Finger Eleven

Other Light

Never tell your friends
They’ll never understand
Confessions only burn themselves in the fire
Choke on every word
That no one’s ever heard
Your sentimental thoughts are strangled and tired

See it in another light
You’ll see it working out alright
I know I won’t change any mind
As long as they’re still changing mine

As simple as they can
They’re telling you again
What they think you’ve done is so unbecoming
But you don’t have to take
Every old mistake
And always see it as a fall while you’re running

Saw it in other light
I saw it work out alright
I know I won’t change your mind
As long as they’re changing mine


Complicated Questions

Easy to be taken with everything you’re saying
Make us perfect and say it all again
But if every single second’s killing
Tell me I’m dreaming
I’ll sleep it all away

Tear out this love
Tear up the root
Tear out this love
Tear me from you

You know you can tell me anything you want to
Tell me something that I’d never know
Could be cautious as the words roll over your tongue
I’m stung with sick discovery

Tear me from these complicated questions
Taking all the empty spaces inside me
But complicated answers never did you any justice anyway
Complicated as we are we’re going have to burn it all away

Complicated answers take up all the empty spaces inside me
But complicated answers never did you any justice anyway
Complicated as we are we’re going to tear out this love


Stay In Shadow

So cold that you cannot cope
With a frozen heart
I guess we blow apart
I guessed it from the start
Stay in shadow
I’ll run this world out
Stay in shadow
It’s running out of time
Stay in shadow
I want to watch it drown
Stay in this now

Don’t say because you can’t
Say what we should have been
Don’t show what I resent
Don’t know cause I forget

So cruel to be so blind
Darkness was on my side
Now that you’ve come and gone
I know where I belong

Light is leaving as I watch you go
Light is leaving inside of my soul

Good Times

Something has stuck in underneath my skin
Eyes all looking in for something within
Somewhere in here

Now everything I say gives this all away
Senses deadened again
Nothing lives today
Not in here

Here in your head

Careful what you’re feeling on the inside
You should try to remember the good times and the high life
Are you feeling alright?

Felt that I belonged
And now I feel that gone
Where it all went wrong
I traced it all along
Back here again

There was something calling me to negativity
Dark covering me
Shrouding every scene I’m cast in

Please answer
I’m calling just to find out
If you could be there for me when I crack
The answer came
I found it buried in the trash there
I saw it stare…


Absent Elements

Everyone plays along
Get them giving or steal the life they’re breathing
They’ll grow sickened
Take their secret codes and signals
Discover all they know
Keep up the pace now until it all dries up

You’ll never find out now
That all these absent elements
Build your comfortable defense stronger still
Like an emptiness

Way too early to consider losing
Vacant staring may discover some reflection
Or may discover none
Just think what you’ve done
And watch it all add up

Like an emptiness you’ll never fill

Thousand Mile Wish

Forgive me if now I wear the face of worry
This time alone could never cause any doubt
But I’ve been cold too long
Such a strange time to find myself coming down as the rain
With all the holes my love,
To fill up from the middle
This storm could stay all night

So can you stay until we close our eyes
Til your dreams hold mine
Just stay until we know we tried one more time

Cause laughing lovers can overcome their closest demons
And they’ll go on and they won’t let go
They saw something that they know
Has never come so close
Can it stay here for us, for now?

Can it stay until we know ourselves?
I’m torn as I tell
You’re the story that I know and fell from
I’m so far into your story I don’t know why
We think we’re in control
When we lie between the lines

We’ll find a line to follow
It’s got to show real soon
Or we’ll never each this high

We climb a little further
Cause there’s nothing we can’t get around together
Further gets colder until nothing was all that I saw around

So we stay until the ground
That we can’t come down from splits us away
Maybe stars know why we fall
I just wish they were thinking out loud
Oh, I could wish all night

Conversations

Something changing
The secret is building
Almost over and somehow seems a beginning
Losing focus
It must be boring
Looking forward never turns out the wrong way

Conversations alone
Complicate us together on our own
Conversations alone
So alone

No one calling
But someone is bound to reply
No one out there
But someone hears every word
I know we’re playing the same game
Easing the conscience by

The road was taken
The path led on
Til a new one’s left to clear
The signal’s given
The show turned on til emotion cut too near

The road was taken
The path led on
The signals given
The show turned on
Still receiving
And still believing
The time that you take isn’t gone

Keep us from together on our own
Together on our own

The Last Scene of Struggling

The static grows and kills the message
Unclear as the wind blows
Thin whispers through all the wreckage
You said you planned to fail
Looking so safe but sorry
So be sure to bang the nail
And seal the exit out

Feel the way through your revelation
Does it feel the way you want to?

