a helpin' hand
And I am a hero
If anybody asks u who I am
Just stand up tall look 'em in the Face and say

[Chorus]
I'm that star up in the sky
I'm that mountain peak up high
I made it
I'm the worlds greatest
And I'm that little bit of hope
When my backs against the ropes
I can feel it
I'm the worlds greatest
-12/27/01-
Fact Of The Day: Kw is comin back saturday!!!! 2 days! 2 hopeless endless days! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!!!!
Question Of The Day: Whats the best kinda cookie?
Answer Of The Day: NOT PEANUT BUTTER! Chocolate Chip baby! All the way!
-12/26/01-
"If kissing was just two people touching lips, it wouldn't touch our hearts and bind our souls the way it does."
Feelings get in the way. Lust is confusing (painful?). I am in Blissful Lust.
-12/24/01-
Fact Of The Day: Never fails. Just when u think u've placed ur self in perfect denile, something happens. And then all hell breaks loose. Santin, help me.
Oh yes, and Merry Christmas.
-12/22/01-
Fact Of The Day: Kw is off to Kentucky today. Depressing moment in my life. She gave me the sweetest x mas card...
Question Of The Day: Who Am I?
Answer Of The Day:
Lay a whisper on my pillow
I've turned 2 water like a teardrop in your palm
Somewhere in my memory I've lost all sence of time
and I'm little bit of hope
I'm that star up in the sky
I'm that mountain deep up high
Although I cannot fly Im not content 2 crawl
And you should never let the sunset on tomorrow b4 the sun rises 2day
Never made it as a wise man, I couldnt cut it as a poor man stealing
I'm lost and confused twisted and used
Everybodys got something they had 2 leave behind, one regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
I close my eyes when it gets too sad, I think thoughts that I know r bad
When everythings made to be broken I just want u 2 know who I am
I act like summer and walk like rain
I listen like Spring and talk like June
The wind swept me off my feet
I feel like I've lost my bestfriend
I wont promise you tomorrow
Only this moment that I know for sure I have

-12/20/01-
Question Of The Day: Did you know that a person can't kill themselves by holding their breath? You'd faint first, and then you'd have no control over you breathing. Cool Or Cool?
Answer: Cool.
-12/19/01-
Lay a whisper on my pillow,
leave the winter on the ground.
I wake up lonely,
there's air of silence in the bedroom
and all around
Touch me now, I close my eyes and dream away.
It must have been love but it's over now.
It must have been good but I lost it somehow.
It must have been love but it's over now.
From the moment we touched, 'til the time had run out.
Make-believing we're together that I'm sheltered by your heart.
But in and outside I've turned to water like a teardrop in your palm.
And it's a hard winters day, I dream away.
It must have been love but it's over now.
It's all that I wanted, now I'm living without.
It must have been love but it's over now,
it's where the water flows, it's where the wind blows.

-12/17/01-
On my way to see my friends
Who lived a couple blocks away from me (ow)
As I walked through the subway
It must have been about a quarter past three
In front of me stood a beautiful honey
With a beautiful body (body)
She asked me for the time I said it'd cost her, her name
A six-digit number and a date with me tomorrow at nine
Did she decline, no
Didn't she mind, I don't think so
Was it for real, damn sure
What was the deal, a pretty girl aged 24
So was she keen, she couldn't wait
Cinnamon queen, well, let me update
What did she say, she said she'd love to rendezvous
She asked me what we were gonna do
Said we'd start with a bottle of Moet for two

Monday, took her for a drink on Tuesday
We were making love by Wednesday
And on Thursday and Friday and Saturday
We chilled on Sunday
I met this girl on Monday
Took her for a drink on Tuesday
We were making love by Wednesday
And on Thursday and Friday and Saturday
We chilled on Sunday

Nine was the time, cos I'll be getting mine
And she was looking fine
Smooth talker, she told me
She'd love to unfold me all night long
Ooh, I loved the way she kicked it
From the front to the back she flipped it
(Back she flipped it, ooh, the way she kicked it)
And I, oh, I, yeah
Hope that she'd care
Cos I'm a man who'll always be there (ooh, yeah)
I'm not a man to play around, baby (ooh, yeah)
Cos a one-night stand isn't really fair
From the first impression, girl
Hmmm, you don't seem to be like that
Cos there's no need to chat
For there'll be plenty time for that
From the subway to my home
Endless ringing of my phone
When you're feeling all alone
All you gotta do is just call me, call me

Monday, took her for a drink on Tuesday
We were making love by Wednesday
And on Thursday and Friday and Saturday
We chilled on Sunday
I met this girl on Monday
Took her for a drink on Tuesday
We were making love by Wednesday
And on Thursday and Friday and Saturday
We chilled on Sunday

-12/16/01-
My Favorite Kw.. My gurly... My bestest Frister (My ONLY Frister...) My... umm.. My Lovely person... My wonderful friend... I will always care 4 u.. You are so wonderful... (Yes, I want something, lol)....
-12/14/01-
Gurls with 36DD need mentel help.
-12/13/01-
A Simple Cheesy Song deadicated to A Simple Cheesy Friend. (My Frister, you know who u r).
You are so beautiful
To me
You are so beautiful
To me
Can't you see
You're everything I hoped for
You're everything I need
You are so beautiful
To me

You are so wonderful
To me
You are so wonderful
To me
Can't you see
You're everything I hoped for
You're everything I need
You are so wonderful
To me

You are so beautiful
To me
You are so beautiful
To me
Can't you see
You're everything I hoped for
You're everything I need
You are so beautiful
To me


-12/10/01-
Song Of The Day:
I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them

I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again

Hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
Hear them scream, I hear them fight
Say bad words that make me wanna cry

Close my eyes when I go to bed
And I dream adventures that will make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world's so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
Tell me everything is wonderful now

(Na na na na na na na)

Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now

I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all okay
I like to laugh so my friends won't know

-12/09/01-
Thought Of The Day: Only 430 days till I'm 16. Only 61 weeks... yay...
-12/05/01-
"You were born to exsist"
-12/03/01-
Quote Of The Day: (Ya know how u hate when ppl put those mushy poems and quotes on their wesites? I was just thinkin that I dont have anough of those, lol)
"Sometimes it's better to put love into hugs than to put it into words."
Poem Of The Day:

Have you ever looked into someone's eyes
And felt the kiss you never felt
Have you looked at someone's smile
And heard the words that made your heart melt

Have you looked deep into her soul
Past her brown eyes and sparkling lips
Did you forget to take the chance
Which laid below your fingertips

Can she take your breath away?
Or lead your heart a stray?
Will her golden glow last forever,
Or fade just like the others?

