Jim was my oldest brother and the oldest of six Flanagan boys. Our
parents were Mae and James (Bud) Flanagan and we were born and raised in
Des Moines, Iowa. Jim, although christened James Francis, was not a
Junior as my Dad's middle name was Michael.
Friends and relatives got a kick out of rattling off our names -- Jim,
Jack,Tom, Bill, Dick and Jerry. I came in third, and like most kids
looked up to my older brothers. Jim was 5 years older, and all through
his life gave me cause to both love and hate him. These are some of
those memories.
One of my earliest memories was with my 2 older brothers flying down
37th Street hill in a wicker baby carriage that my folks had at one time
used to transport us. We would pile in or on -- me the smallest on top
-- and only body english could control direction since there was no
mechanical means for steering. How we kept from getting injured or
killed was probably the work of our Guardian Angels, and in this day and
age our folks would be charged with either child neglect or
endangerment.
As I got a little older, Jim helped in the construction of a vehicle
usually referred to as a "soap box derby" car. This would either have
ropes to control a movable front axle, or, as mechanical knowledge
increased, a steering wheel with shaft, ropes and pulleys allowing the
driver steering control similar to an automobile.
On one occasion, I was operating this "car" down the hill and intended
to turn into our driveway near the bottom. As I turned the steering
wheel to the left, the car went in the opposite direction and hit the
telephone pole across from our drive.
Jim had forgotten to cross the ropes where they were wound around the
shaft, which I learned later would always result in surprising the
driver. He denied doing this on purpose, but I always suspected that he
did it to get a laugh.
About the same time as the above incident, I was getting interested in
Boy Scout activities. Jim was the assistant Scoutmaster when I first
joined, and later had full authority as Scoutmaster, and never treated
me any differently from the other kids in the troop. I appreciated that,
because favoritism could have had a negative impact on my relationship
with the other Scouts.
One Scout outing that I remember fondly, but sometimes wonder why, was a
double overnight in winter. We slept in tents even though it was quite
cold with lots of snow on the ground. I remember working hard to make a
mudpack around a potato so we could put it right in the campfire for
baking. We scouts, under my brother's direction and supervision,
prepared a hot meal for ourselves and were quite proud.
Our campsite was along the river bank, and sometime during the 2 day
outing, those of us who dared, accompanied Jim on a very short trip down
the river, using poles to guide us while riding one of the many large
ice blocks that were floating in the river at that time. A big thrill
for a kid not yet a teenager.
Almost every summer during this period, our family would journey on a
summer vacation to visit my Mother's family in Douglas, Wyoming. Her
brother Vincent and his wife owned a 2,000 acre ranch with lots of
horses. Jim, together with the help of our cousins, taught me how to
ride and shoot; and I think we rode the full area of that property while
hunting jack rabbits and avoiding rattlesnakes. I learned how to skin an
edible rabbit and prepare it for cooking.
I'll never forget one day at the ranch, Jim thought it would be fun to
call Mom out to show her how to shoot a rifle. We had set up cans and
bottles as targets, and Jim was very precise in his instructions on
sighting, squeezing the trigger when ready to fire, etc. Mom listened
carefully without saying a word, and when handed the rifle, squeezed off
5 or 6 rounds in rapid succession hitting every target square on. "You
mean like that," she asked. We boys stood there with "egg on our face."
It wasn't until later I learned that she had ridden in rodeos as a
teenager, had broken horses and had been an expert markswoman in her
youth. We should have known better, with Mom having been raised in the
Wild West at the turn of the century.
When I was about eleven or twelve, curiosity led me to check out a
filling station under construction in our neighborhood. The concrete
block walls were up, but no roof structure was in place. Somehow I
climbed to the top to look around, and after looking around, tried to
figure out how to get down. A window frame -- sans glass -- was in the
open position projecting at 90 degrees, and I tested it by applying my
weight. It held temporarily, but as I started to climb down, it suddenly
closed. As I reached out to grab for safety as it closed, three of my
fingers were smashed as it locked shut.
It hurt llike the devil, and I called out for help. Two men across the
street heard me, and came running. They had to use a 2x4 to pound the
window frame open to extract my fingers. I'm sure that the men intended
to give further help, but I took off for home crying my head off.
Jim heard me bawling before I got to the house, and immediately took
charge. He cleaned the debris from my cut and bleeding fingers, and
prepared a solution to soak them. While I was soaking, he was arranging
for someone to come and take us to the doctor's office. He stayed with
me through the whole ordeal, and I was really comforted because of his
help.
Jim always seemed to know exactly what to do in these situations, and
with our family, it seemed there was always something.
Jim had always been very slight of build, and his health was such that
tuberculosis became a concern. My folks arranged to have him spend a
summer out west when he was a teenager, in an attempt to restore his
health. I'm sure it helped, but in looking back it seems that this was
the beginning of negatives in his life.
When Jim was a senior in High School, he and Mart Corcoran, a neighbor
across the street, used to get into arguments quite often. One of these
led to a wrestling match, and I came upon the scene. Mart was a year
younger than Jim, but much bigger, and it was clear to me that Mart had
the upper hand. I never liked Mart, and loved my brother, so I took
over. Big for my age, and my adrenalin roaring, I got the better of Mart
quickly, and he took off, never again to give any of the Flanagan boys
trouble.