Just say it like it’s all true
Just tell it like you want to

You bled along the edge of reason
You could have changed your mind into the driest season
Don’t explain I know
The lives that you let go
The ones you thought you knew
Held onto deep dark truth

You just say it like it’s all true
You just tell it like you want to
Calculate one last scene of struggling
As I’m sinking I’ll be looking for you cause you’ll know who to blame

But you can’t stop the plan cause supply met demand

Panic Attack

Thought I could fake this thing alright
Thought it could somehow get me by
Watching the doctors as they slide
Needles into my eye

Thought I could finally get around
Laughable symptoms keep me down
Faces I see all keep me blind
And now they’re redemption’s mine

Now that I can’t exchange actions for words
Now that I found these inside fears the worst
Now that I know there’s no place left to hide
Can I become all I thought I might

As the leaders who follow the path of whoever was standing round them
Call to say what I’m missing and into a detail they always go
Don’t believe them but offer condolences under the circumstances
All too often I’m missing the spirit to fit in so call me out

Thought I could soundly sleep tonight
Positive clear and breathing right
Panic attacks, panic attacks me now
Seems like a fair redemption

Therapy

Wide awakened out of spinning
Round the safest orbit
You controlled the ordinary
I was grateful for it
Wide awake in the beginning
Trembling after the fall
Only half my world remembers
While the other half revolves

Cut off cause I can’t remember
A face that could cut me deeper
But hearts could never leave me bleeding
Becoming the cause and burden
The lesson begins unlearning
And it has never been forgiving my dear

It’s all too familiar
I’ve been here before
I’ll carry this weight for your smallest reward
Because I’ll continue to break down the door
Just let me in I swear
It will not be like before

Can’t think of what to say
I can’t think of what to do
I just think I might be losing my mind
Can’t stop this agony
Cancel my therapy cause
I just thought of you
and now I feel fine

Collecting the strangest conscience
Apathy returns it’s offense
But only after I get moving
Relax and being the change
In time for the newest age
To help me find out what I’m missing in here

One Thing

Restless tonight
Cause I wasted the light
Between both these times
I drew a really thin line
It’s nothing I planned
And not that I can
But you should be mine
Across that line

If I traded it all
If I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thing
If I sorted it out
If I knew all about this one thing
Wouldn’t that be something

I promise I might
Not walk on by
Maybe next time
But not this time

Even though I know
I don’t want to know
Yeah I guess I know
I just hate how it sounds

Obvious Heart

The obvious heart has come to collect
Cause it tore apart like a tortured insect
The obvious heart waits here to heal
And balances out a subtle reveal

Cause there’s a remedy close
In a familiar dose
This bitter pill to swallow
Is last in the bottle tonight
You’re empty it’s alright

And full of yourself
No need to explain
To anyone else
Broken in time
Taken what’s left
No need to deny
The cause or effect

This heart is not a broken one
But where have all the colors gone
It’s still among the lucky ones

This heart is not a broken one
But where have all the colors gone
You’re still among the lucky ones
And burning longer than the sun

Cause there’s a remedy close
In a familiar dose
Now you can find out who knows
Soaking the truth that she says

The Greyest Of Blue Skies

My Carousel

Spotlights are roaming, the show will begin
I had never thought but don't give my circus away
I hope it ends before you know me, I've lost it completely
My faith is lost again I'd say, I'm tired of this place and I want to go riding my carousel
They can never tell, I'm spinning and turning, always revolving
You should have seen it
Where were you?
I needed a stage, to walk all over you
I'm throwing my three ring away and I can hear you say, I'm tired of this place
I'm tired of this place and then I think of...
Riding my carousel they can never tell
Close all of the doors, lock me away, I'm happy I'm here, so let me stay

Drag You Down

It's biting it's teething, it's biting, I'm bleeding
It's calling, it's crawling, it's calling and I'm falling
The perfect sound of middle ground
Pull me under, before I try to drag you down
Someone has to pull me under, before I try to drag you down
They're fighting, they're growing, they're fighting and I'm growing
I'm biting, I'm teething ,I'm bleeding

First Time

I had never thought, we were hanging on, but the fall looks very far staring at the ground
What flesh will do to you will do to me too
Be free and on your own
It's not that simple, it's never that simple
It feels like the first time that we'd fallen behindand we faltered too far down no one could save us
It feels like the first time and we're standing about them and no one can touch us
The worst is over
I could say to you a bitter word or two
There's no stopping now, just get it out in the air
Heard it through the fog and hurt by it all
I'd take it back today, but it's out of my hands
Lost in the film again all the signs were showing
Watching a single frame when the wind begins you're never anywhere
'Cause you're caught in my weather every time
Feels like the first time, we'd fallen behind. No use is the other one to wait
" But I can hold on, as sure as I'm strong
Get over the faithful yesterdays