Will you dance along the river,
Or sing across the sea
Just tell her how you love her
And how it's meant to be

The chance is yours to take
One decision that fate can't make
Don't let her slip away
On the on chance you forgot to take


-12/02/01-
Quote Of The Day: "If your heart gets broken by the one you truly love, don't let go of the love for the person, but let go of the person!"
-12/01/01-
Thought Of The Day: New Month. New Week. New Day. New Time. The New Year is coming. I shall start anew.
-11/29/01-
Question Of The Day: Why is it that no matter how lucky somebody is, they always want what they don't have? Or what they can't have?
Answer: Well, I'm not going to be stupid. I'm a very lucky person. It doesnt matter how many times I get fucked over, or how many times someone I love hurts me. What really counts is the the fact that ppl ARE there for me. My Kw... Aj... You guys are it. Thanx. -NoOdLe
-11/28/01-
Note Of The Day: I Wkhfrhweg Kw.
-11/27/01-
"She got some guy pregnant and then drove her bicycle over a hill" - Kw (My excuse)
I got bit on the knee cap, and a busted up finger. Not to count all the blood on my fucking pants. I hate dogs, and I am getting rid of that fuckin pit bull.
-11/26/01-
Question Of The Day: What do ppl have against bi ppl? All guys seem like jerks to me.
-11/25/01-
Its so god damn fuckin COLD out there! I'm goin back to my tent... u wanna come wit me? Thats nice. Too bad ur gonna stay out here and freeze... Somebody should let you in... Oh well, Buh bye. :: evil laugh ::
-11/24/01-
Fill In The Blanks
Nick Names:
Where is YOUR brain right now:
Fav Food:
Suck my:
Eat my:
Shut your:
Have a Nice:
Fav Holiday:
My plan is:
Tell your mom I said:
What r u lookin at:
Spare me some:
I've never:
Jeeze, you don't gotta be so:
When I look at u I just wanna:
I get lost in your:
What did you:
Harder or:
I wanna play wit your:
Say it:
Lets do it:
Spank my:
Shake your:
Jump up and:
I stabbed myself wit:
Its so beautiful, I just wanna:
That was better than:
Dont call me:
Kiss my:
Hello there:
I love it when you:
Oh god, touch me:
Oh my:
Don't do that:
That sounds like:
That better be:
You taste like:
I gotta:
I swear:
I'm a:
Keep:
Gemme a:
Dont stop:
Thats a perfect:
I like the shape of your:
Tell it like:
Ewww! That looks like a:
Wow! That was:
Shove it where the:

-11/23/01-
Word Of The Day: Kentucky.
Meaning: A place far far far far away... So sad.
-11/22/01-
Thought Of The Day: Everybody is afraid of death. Yet Everybody wants to die. Does this make any sense? Maybe they just do it to confuse me. Or make my life a living hell. Whatever. Peace-
P.S. Happy Turkey Day everybody... But as an active member of the earth club, I cannot support the killings of so many poor turkeys..
-11/21/01-
Problem Of The Day: Apples r sexxy. So they should be purple right????
-11/20/01-
Word Of The Day: Chocolate Milk.
Meaning: Chocolate milk has always been my favorite. Thats all I drank as a baby, and as a growing child, and now as a teenager. It's my favorite smell. It's my favorite taste. Yum. I always drink it when I'm nervous, scared, coonfused, happy sad. I guess I drink it whenever I'm having any kind of strong emotion. Love is a strong word, use it carefully. Thats y I'm choosing to use it, and say: I love chocolate milk.
-11/17/01-
Word Of The Day: Charismatic
Meaning: Kw has a "Charismatic" laugh. She wants u all to look it up. No freebies today boys n' girls! :: crowd runs to go find a dictionary ::
-11/15/01-
A Few Words About My Mood:
I am having one of those moments. Life seems as if it has moved so very fast. I have awoken from a deep sleep, and I have no reason to be sad right now. All my tears have been replaced by drips of soft pureness, washing over my face in peaceful monuments.

-11/14/01-
A Few Words From A Good Book That Match My Mood Completely. I changed it a little bit:
It seems like just yesterday I remember thinking I was the happiest person in the whole earth, in the whole galaxy, in all of god’s creation. Could that only have been Sunday? or was it endless light-years ago? I was thinking that grass had never smelled grassier, the sky had never seemed so high. Now it’s all smashed down upon my head and I wish I could just melt into the blaaaa-ness of the universe and crease to exist. Oh why why, why cant I?
---Go Ask Alice by Anonymous

CONVERSATION WIT MY BUD DILLY!------
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SwEeT NoOdLe2005: safety pins are not only your friends...but a murderous weapon in which should be taken seriously at all times...
DILLON1383: too many safety pins in one place can never be good
SwEeT NoOdLe2005: nono...
SwEeT NoOdLe2005: they r a murderous weapon
SwEeT NoOdLe2005: be careful
DILLON1383: I sure will
DILLON1383: I never though about it
DILLON1383: but they are awfully deadly
DILLON1383: they should be outlawed
SwEeT NoOdLe2005: exactly!
DILLON1383: considered a firearm
DILLON1383: for the love...
DILLON1383: does no one see this?!?!
DILLON1383: it's blasphemy I tell you!
DILLON1383: the number of safety pins that go unnoticed
SwEeT NoOdLe2005: they could be taken and used to help high jack a plane!
DILLON1383: people carry them onto planes without even being looked at funny
DILLON1383: yes!
DILLON1383: I'm sayin!
DILLON1383: and schools... most safety pins
DILLON1383: they slip right past metal detectors
SwEeT NoOdLe2005: exactly
DILLON1383: it’s scary!
SwEeT NoOdLe2005: makes u wanna just hide at home
DILLON1383: yea
SwEeT NoOdLe2005: And then parents wonder y their kids r afraid to go to school!
DILLON1383: YEAH!
DILLON1383: I mean... I understand that ppl need protection
DILLON1383: and nothings more convenient than a little safety pin
SwEeT NoOdLe2005: right in the hair
DILLON1383: it could easily deter an attacker...
DILLON1383: however
DILLON1383: if it fell into the wrong hands
DILLON1383: can you imagine the consequences
SwEeT NoOdLe2005: ya
SwEeT NoOdLe2005: god
DILLON1383: what if everyone walked around with a safety pin without a license
SwEeT NoOdLe2005: I can’t believe this
DILLON1383: what is this world coming to?
SwEeT NoOdLe2005: we should do something!
DILLON1383: fuck yes we should!
DILLON1383: we should start the NSPAA
SwEeT NoOdLe2005: LMAO
DILLON1383: National Safety Pin Awareness Association


