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.:.February 19, 2003-9:23am.:.

The New Missy Elliot CD is great...did I mention that yet?

There is so much snow outside, it's making me sick. I can't stand sitting at home anymore. It is only 9:24am and we are already closed for tomorrow. It's just getting out of hand. I would rather be in Nazi Durbin's "prechem" class than sitting around here. I am getting easily annoyed with my brother's hyena laugh. The only good part of being out of school is getting to talk to MaryBeth (I spelled it the correct way, M and B capitalized and no space in the middle!) late at night, because that's when we both get a little disoriented so the conversation takes a turn for insanity! It's quite fun to reread the conversation at 2 in the morning! Love ya girl! Anyway,I watch this homoerotic comedy/drama on the Independent Film Channel last night around 3am. It was rather disturbing, I would not watch it if I were you. It's creepy from the start to the end, I'm sure there is an artistic meaning behind it, but I'm sorry I don't see it.

The aftermath of the snow...

.:.February 11, 2003-7:00pm.:.

Rancid in the cd player at the moment

So with the sweetest day of the year (Besides easter with all that candy) coming up, I have decided to rant about my nonexistant love life. I'm feeling very BLAH right now, and I've been crying for sometime.I feel as though I will never find anyone, I am destined to be the loner that I am. Ok, I dont want to talk about this anymore

My System of a down cd playing in the background..I need to get my aggression out somehow

Well, I stayed home today, I was too mentally hurt and tired to get out of bed. I stayed up until around 3:30am thinking about things, my little mind has been in terrible state lately. I can't concentrate on things, and when I do try to concentrate it veres off into something completely different. I seriously hope we don't have school tomorrow, if we don't I will look around my house for Legend, I haven't seen that movie in a while, so I shall search great lands to view it..ok actually just search downstairs and in chuck's room. Let's see what was I going to ramble about? Oh yes, this terrorist shit that is going on. Ok, this whole all day news coverage of terrorism is just getting old, I dont mind seeing it once in a while, and they love to scare the backwoods, ex-vietnam vets dont they? What I wouldn't give to work at a hardware store where some of those people are.can you just imagine the crazy shit they would want to buy...its the 1950's all over again..They are going to build bomb shelters and teach school children to duck and cover in the the event of a nuclear attack, Yes, I am so sure that will save their little lives. Ok I'm dont I think.

10:48pm

Random songs on my winamp are playing at the moment, and the delightful sounds of AIM chiming

Today..well more this evening has been very eventful, it's official..me and greg are over with. It's fucking sad, let me tell you. I told him how I felt and it turned into a huge fight. Oh well, it's fine. I feel very very mentally bashed, and I know I will not sleep tonight. One thing that erked me is when he called me disgusting, sure he tried to take it back, but damn, I have never been called disgusting over what I was feeling. Well, my little head is killing me, and I need to stop writing about it or I'm going to cry again

.:.Monday-February 10 2003-7:34am

The Angsty music of Smashing Pumpkins blairing in my ears through my raverish headphone

Well I get up this morning at 5am to find that school was on a two hour delay, ok, great, I love two hour delays, so I smoke a cigarette and take some insomnia pills (Yes, I am an insomniac) and try to fall asleep...nothing..all I get from those all herbal things is just a feeling similar to a nicotine buzz. I lay in bed watching the news, and let me tell you there is only so much they can say about the water break in Wheeling. I stare at this radiation box until 6:30...still two hour delay, I got downstairs, flip on the outside light to see it snowing pretty good outside, I hop in the shower at 6:40am and it takes me roughly 10 minutes to shower. I accidentally forget to get a towel, I come out of the bathroom soaking fucking wet, and see this...BUCKEYE LOCAL-CLOSED...Well goodie I just downed 3 insomnia pills, I'm wet, I'm tired, and I got up for no reason. So as of now, I am sitting here, my hair is very wet and I am listening to the soothing or not sounds of my brother snoring in the living room. -END

.:.Sunday-February 9 2003-8:39pm

.:.My music of the moment-Oasis doing a cover of Day Tripper.:.

So, today, well what can I say about today? I spent my day in Brillant with Greg at his grandma's house, we watched t.v. and I played some games on his computer and he took me home. Tomorrow will consist of me taking Nazi Durbin's test, and going around the room making me feel like an idiot. Oh well, SO anyway, This used to be my old journal website, that of course I created like a moron, boredom mostly motivated me, so anyway, I think I will redo this whole site, those pictures of me are soo old..like last year old. So it will take me a while to redo alot of the stuff on here..so bear with me. Though no one will read this and I dont care it will keep me occupied.