Sick Of It All

Are the sins getting staler does every moment move past you
Or does it feel like forever and shouldn't you be laughing too?
Take a look how they found you, take a look what they've done to you now
What was it they wanted, sullen and haunted?
If only you saw it coming
How far down would you fall, if you never came up again
'Cause you're so sick of it all, and you want to change everything
Just how deep will you go to see through it all?
If you could consume her, would you say you were finding your way out?
Is anything coming clearer smashing your mirror?
Still you can see you're guilty coming closer my composure turning inside out in her
Calling home all alone, you can call I won't answer
Any question in my head remains until you feel the same
Never telling how I felt is all I ever cared about

Waiting For The Ocean

Without it I'm failing, my heart waits in the wings alone
The stages I go through keep coming time and time and time again
Do you wonder how I stay so complacent?
It's like waiting for the ocean to save you from the waves, when you're so far under, silent, never moving
You've taken your timing so flawless executing me. So fearless and hopeful, can you imagine such a scene?
Broken Words

Your sweet little hands brush right past me
Sometimes you don't understand, why you can't reach
I bite when I don't want to bend
How silent I can be so she is silent too
She's the one who saw my words; broken, torn at the seams and broken words were all she heard
Now she's walking away from me
Some never meant and some meant well
The difference between us is so hard to tell
I was so shaken but now all I see is everything she meant to me

Suffocate

Talk to me, can you listen to me now
Do you understand, can you identify?
But it's as if you seem to make a small effort
But you bend you're bending my mind and you try to suffocate and smother me
Covered so I can't breathe
We collapse our weakened hands fall together at once abandoned
They'll force you down and strap you in now we agree and understand
Speak slowly you gotta get it all out now
What are you saying?
Just remember we will always be here
Just in case you have been waiting, waiting to show us something or give us some sign
As if you're gonna suffocate, smothering, covered so you can't breathe
Gently lure your submission all the while suspicion grows
So be sick of listening to senile old and staggering naive youth pick us up when we fall down

Bones & Joints

Cloud my eyes and tell me what to see
I'm falling every way I turn the same disease
But I like it, brace myself and hit the wall with ease
Colliding, I'm not minding the pain
I've been down here before
All my bones and joints are sore
Find my way out of the wreck again
I've been down here before, lost myself and so much more
Find my way out of the game again, open up my head and take it in
Just like always think about the bar and take a swing
Loaded trapeze, what you need the most from me is yours
I'll continue to deceive you my friend
You lost what made you you
Or maybe I never knew
I can't stay here anymore, give it all or you're on your own
I will leave you, I will leave you, I will leave you, I will leave you

Famous

Wait if everything's going great, can you remember a day to tell?
If someone should wish you well, then there's a narrow chance
All I want from you my dear friend, I don't even want
I could show you how and you say you've got that feeling again
It won't be long enough but it may never end I know
Wait I thought I had something to say, I will remember someday
Fate found you buckling under the weight and you thought you would last
All I got from you my dear friend, I don't ever want
Follow your answers, but you look so bitter, who are you?
Are you famous?
Important?
Don't stop that glitter
All I wanted from you is all forgotten for you

Stay and Drown

Good God have I been dreaming, this paralyzing feeling?
Was I left alone?
Where have you gone?
Were you somewhere else just sleeping?
If I wait to wake you, I'll never ask you, would you take my hand?
In the deepest end, would you stay and drown in me?
My open eyes see everything but I'm passing all the days through a window pane and as the scene would change
I'd stay the same this paradise was nothing new but the paradise gets tired of you
A single conversation, stole my attention
My open eyes see everything and you see nothing, and don't forget it

Tip

Quicksand

Slow sinking feeling kills the mood you're conveying and it pulls me far down below
It might be best if you go, can it not wait and hope for the best
Will it not stop a while to rest
I need to get up never mind cause I've done enough
The world waits around but I keep slipping and losing ground
Do I not try so hard so good, I can't keep changing just because you think I should
Said all I need to and you don't understand still
Wish you saw picture my mind's eyes are deep and they're cynical
One taken four more kills the pain healing that sore, I've taken what's left I took it all and now you won't let me forget
The world waits around but I keep slipping and losing ground
Do I not try so hard so good
I can't keep changing just because you think I should
Stop you're talking down, I lack the strength to sit or stand, I lost my self confidence in the quicksand
Not now or ever, sink slowly my treasure