-11/13/01-
A Few Words For My Mood Today:
I am a mess. A mess. Entirely and utterly no longer sane. God help me. If I believed in god, I’d be praying for a way out. But this is the way things are meant to be. Sick to my stomach. Throwing up, thinking. Self pity is never good, never productive. Remember that. If I can’t let it go, then I need to just bury it. Never to be seen again. Right? Right now I feel as if the only answer is to just crease to exist. Let it go. Let it go. Let it go. Let it go. Let it go. Damn it. That’s what Kelly always tells me. Let it go. Let it go. Move on. God I need help. Somebody, take me away. Oh, only to fall into a never ending sleep, never to return again. Never to hear people tell me to move on again. This is horrible. Nobody should be this unlucky, to have to live like this.
I’m fine. Now when things get worse, and I show “depression” then I’ll get attention. Right? Ha. Depression. That’s a funny word. Don’t have the time or the will to define it right now. I’m going back to sleep. Endless darkness, just what I need right now.
Today's Poem (Also goes wit my mood)
You
with your plastic smile
fake
face of plaster
no idea that you
were born
a bastard
to you
happiness is a curse
in a world
where you burn
with the *in* crowd
only if you have
the car
the clothes
and the
...s c a r s...
battle wounds
deppicting
imaginary struggles
makes them think
that all you hopeless
*despair* is neverending
your thoughts say it all
depression is trendy....

-Amber Davis
-11/12/01-
I Want You To Want Me
By Letters To Cleo
I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me
I'm beggin' you to beg me
I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me
I'll shine up my old brown shoes
Put on a brand new shirt
Get home early from work
If you say that you love me
Didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'
Feeling all alone without a friend you know you feel like dying
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'

I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me
I'm beggin' you to beg me
I'll shine up my old brown shoes
Put on a brand new shirt
Get home early from work
If you say that you love me
Didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'
Feeling all alone without a friend you know you feel like dying
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'
I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me
I'm beggin' you to beg me
I want you to want me

-11/11/01-
Romeo Must Die
-11/11/01-
Question Of The Day: What do I look for in a guy?
Answer: Well, I've been known to like Pilipino guys, but any race is fine, that doesn't really matter to me. I love romantic guys, like Romeo. O Remeo, Romeo, wherefore art thou Romeo? Oh Romeo, y arn't thou here? I love the romantic type. And someone who knows where to put his hands. But also someone who knows when and where to stop.
-11/10/01-
Hello Pogi, ur too cute 4 reading my whole website. And I think ur purple, lol
-11/08/01-
Life sux and then u die, if ur lucky.
-11/07/01-
Word Of The Day: Worry.
Meaning: Horrible thing. To Worry is to have something holding u down. And u feel it, always there. If it's there long enough, it'll start Pulling you down. Slowly. It makes u tried, and then guilty when u laugh, or have fun. Or have pride in what ur doing. Cuz that thing ur worrying about, What if that happens? No, no reason to be happy. Worry eats away at ur heart. Worry is a pain in my ass.
A Few Word About My Mood: Fuckin' ppl. Just plain fuckin' ppl. Need to stop fuckin' wit ppl's minds. Just pisses me off. I'm going to have to start to hurt ppl back. I just wanna note here that I don't wanna have to do this. But if it comes to it, That's just what's goin to happen. Wish ppl would just stop. I need a break. Away from it all. But I am afraid that if I have the chance to leave this fuckin place, I'll Never come back. I'll 4get y I'd wanna come back. This is a fucked up world. Do I deserve all this shit?
Prolly.
-11/06/01-
I believe the most in the simple things that bring intense moments of true happiness. My goal, to write them all down.
-11/05/01-
Question Of The Day: Can you be in love with two ppl?
Answer: in love. what does that really mean? I think u can be In Love with more than One person, but it's never the same. each person is different. and u love different ppl differently. and 4 different reasons.
Okay. Now I know nobody wanted me to this up in here, but ya know what? I dont give a flyin monkey what u guys want anymore. I want to put this here, and this is My webthingy, so this is where it's going. This is a song (Drops of Jupiter), That I am putting on here deadicated to Erika. Let me know when u get back to earth, I'll be right here, I'm not changing.

Drops of Jupiter
Now that she's back in the atmosphere
With drops of Jupiter in her hair, hey, hey
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there's time to change, hey, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like June, hey, hey

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the Milky Way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking at yourself out there

Now that she's back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey
She checks out Mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me that there's time to grow, hey, hey

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
I'm afraid that she might think of me as plain ol' Jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the Milky Way
And tell me, did Venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know you're wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had . . . and me

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the Milky Way

Repeat 1st Chorus


-11/03/01-
Don't Speak

------------------------------------------------------------------------
You and me
We used to be together
Every day together always

I really feel
I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end

It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts

Our memories
They can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening

As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry
Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are

You and me
I can see us dying ... are we?
Hush, hush, darling

-11/2/01-
My Favorite Mistake Has Been Made.
-10/31/01- CANDY DAY IS HERE!!!!!!!!!!
HAPPY HOLOWEEN!
Monster Mash
I was working in the lab late one night
When my eyes beheld an eerie sight
And my monster from his slab began to rise
And suddenly to my surprise
CHORUS---------------------------------------
(He did the mash) He did the monster mash
(The monster mash) It was a graveyard smash
(He did the mash) It caught on in a flash
(He did the mash) He did the monster mash

