Acting Out

is it the child's fault
if he is acting out
what he experiences at home?
or the parent's fault
for giving the child
these concepts
of how things are?
i don't blame him
he is only six
but he is an abuser in training now
i know who to blame
name, address, phone number
and to be quite honest
that scares the hell out of me
i never really knew
until a few days ago
how vicious i can be
when it comes to the safety
of my child
or how fast and how strong
all those old feelings
can return to their old places
i don't yet know
how long they will stay