Tip

I gave it all I gave it up then I took it in and got enough but I try to cancel out whatever I can't laugh about
So what does that say there can't be anyway I've done my worst and no one knows
One more day to fool them all, one more day to drop the ball, one more day to fade away
Fill a head with sand just to make it better
I had the chance to beat it in but I never, I should have taken it right then
One more day to fool them all, one more day to drop the ball, one more day to fade away
Now you've been taken you won't stop shaking
Embrace every minute you're all that's left in it
It's not happening some other day you'll fool them all
One more day to drop the ball, one more day to fade away

Shudder

So sad to everyone did not occur to you
Wake up an empty shell someone to crawl into
Dead days refuse to dream the blanket still asleep
Concealing every flaw till you uncover me
Could it be that I'm fading far away straight out of it
No truth I can confirm, no truth that I can sense
Passing time I can't recall the truth it surfaces
Open eyes open heart, open up and fall apart
I'll be that burden you bear

Awake and Dreaming

I can't lose anything so what's left is mine and I win this time
Consolation day I'll make up a way, I'll know now just what to say
I'll get away from you wait and I'll be begging
I'll pull you down
I saw it all again fading memory became clear to me, I try but I can't say
That I'm yours for good support me you said you would
I'll get away from you wait and I'll be begging
I'll pull you down
Awake and dreaming, I'm only sleeping

Above

Inside I'm gone, you knew that all along
Without the distance you never get away
Plastic bag image is over now it's over now, the color fading is all the way to grey
We are strong but we're dumb, we look above
Trusting the instinct is not about what you think
The one reaction is only to obey and I'm staring all around not far down
Judge the distance from the ground and pray
We are strong but we're dumb, we look above

Condenser

Felt the best that I could feel censored every memory, give me yours so I can feed mine
Anywhere but far away can't be what you meant to say
I won't miss you in the meantime
All jokes aside you should decide if it pleases or pains you
You should be allowed but you were beat out so nothing can save you
Closing up into the end try to start it up again a lower voice and tired heart beats
Take away the self esteem force it through to get relief taking everything that I need
Spirits all keep coming down come around with answers
I'll cut my teeth in slivers you're up and gone and senseless
Broken open your abscess is it all or is it none
I cant decide closing all the one way doors
Till I am left outside that's just what I see, that's what I came to see
Now you shut me out, I feel left out

Thin Spirits

Another face, another empty space
The feelings fade and all the lonely ones are left hiding
Your spirit's so thin there's nothing left to take
Without rhyme or reason you point the other way
I don't need to watch as you go down in flames, I said over and over
The water comes and leaves its faint traces
You're bored to tears
I'll keep you here but you won't listen

Glimpse

Tell me what you need to hear and I'll tell it to you again
I can fake it all if you can too
Will it stop from bleeding naturally enough
Can I hold my tongue in silent the words are slow and repeating
I know you why don't you take what you need and then go away
I know you why don't you take what you need
Die to get another glimpse in so I'll watch the water rinse
Until we all get washed away I never needed someone comforting me
I don't think I told you how I feel tonight, you perfect little angel your beautiful even now
I know you why don't you take what you need and go away
I know you why don't you take what you need
Die to get another glimpse so I'll watch the water rinse
Until we all get washed away I never needed someone comforting me, down I go

Costume For A Gutterball

The mask keeps on slipping and tearing, the holes are big enough to see
I strain and i'm bending to hear you what did you tell me
So slow you see me disappear
Taken in taken away, caught in another memory
Looking for something left to see now I want something
The one in the corner it's moving, slowly up slowly down
Never too brilliant or clever it won't turn around
No one will know that I'm looking they can't get to me

Temporary Arms

I burn and melt and stick and fade your temporary arms invade
One of many last warnings cannot wipe the conscience clean
The strain wears in you whore me in again
Cannot connect the smirking world the poison flower comes uncurled if I believe I'm dreaming and if they find you lost again, what will you tell them then
Collapsing in again you found what makes it sore you triggered off the feelings that you felt before
I come crawling up again I need to eat I need a friendsome
One with me no better feeling than escape avoid the feeling so you're all the guilt pulls away if only forever
Replace the name replace the fear I can't come out but I want you here
I'm laughing now and then it floods but not out loud
I feel you up and feel you down I need your space I need it now
Another circumstance has gone and shut you down, another fear awakened in the fault you found

Swallowtail

Let me in and let me go
Tell me that I need to know
Swallow the key swallow the key you feel compelled but its far too late to try and tell me now
So I'll try to suck it out open mouth feels warm
Secrets swollen so sore
We all know and we can't ask why you turned into an ugly butterfly
That shape of you closes in and forms a shade of grey hanging over hanging me
Sorry you're gone the voices they left me thinking the words that I've forgotten now try to come but can't come out