From my laboratory in the castle east
To the master bedroom where the vampires feast
The ghouls all came from their humble abode
To get a jolt from my electrode
REPEAT CHORUS---------------------------------

The Zombies were having fun, the party had just begun
The guests included Wolfman, Dracula and his son

The scene was rocking, all were digging the sound
Igor on chains backed by the baying hounds
The Coffin Bangers were about to arrive
With their vocal group The Cryptkicker Five
REPEAT CHORUS-------------------------------

Out from his coffin Drac’s voice did ring
Seems he was troubled by just one thing
He opened the lid and shook his fist and said
“Whatever happened to my Transylvania Twist?”

(It’s now the mash) It’s now the monster mash
(The monster mash) And it’s a graveyard smash
(It’s now the mash) It caught on in a flash
(It’s now the mash) It’s now the monster mash

Now everything’s cool Drac’s a part of the band
And my monster mash is the hit of the land
For you, the living, this mash was meant too
When you get to my door tell them Boris sent you

(Then you can mash) Then you can monster mash
(The monster mash) And do my graveyard smash
(Then you can mash) You’ll catch on in a flash
(Then you can mash) Then you can monster mash


-10/30/01- COUNT DOWN TO CANDY DAY!!!!! 2 DAYS!!!!!
-10/29/01-
Question Of The Day: Why r grapes so SEXXXXXXXXXXXXXXY?
Answer: cuz they're purple. Duh.
COUNT DOWN TO CANDY DAY!!!!! 3 DAYS!!!!!
-10/27/01-
Question Of The Day: Whats the best song in the world?
Answer: I'm not sure if I already posted this song, but Here it is:
PEACHES N' CREAM BABY YEAH!
....(My All Time Favorite!)....
So hot, hot
It's the S the L the I the M
Let me tell you what I wanna do
Let me show you that I'm feelin' you
Wanna sex, wanna ride with you
Wanna taste, wanna put my lips all over you
Can't get enough of you
Always taken of you
So sweet, so very wet
So good, girl you make me sweat
Girl I'm talkin' 'bout

Peaches and cream
I need it cause you know that I'm a fiend
Gettin' freaky in my Bentley limousine
It's even better when it's with ice cream
Know what I mean

Peaches and cream
I need it cause you know that I'm a fiend
Gettin' freaky in my Bentley limousine
It's even better when it's with ice cream
Know what I mean, peaches and cream

I never thought that I would be
So addicted to you
On top, underneath, on the side of you
Better yet baby inside of you
Love the way you're just flowin down
And I can feel it all around
In the front, in the back of you
Ooh I love the taste of you
Girl you know what I'm talking about

Peaches and cream
I need it cause you know that I'm a fiend
Gettin' freaky in my Bentley limousine
It's even better when it's with ice cream
Know what I mean

Peaches and cream
I need it cause you know that I'm a fiend
Gettin' freaky in my Bentley limousine
It's even better when it's with ice cream
Know what I mean, peaches and cream

Won't stop girl you know I can't get enough
Wanna taste it in the morning when I'm waking up
Like peach cobbler in my stomach when I eat it up
Got your legs around my neck so I can't get up
See the boys 112 we from the A' (A' - shorty we don't play)
And when it comes to eating peaches, shorty we don't play
So all the ladies in the house if your peach the shit
Put your hands in the air represent your clits

Peaches and cream
I need it cause you know that I'm a fiend
Gettin' freaky in my Bentley limousine
It's even better when it's with ice cream
Know what I mean

Peaches and cream
I need it cause you know that I'm a fiend
Gettin' freaky in my Bentley limousine
It's even better when it's with ice cream
Know what I mean, peaches and cream

Oh girl I need it
I gotta have it
It's always on my mind
Know what I mean
Peaches and cream
I like it in my car
Or even in my bed
Or baby on the stairs
Know what I mean
Peaches and cream

Oh girl I need it
I gotta have it
It's always on my mind
Know what I mean
Peaches and cream
I like it in my car
Or even in my bed
Or baby on the stairs
Know what I mean
Peaches and cream

Peaches and cream
I need it cause you know that I'm a fiend
Gettin' freaky in my Bentley limousine
It's even better when it's with ice cream
Know what I mean

Peaches and cream
I need it cause you know that I'm a fiend
Gettin' freaky in my Bentley limousine
It's even better when it's with ice cream
Know what I mean, peaches and cream

-10/25/01-
Word Of The Day: Starving
Meaning: Hungry to a very very far out point. So hungry, you'd eat anything! Then y the hell r my neopets "starving" but they refuse to eat Pea and Carrot omelettE? Makes no sence to me...
-10/24/01-
Word Of The Day: Unemployed
Meaning: Not having a Job. And it makes u grumpy. And mean. And u feel useless. And I would write more. But I have to get up and go to school in like, 6 hours. Goodnight Cruel World. Peace
-10/23/01-
Word Of The Day: Bra
Meaning: Things that ppl wear around their chest (Yes, guys can wear em too if they want... but that's another subject). Are u supposed to take em off before bed? hmm... I know ppl who keep em on. And ppl who take em off. Is there a correct way?
-10/22/01-
Word Of The Day: Skates
Meaning: Fucking dumb ass things on wheels. I shall never skate again. NEVER. Never.
Tomorrow Tomorrow
By Annie
The sun'll come out
Tomorrow
Bet your bottom dollar
That tomorrow
There'll be sun

Just thinkin' about
Tomorrow
Clears away the cobwebs,
And the sorrow
'Til there's none

When I'm stuck with a day
That's gray,
And lonely,
I just stick out my chin
And Grin,
And Saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay,
Oh

The sun'll come out
Tomorrow
So ya gotta hang on
'til tomorrow
Come what may

Tomorrow
Tomorrow
I'll love ya
Tomorrow

You're always
A day
A waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!