Some years later, when I was 16, and our father was in the automobile
business, Jim and I took a bus trip to Ogalolla, Nebraska to pick up two
used cars. Apparently these had been purchased earlier at auction, and
our job was to drive the cars back to Des Moines. We stayed overnight,
and before supper Jim decided that he'd like a glass of beer, so we
found a nearby tavern. Sitting at the bar, the bartender placed a glass
of beer before each of us, looked at me, then looked at Jim, and asked
him to produce some identification. I had never seen him angrier, and I
don't think he ever forgot it. The fact that he was 21 and I was 16 had
much to do with his frustration, I'm sure.
My troubles with Jim began with his occasional use of my car. During my
years in High School when I owned first a Model T Ford, then a 1926
Chevy, and later a Model A roadster, he didn't bother me with his
transportation needs, and I frankly don't remember his situation during
those years. But after I graduated from high school, I owned a near new
1939 Ford, and it seemed the problems with Jim would never end. I was
working 67 hours a week in a grocery store -- for $17.82 a week to give
you an idea of the times -- and needed my rest. To keep him from taking
the car while I was asleep, I would hide the keys to the car in my
shoes, and hide my shoes. That only worked for awhile, as later I would
often find the car had been moved from where I had left it. Once I found
it locked up in the middle of the street in front of our house with
traffic passing it on both sides. So, yes, he had a drinking problem,
which made everything so much worse.
One reason Jim didn't have a car of his own was his uncanny bad luck; to
the best count back then, he had wrecked almost 20 cars by the time he
was 21. How he kept a driver's license I haven't a clue. Maybe he
didn't. But the worst accident of all was when he was a passenger in a
friend's car, and the story was they were forced off the road at a point
where telephone poles lined the curb. That part is true, because I know
the area well. In sideswiping the pole, Jim's arm was out the window,
and was driven through the center post of a 4 door sedan. It was
reported that it took 40 minutes to cut his arm free of the car. My
folks got the best "bone man" in the city to put his elbow back together
using platinum wire to piece together as many sizable fragments of bone
as could be salvaged. He recovered the use of his arm, limited to about
40%, which was a major success since the first diagnosis was to
amputate.
This injury plus all the other problems Jim had shouldered along the way
was probably the reason Mom took his side whenever he and I got into it
over the use, or more accurately the misuse of my car. On one occasion,
not only did he take the car without my permission but failed to return
it. I finally dragged out of him that he had gotten stuck in the mud,
tried over and over to get the car out but only got it stuck deeper in
the muck. He abandoned the car and got a ride home. Getting from him the
approximate location, my friends took me there, and with the use of a
log chain, getting filthy, and with much effort pulled the car out. It
took hours to clean all the mud from the car, as it was packed solid in
the under-carriage. When I got back home I was in a fit of rage, and
wanted to break his neck. Except for arguing with my mother about having
to wear knickers in grade school, this was the only real argument I
remember having with Mom. I accused her of enabling Jim, and to this day
I believe it, and surely one reason he never accepted responsibility.
She succeeded in calming me down, and I returned to the business of
cleaning up
the car.
With World War 2 underway, I left the grocery job and began to work in a
defense plant in Ankeny, Iowa, about 45 minutes from home. This was
resulting in lots of miles on my beautiful '39 Ford, so I decided to get
a cheap car to use going to and from work. I found a 1930 Model A Ford
coupe that was in perfect shape, and bought it. This solution worked out
well until another situation happened with my brother. One evening when
I didn't need the Model A, he asked if he could borrow it. Had it been
the newer car, I would have said "no," but this time I said OK. I NEVER
saw the car again. What I paid for it I can't remember, but, fortunately
for me, it wasn't a great deal. Jim had reported to the police that it
had been stolen, but it was never recovered, and of course no one
insures an inexpensive car against theft. Chalk up another one for big
brother.
A girl named Midge Payne had dated Jim during my high school years. She
later moved to the Los Angeles area, and on a trip I made there the
summer I graduated, I looked her up. This was the era of the Big Bands,
and I wanted to go to the Hollywood Palladium to hear "Les Brown and his
Band of Renown," but didn't want to go alone. Although she was 3 years
older than I, she agreed to go with me, and it was great fun.
She asked about Jim, but it was obvious that their relationship was
over. Thinking about Midge reminds me of an incident which was typical
of Jim's life. He did nothing with his talents. One evening Jim and
Midge were seated at our dining room table, and he decided to do a
pencil sketch of his girl friend. When I saw what was going on, I stuck
around to watch him work and was amazed, as the sketch turned out the
equivalent of a photograph. This God given talent was never pursued --
what a waste.
All of the 6 brothers except Jim served in the military, and of course
that severe
handicap from the injury exempted him. Nevertheless, Jim did his part
through his employment in the shipbuilding industry on the west coast.
During my 3 years of service there was little contact with my brother,
and later, going to college and starting a family kept us apart. The
lack of contact with family is something I always look back on with
sorrow.
Jim had married, had 3 children, and all the while experienced marital
problems, finally ending in divorce. He had numerous jobs in a generally
unhappy life, probably due in large part to alcoholism.
All these weighty problems, many self- created, were apparently too much
and he took his own life at age 52. In reminiscing about the life I
shared with my brother, I can truly say that the love outweighs the
anger.
I love you, Jim