Trying To Lose Weight
Mood:  hungry
Topic: Walking
I go walking sometimes, but not nearly as much as I did when I was a teenager. I really loved walking. What happened to me? I used to be a skinny little thing who people would try to get to eat to fatten me up. Now I'm a fat woman who can't even hardly get out of my car.
I've been trying to lose weight ever since I got pregnant and did not take care of myself after I had the baby. I was so depressed and my boyfriend wasn't a very kind person. I had no support with the baby, only my mom was my help, and my boyfriend didn't like my mom.
Now seventeen years latter and I still am stuggling with my weight. I have diabetes and my doctor says, 'lose weight' and I try everything I can. I can't afford diet pills, and diet clubs. Hell, I bearly have any money to live on and keep my family happy.
Food is a priority in my home. The main choices being meat. Fresh vegetable are like candy in our home they don't last long and there too high to keep on buying. And cooked vegitables only get picked at. Unless it is something that is going to be gone fast, like brussels.
I don't have any energy most of the time and I want to sleep in the middle of the day, then I can't sleep at night. I want ot lose weight before I kill myself with being fat. I am in no way healthy.
I've made a new years resolution to no let my body win over me this time and I am going to push myself with every ounce of determination I have in me, which isn't very much.