-10/21/01-
Word Of The Day: Wkhfrhweg
Meaning: It means LOVE. Pronounced: 1. "wok-fr-ha-weg" Or 2. "wa-ha-fr-ha-weg". 1. True love. Word used when refering to a boyfriend of girlfriend, wife or husband. 2. A true friend. A loved one.
"Such a strong word.. only the highly trained even can begin to know how to pronounce it.." -KW

-10/20/01-
Question Of The Day: What is a family?
Answer: This may seem like a stupid question, but it's not. Some might say, "It's people related to each other." But thats wrong, to me anyway. To me, A family are creatures, working together to stay alive. A mini communittee. We have to work together. Related by blood most of the time, but not always. Friends can be family sometimes. And u can hate parts of your family. Theres no rule saying you have to love them all. But they're your family. And that means something.
Word Of The Day: Brother.
Meaning: A male character related by blood, or by time.
Thoguht Of The Day: The real test of friendship is: Can you literally do nothing with the other person? Can you enjoy together those moments of life that are utterly simple? They are the moments people look back on at the end of life and number as their most sacred experiences.
-10/19/01-
"May your friends be as many as the promises that you keep."
Word Of The Day: Anytime.
Meaning: Day or Night. Rain or Shine. Bed or No Bed. Sleepy or Awake. Friend or No Friend. Pal or Buddy. Busy or Bored. No Time, or All The Time In The World. Lunch or Dinner. Food or No Food. Homeless or Home. Money or No Money. Free or Captured. Here or There. This World or The Next World. Now or Then. Past or Forever. Lost or Found. Dead or Alive. Ring or No Ring. Guy or No Guy. Chocolate Milk or Not. Anytime Gurly. Anytime.
-10/18/01-
Don't stare strangely as I pass
don't stop and stare at me
I might be as different as night and day
but in my difference I am free

Don't stare strangely as I pass
I'll just smile and stare back
and any difference that you see
is not your gain or lack

Don't stare strangely as I pass
or swiftly walk right by
You'll be just as strange as me
if your heart learns how to fly

Don't stare strangely as I pass
Don't watch rudely as I leave
Your as different as I am
If only you beleive

Don't stare strangely as I pass
Because I pity you, do you know
I'll be the same when I leave
but you'll be different when you go

-10/17/01-
Words Of The Day: Open House.
Meaning: A horrible, HORRIBLE event, where parents and teachers come together to torture today's younth.
-10/16/01-
Word Of The Day: Bedtime.
Meaning: The reason y I have no time to type in here. Bedtime.
-10/15/01-
Question Of The Day: Why do parents try to be sneaky? Using that "I'm doing it 4 u" crap when we all know they're just selfish bitchs?
Answer: They think it works on us "Lil kids"
----A little something I wrote. And if u can't think deeply, don't read this. It's not 4 you.----
I haven’t told you stuff. My world is falling apart, crumbling around me, I try to walk around these pieces, I am tired of trying to pick up these heavy pieces, they don’t want to be moved.
Change surrounds me. Deepening each and everyday, it’ll come too soon. No, it’s already here… coming faster…
TAKE ME OUTTA HERE! Take me outta this present! Bring me back to where I was, before this change. Take me to that place, like Never Never Land.
Never leave me, no never. Let me lay, and do not try and move me. No, just come lie next to me. Just be THERE. BE HERE. With me. And then, only than, I shall be happy.
Until then, until my dream, I am descending into more and more pain.
When truly I am not going down.
I really stumble upward, forward, blind. Unknowing. Unwanting.
Faster than I’d like. Faster than I am ready for.
New things come. And old things that I’d rather not see. Or ever know. Not now! Please! Just not now I beg!

Where are you? What about my dream?
Shall I let myself go?
Falling up? Falling onward?
Or crease to exist?
Should I let myself fall into a never ending pit of despair?
Self pity?
Shall I… can I… accept this new?
Only if I knew…


-10-14-01-
Kelly, This one's 4 you--->
"We can never replace a friend. When a man is fortunate enough to have several, he finds they are all different. No one has a double in friendship."
-Johann Schiller
Words Of The Day: "Daddy's Work"
Meaning: The place where I am. Daddy's work. This is a very very boring place. Rio runs in circles... round.. round... round he goes...where he stops.. nobody knows.. Wish Kelly was online... Nope.. stuck here... At Daddy's Work.. How much funness....
I Dreamt Of You
by Jim Moore

I dreamt of you in blissful sleep
In hallowed halls where darkness meets
Where sunlit shadows trace combine
Your fabled image in my mind

Adorned in white, an angel pure
A thousand years I could endure
In beauty savored, oh so sweet
And gaze at heaven’s precious feat

Devoid of sound or spoken word
This restful silence undisturbed
And though this was a passing dream
A fleeting vision it might seem

Relived once more in lovely fate
And view such wonder as I wake
With loving gestures that imply
Beheld in your angelic eyes


-10-13-01-
I just want to be wanted. Thats all I've ever wanted. Is that too much to ask for? Am I that horrible? Oh well...
Song Of The Day:
TRUELY MADLY DEEPLY- Savage Garden
I'll be your dream,
I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy,
I'll be your hope,
I'll be your love be everything that you need,
I love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do,
I will be strong I will be faithful,
'Cause I'm counting on,
A new beginning,
A reason for living,
A deeper meaning,
I want to stand with you on a mountain,
I want to bathe with you in the sea,
I want to lay like this forever,
'Til the sky falls down on me,
And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish send it to heaven then make you want to cry,
The tears of joy for all the pleasure in the certainty,
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of, The highest powers,
In lonely hours,
The tears devour you,
I want to stand with you on a mountain,
I want to bathe with you in the sea,
I want to lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down on me,
Oh can't you see it baby,
You don't have to close your eyes,
'cause it's standing right here before you,
All that you need will surely come,
I'll be your dream,
I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy,
I'll be your hope,
I'll be your love be everything that you need,
I'll love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do,
I want to stand with you on a mountain,
I want to bathe with you in the sea,
I want to lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down on me

