A New Journal, Finally

SIDE NOTE: Take notice that everything that used to be important is gone, like the toasters and the secret links and the penguins. None of that belongs here anymore. Those were things to keep me company in my insanity. Now, help us all, I am sane.


Second Side Note: Its not so sad when you see people sad. Normally Sad people are always sad and sectrety some enjoy being that way. What is sad is seeing someone attempt to be happy but only turn out sadder. I am the second one. But hey, maybe things will work out...



July 13, 2005 --- 4 hours later, 10:12

I'm not supposed to love you,
I'm not supposed to care,
I'm not supposed to live my life,
wishing you were there.

I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do,
I'm sorry I just can't help myself,
I fell in love with you..

July 13, 2005

So w had some problems calling me last night. Well for one, she decided she didnt wanna talk to me so she didnt bother strolling in until 1 in the morning my time. secondly, someone needs to teach her what a payphone is bc apparently she doesnt know what they are or how they work. I dont understand how I try so hard constantly to think about her, make sure i know where she is and if she's okay and she couldnt care less if i know or if she knows about me. she doesnt care that i care. i really want to be with her but i dont know if my heart can handle it. shes gonna be the death of me. maybe she wants to kill me, that would explain a lot. so yeah, her mother hung up on me and wouldnt give her the phone bc it was too early in the morning. maybe i should send some wrong numbers to her every night round 4 or 5 in the morning. w needs to come home.

July 11, 3005

This is where i worked for a month this summer. I think it fits really nicely on this website. I dont really wanna say why, lets just say I saw two certain someones on the side of the building talking.



FACT OF THE DAY: So a long time ago someone printed out my entire website, every single page in COLOR and brought it to school. It was really funny. I bet it cost like an entire cartridge.


SONG OF THE DAY:

Postal Service Song Lyrics
Such Great Heights

I am thinking it's a sign
that the freckles in our eyes
are mirror images
and when we kiss they're perfectly aligned.

And I have to speculate
that God Himself did make
us into corresponding shapes
like puzzle pieces from the clay.

And true it may seem like a stretch
but it's thoughts like this that catch
my troubled head when you're away
and when I am missing you to death.

And when you are out there on the road
for several weeks of shows
and when you scan the radio
I hope this song will guide you home.

they will see us waving from such great heights
"come down now" they'll say
but everything looks perfect from far away
"come down now" but we'll stay

I tried my best to leave
this all on your machine
but the persistent beat
it sounded thin upon the sending.

and that frankly will not fly
you'll hear the shrillest highs
and lowest lows with the windows down
and this is guiding you home.

they will see us waving from such great heights
"come down now" they'll say
but everything looks perfect from far away
"come down now" but we'll stay

they will see us waving from such great heights
"come down now" they'll say
but everything looks perfect from far away
"come down now" but we'll stay

they will see us waving from such great heights
"come down now" they'll say
but everything looks perfect from far away
"come down now" but we'll stay