No More Cry
Lyrics & Music By: The Corrs

I wanna feel just like before
Before the rain came in my door
Shook me up turned me around
Made me cry till I would drown
Stole the daylight, brought the night
So much anger I would fight
Lost my youth amid the blue
Saw all the loneliness in you
Wanna help you give you love
Shine some light out from the mud
Fill the empty find a rhyme
A brigher day a better time
But I'm wonderng where I'm gone
Can't find the truth within my song
And all I have I'll give to you
To let you know you're not alone

I'm telling you:
I'm smiling for you only
I'm trying for you solely
I'm praying for you only
No more cry, no more cry

I wanna hear you laugh again
Without the ache to bring you down
No we'll never be the same
If only I could take your pain
But if it's true what people say
There still is beauty in each day
We'll find comfort in her strength
One day soon we'll meet again

I'm telling you:
I'm smiling for you only
I'm trying for you solely
I'm praying for you only
No more cry,no more cry
I'm singing for you only
(Yeah) I worry for you only
I'm praying for you only
No more cry, no more cry
Reach out for your love
Shout out for your love
Listen for your love
Believe in her love
I'm telling you
I'm telling you
I'm smiling for you only
I'm trying for you solely
I'm praying for you only
No more cry, no more cry
I'm singing for you only
(hey) I worry for you only
But it's you saves me from lonely
No more cry, no more cry
no more cry, no more cry


-10-12-01-
Quote Of The Day: A friend to all is a friend to none.
Meaing: You figur it out. I'm sleepy of thinking.
Word Of The Day: Telling
Meaning: How do u tell someone ur leaving?
-10-11-01-
Word Of The Day: Sleep
Meaning: What is sleep? I mean, really. Why do u dream? And what do ur dreams mean? Where do they come from? Why r they sometimes bad? Or good? And why do ppl sleep so much? u spend half ur life alseep. Thats horrible when u think about it. I have no idea why ppl just, pass out (alright, call it "sleep") for so long. It's kinda scary. But I happen to like falling into nothingness for so long, sometimes. It's soothing for me when I don't wanna BE.
Question Of The Day: Came but for friendship, and took away love. Why is it so scary to let ppl in?
Answer: It just hurts. It really hurts. I'm so scared. What if I am left again? I know it will happen. It always does. Always... No... I cannot trust... no...
When you love someone, all your saved-up wishes start coming out. <---- This is bull shit.
Poem Of The Day:
......wishes upon...
return to black
all given
all given back
shadows long
dreams unfulfilled
wishes upon angels
wishes upon pennies
wishes upon falling stars
wishes upon you
never do come true

-10-10-01-
Question Of The Day: Let me ask you, have you ever felt as if your trying too hard and u have a constant pain in your chest, as if saying that everything you do, try to do, is never ever enough? And you cry, and drown in your own self pity and it only makes u hate yourself, despise yourself 4 being so emotional, or sensitive, and so on. And u continue to try, not 4 your self, but your parents, or whoever. And you continue to "do your best" and it's never enough, and you know it'll never be enough.
I mean, what the hell is "your best"? WHAT IS THAT?!?! Does anyone really know? Doesn't it all depend on how your feeling, where u r, what your doing, and (the most important according to my mother, who makes me go to bed at 11:00 each and every night) what time u go to bed? Why the hell does it always matter so much! Isn't this my life? Why do I care? And y does it hurt so much knowing that I can't even compare to my own standards?

Word Of The Day: Jealous
Meaning: NOT(It's Me)
Poem Of The Day:
--Lost To Time
1000 dark faces, all strangers but one
Toward her's I did look, it was my sun
Sparkling eyes, which I could not see
Only within her heart, could I be free
Secrets were told, lies they were never
To each other we're bound, I'd thought forever

Upon saying Farewell, my heart...it was broken
Many miles between words too silently spoken
Cold depths, coming snow
Falling darkness begins to show
All I see is turned to frost
My beautiful Friend...
To Time, you have been lost


-10-9-01-
No Kelly Willy, I am not copying you. I just like this song, And I want everybody to c how cool you are 4 liking it too (I got it off her REALLY SUPER COOLNESS website, link down below).
I'd like the deadicate the presentance of this coolness song on my webthingy, to Kelly Willy, (number one reason: It's her song).
Green(Coolest color) Day (aka Bay, lol)
Time Of Ur Life
Another turning point
A fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist
Directs you where to go
So make the best of this test
And don't ask why
It's not a question
But a lesson I learned in time
It's something unpredictable
But in the end it's right
I hope you had the time of your life
So take the photographs
And still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf of good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth
It was worth all the while

-10-8-01-
Question Of The Day: Why Worry?
Answer: Thats what Tams does best.
Word Of The Day: Clay
Meaning: The stuff thats all over my pants, and my sister's car. hehehe
-10-7-01-
Word Of The Day: Work
Meaning: Evil stuff I have too much of. That is y I will not have a question of the day, sorry ppl.
-10-6-01- (Note Of The Moment: DUCK tape works!)
Word Of The Day: Cellular Fone
Meaning: Evil Evil things that ppl do not answer. (They are not yayness)
Question Of The Day: Should friends be open with each other? Should they tell u everything? Should u always tell them everything? can u lie? Should u lie? What if u can't lie? What if they lie? Why the hell am I always so god damn confused? Somebody tell me...
Answer: Sorry, you lost me after the first qestion. Ask again later.
-10-5-01-
Question Of The Day: What is normal?
Answer: Un-weird. Just like everything/everybody else. I hate normal ppl and/or things. So very boring.
Word Of The Day: Sick
Meaning: When u need help.
-10-4-01-
Question Of The Day: Why do ppl keep leaving????
Answer: I haven't been able to answer this question yet. Maybe it's becuase I'm such a fucked up person. My own mother doesn't even want me.
Word Of The Day: "Moving out"
Meaning: Moving- verb, leaving, going away, sneaking off, becoming free of something unwanted.
Out- state of being, away, gone, not here.
-10-3-01-
Question Of The Day: r popcorn flavored lolipops good?
Answer: I'm not sure... they taste weird... Like butter... But it's a good weird taste.. I guess... mmm.. Not sure..
Word Of The Day: Change
Meaing: A bitch. A pain in the ass. The worst thing that could ever happen. Bad. Evil. Hurtful. Painful. Icky.
Word Of The Night: Tears
Meaning: These damn hot wet things that have been rolling down my cheeks for the past hour.
-10-2-01-
Question Of The Day: Why do teachers give u buisy work that u feel like throwing out a 99 story window?
Answer: Cuz teachers who do that r stupid. And they don't know how to teach. They just give u those icky packets to keep u doing something, and make it seem as if they're doing their job, teaching.
Song Of The Day-
"Slide" by the Goo-Goo Dolls
Could you whisper in my ear
The things you wanna feel
I'll give you anything
To feel it comin'

Do you wake up on your own
And wonder where you are
You live with all your faults

Chorus:

I wanna wake up where you are
I won't say anything at all
So why don't you slide

Yeah we're gonna let it slide

Don't you love the life you killed
The priest is on the phone
Your father hit the wall
Your ma disowned you

Don't suppose I'll ever know
What it means to be a man
Something I can't change
I'll be around it

Chorus

And I'll do anything you ever
Dreamed to be complete
Little pieces of the nothing that fall
May put your arms around me
What you feel is what you are
And what you are is beautiful
May do you wanna get married
Or run away

And I'll do anything you ever
Dreamed to be complete
Little pieces of the nothing that fall
May put your arms around me
What you feel is what you are
And what you are is beautiful
May do you wanna get married
Or run away.

-10-1-01-
Question Of The Day: How much asprin do u need to overdose?
Answer: I can't find the damn bottle, so I don't know.
Word Of The Day: Unwanted
Meaning: (I've had much experince with this, so I know) Unwanted- when ppl pay no attention to u. When they don't care if ur there or not. When ur not missed when ur absent. When ur the last one picked on a team, or ppl would just rather u didn't show up at all. Thats unwanted.
-9-30-01-
Question Of The Day: Why do ppl wait?
Answer: I have no idea. I mean, whats the point? And even a better question, do ppl ever really wait? Or do they just move on? Most ppl move on. It's true. They do. And the ppl who DO wait, their hell is intense. It's horrible. Waiting, always waiting. Wanting so much to give up, to move on. But do they? Nope. They just wait. Why? Cuz they're stupid.. or something. I'm not sure. They just keep waiting. Maybe it's just easier. Who knows. If u think u know, email me, cuz I'd like to know.
Word Of The Day: Here.
Meaning: Not there. Not where u want to be. Just here.
-9-29-01-
Question Of The Day: Whats ur fav animal? Why?
Answer: My fav, oobviously, is the penguin. It's the greatest bird. In fact, it is so great, I shouldn't even have to explain y I love it so much. So, I'd like to hear all ur guys fav animals n' y u like em. And tell me what u think about penguins. Email me with ur responce. Thanx
Word Of The Day: Cheerleaders
Meaning: Stupid stupid girls out there trying to make themselves well known. They wear tight Lil clothes, trying to show off the bust 99.99999% of them DO NOT have. It's sad really.. if u really think about it.. It almost makes them deserve ur pity.. ALMOST.. yet.. they don't deserve anything. I hate cheerleaders. If any of my friends r reading this, I herby give u the permission to KILL ME OFF with a HORRIBLE AND SLOW MOST PAINFUL death if I ever become a cheerleader. Thank you. And I will kill any of u off if u ever become a cheerleader.
-9-28-01-
Question Of The Day: What are ppl most scared of in relationships? All relationships? Like, friendships too.
Answer: Rejection. You might be afraid some guy wont ask u to the prom. Or ur afraid some girl wont say yes when u do ask her. Or ur afraid she wont say yes when u ask her to marry you. Or ur afraid ur best friend will find a new best friend. Or ur afraid ur family will disown u, if u do something that u've been dying to do. It's all bout rejection. I, myself, am terrifeid of rejection. But I'm learning not to care. It's really a pain in the ass. I'm giving up. But the fear will always be there, for everybody. Rejection.
Word Of The Day: Commmunication.
Meaning: Sharing ur feelings, or other's feelings with another. Right? I think that would be it... Not sure though.. and I am too lazy to look it up right now...
-9-26-01-
Word Of The Day: Own
Meaning: Own. Does anybdy eally ever Own anything? I mean, if it was given to you, doesn't that still leave strings attached to whomever gave it to you in the first place? And if you bought it, where did u get that monay from? Did u borrow it? Or did u work 4 it? If u worked 4 it, do think u woked hard enough? Did u REALLY deserve the amount u got? hmm... OKay, so what if u did? What if u hav a wife? Or a husband? Is it theirs too? And if ur single, well, isn't it ur parents? I mean, u owe them money, 4 all the times they took care of u right? And if ur a minor, well that sux. EVerything u own is theirs. All the money u get is given to u, even if u do work 4 it. And believe me, it sux. So think about it. I mean, really think about it.
Do u really own anyting?
Question Of The Day: Would u do something 4 a friend that she/he wanted u 2 do if u knew she/he would be mad if it didn't work out?
Answer: Well... That all depends on the situation, and the friend. In this case (The case of which this question originated from), I would (and will) put myself up at stake, and am willing to get myself killed. Welcome to my hell... :: yawns ::

TODAY'S SONG- Kiss Me
---Performed by Sixpence None The Richer
Kiss me, out of the bearded barley
Nightly, beside the green, green grass
Swing, swing, swing the spinning step
You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon’s sparkling, so kiss me

Kiss me down by the broken tree house
Swing me upon its hanging tire
Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat
We’ll take the trail marked on your father’s map

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon’s sparkling, so kiss me

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon’s sparkling, so kiss me

So kiss me
So kiss me

QUOTE OF THE MOMENT: "Love can only be what you want it to be." -Kara Glubis
Meaning: Well, or course this is going to mean different things to different ppl. Right? To me, it means that you can't love anyone, or like anyone, anymore than u think possible. Thats y romantic type ppl (the ones that believe in true love, and ossession, and all that craxy sweet stuff) thats y they always fall deeply in love, and find themselves in love 4ever. Very sweet.
And thats y ppl who say they'll always be lonely, (the ones that wear all black, and who hate themselves and everyone else. Not letting anyone get close), they'll die alone. It's the way u think, what u believe in that makes you who you are.
-9-25-01-
Word of the day: Old.
Meaning: Familar, unchanged, comfy, knowing, used. So why do ppl say "new" is better? I happen to like old. Old shoes ur feet r used to wearing, old clothes, that u've had so many memories in, old friends, that know u so very well... Old...unchanged... Old.
Question Of The Day: Whats the most important thing u have? Not considering money, or value in that sort of way.
Answer: The most "solid" thing I own (Not as in feelings, memories, or people) is my heart necklace. I always wear it. I've never taken it off. Never. Not since it was put on me. It has it's own memories attacked, yet, it's not worth much to many ppl. But it's worth the world to me. Only me.
TODAY'S SONG-
The Space Between
--Dave Matthews Band
You cannot quit me so quickly
There's no hope in you for me
No corner you could squeeze me
But I got all the time for you, love

The Space Between
The tears we cry
Is the laughter keeps us coming back for more
The Space Between
The wicked lies we tell
And hope to keep safe from the pain

But will I hold you again?
These fickle, fuddled words confuse me
Like 'Will it rain today?
Waste the hours with talking, talking
These twisted games we're playing

We're strange allies
With warring hearts
What wild-eyed beast you be
The Space Between
The wicked lies we tell
And hope to keep safe from the pain

Will I hold you again?
Will I hold...

Look at us spinning out in
The madness of a roller coaster
You know you went off like a devil
In a church in the middle of a crowded room
All we can do, my love
Is hope we don't take this ship down

The Space Between
Where you're smiling high
Is where you'll find me if I get to go
The Space Between
The bullets in our firefight
Is where I'll be hiding, waiting for you
The rain that falls
Splash in your heart
Ran like sadness down the window into...
The Space Between
Our wicked lies
Is where we hope to keep safe from pain

Take my hand
'Cause we're walking out of here
Oh, right out of here
Love is all we need here

The Space Between
What's wrong and right
Is where you'll find me hiding, waiting for you
The Space Between
Your heart and mine
Is the space we'll fill with time
The Space Between...
-9-24-01-
Question Of The Day: Why do "friends" try to make ur life horrible?
Answer: Well, only really close friends have the power 2 hurt u, or make ur life "horrible" thats y ppl must be very selitive of their "close" friends. And even then, it may hurt to have someone so very close. But then again, thats just me opinion.
Word Of The Day: Lost
Meaning: Not knowing where you are, or not knowing why ur there, or not knowing how you got there. In a place in time, or a place where u stand. Lost. ex) I am lost.
-9-22-01-
Question Of The Day: What Is A frister?
Answer: Someone closer than a friend, almost a sister, "Fri-ster"
TODAY'S SONG-
If I am - Nine Days
So you're standin on the ledge, it looks like you might fall
It's so far down or maybe you were thinkin about jumpin
Now you could have it all, if you learned a little patience
For though I cannot fly, I'm not content to crawl
So give me a little credit, have in me a little faith
I wanna be with you forever, if tomorrow's not too late
But its always too late when you got nothin, so you say
You should never let the sun set on tomorrow before the sun rises today

If I am another waste of everything you dreamed of, I will let you down
If I am only here to watch you as you suffer, I will let you down

So you're walkin on the edge, and you wait your turn to fall
But you're so far gone that you don't see the hands upheld to catch you
And you could find the fault in the heart that you've been handed
For though you cannot fly, you're not content to crawl
And its always too late when you got nothin, so you say
But we should never let the sun set on tomorrow before the sun rises

If I am another waste of everything you hoped for, I will let you down
If I am only here to watch you as you suffer, I will let you down

So you're standin on the ledge, it looks like you might fall

If I am another waste of everything you dreamed of, I will let you down
If I am only here to watch you as you suffer, I will let you down

The answers we find are never what we had in mind
So we make it up as we go along
You don't talk of dreams, when i won't mention tomorrow
And we won't make those promises that we can't keep

I will never leave you, I will not let you down

I will never leave you, I will not

--Very good song.
-9-21-01-
Words Of The Day: I knew I loved you before I met you.
Meaning: Well... it's possible for someone to have been waiting for someone their whole life, and then finally find them, right?
Question Of The Day: Whats the best advice you could give someone who's having love problems? Or just problems making a choice?
Answer: Oh Oh, I know I know! Do what those stupid 900 numbers always say, "Well, looks like ur in a pickle. You should just follow ur heart. And be there for them like a good friend." Well, you know what I say to that? Fuck that. Thats not even a solution. It's a bunch of crap. Admit it, all u "mushy" ppl out there, u don't know what 2 do. Most of u don't even know what real problems r. 2 me the worst problem, is no problem. I mean, when ur completly ignored. Or worse, and I guess this would count as a problem, being beaten. Yeah well, I've been there, done that. Don't wanna do it again.
-9-20-01-
Words Of The Day: To whom it may consern.
Meaning: In my opinion, it doesn't ever concern anybody.
Question Of The Day: Well... Today in my "creative writing class," the journal question was, "What is love?"... so...Todays question is What Is Love?
Answer: ha. That my friend, is a hell of a question. I, myself, always wondering if love is ever really true. I know I love a few people. Very few. Love is a strong word, and I choose to use it very carefully. There is no point in going all mushy sayin I love all my friends a shit, cuz thats not true. In my hell, I don't even love myself. I am a lier. I lie to myself ALL THE TIME. Telling myself how much I'm loved, and how much I am to be loved in the future. Yeah, right. Love doesn't have to be returned, thats for sure. I love, and that love isn't truly returned to me. That, my friend, is a big part of my hell. Love is a pain in my ass. Thats all I have to say about that.
-9-19-01-
Words Of The Day: High school.
Meaning: What does it mean? hmm... High School- The horrible evil place most teenagers are forced to go to.
Question Of The Day: Is it better to spend all your life just hoping for something better and it never coming as you suffer. OR die knowing that you were loved after a shortened life?
Answer: hmm.. That’s a good question. But really, it's a question only the dead can answer. And really, I'm not quite ready to make it.