"Our World" by:Kelly(me) and Bekah
TheWorldIsChangingEvenAsWeSpeak
ThereIsANewWorldInWhichWeShouldSeek
So take my hand
Well fly to a far away land
WeCanLeaveThisWorldOfLiesAndHate
AndFleeToANewWorldWhichWeCreate
Where blue is pink and pink is blue
And im even more in love with you
TheFlamingBlueMoonShinesBright
KnowingItsYouWhoStoleMyHeartThisNight
It would shatter my stolen heart
If ever we were to part
---So give me a single fake rose-
And say you'll be mine until it grows..

It saddens me to know that I can sit and think about things you said and did and realize it was all one big lie..I sit and think about all those good memories we had...and you took them all away..I know Im over it,but you told me it wouldnt be the same as most..and it wasnt the same.it was worse..i can remember all those things like they happened yesterday...you dressed..or undressed like blink 182lmao..or that special kiss...its all gone...and thats not the thing that hurts..its knowing you lied that hurts.

call this wat u want 2
Yesterday was so melancholy
I thought to myself,I,along
with many others have to lead
our lives on this devastating
planet called Earth. Life is
more torture than anything. It is
such torment.
But then I talked to you,the greatest,
and you made me somewhat better.
Is there any other reason to live
this life,morbid,than to know people
who make you feel important,to know
people like you?
When your around,my breathe is swept away.
Is it o.k. if i stay for a while? My
ecstasy is prodigious. I'm so into you.
You keep me appeased,for if I didn't
have you,my life would go hay wire.
Before,I was in such a state of apostasy,
but you came and made it better. So,now
I think this isn't such a devastating life,
And my day of melancholy was just a phase.
=) <3

You Think Im Over It, But I'm So Far Away
I always thought, from the day we got together until the day we were through until this day,that you and I were meant to be, and there's nothing that will change my mind about it. I have never had someone to be as great to me as you. We could sit and stare into each other's eyes and be speechless, have nothing to say, be so lost in one another's eyes. Your the one for me, not doubt. We had our "special kiss", we discovered it laying on the lawn, watching fire works on July 4. Our hands fit together so well, and when we were apart only for a short time, we held each other as if it had been weeks, months, even years since we had seen one another. You made me feel a reassurance no one else could. No one else will ever ake me feel like this. We were so great together, why's it have to end? Will it ever come back? Every minute spent with you was the best time, from the crazy jokes we said and such laughter, such a state of caring for nothing other then each other. You made me whole, you completed me. I'll never be completely happy in this devastating life without you. You made me feel as if someone actually cared for me, I care for you, always will. I sit and remember the great memories we shared together and wonder why we can't have so many more. I miss you more then anything and it kills me because I can't touch you, hug you, kiss you, be, with you, only you.

Usually I dont put names on here..but in this case its obvious..

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iono wat to call this..iono wat to say about it either..jus someone said they wrote it about me..o well....i know breakups r hard..but u gotta live with it..it only makes u learn shit


One word, one simple word
And your whole life falls apart
One call, one simple call
It's that easy to break my heart
But what's not so easy is letting go
To someone I loved oh so deep
It's not that simple, I have to say
You're someone I wanted to keep
You know how you feel when you find that one?
That feeling you get deep inside?
Well that's how I felt when I found you
And those feelings will never subside
But I guess for you, it wasn't that true
It turned out to be summer lust
That leaves me to be the heartbroken one
The one who may never again trust
So I guess I'll just have to go on living
Even though I don't want to try
I'll just have to deal with us just being friends
Because I'm not ready for goodbye

The Great Depression
Sometimes i jus lik to set and write..so heres something i wrote...

U left me...i said i wud be lost without u..ur gone so now im lost...i said i wud crawl back in a whole n decay...show me my home...I love u with all my heart and now like i said..im suffering the consequences of thinkin u cared...wat am i suposed to do? turn away and pretend this didnt happen? ill put myself outta my own misery as i lay down and close my eyes..ill sleep for eternity without u..that way i can dream of havin u back FOREVER!

This one is wrote b4 the one i jus wrote

This love...will it last forever?
or will i kill myself in all its heartache?
Will i suffer the consequences of thinkin u cared?
Will i fade away from you and then u pretend you never cared?

yea..i have a lot more shit that i have wrote but these two are pertainin to the same thing...my ex...ive never met another lik him...and i never will...

Confused
at this point i am so confused its not funny...me n my bestest friend nona went out last night and i was hopin to see "him" but i guess that was stupid of me to hope...but ne who...i have a friend who wants to go "hang out" with me..i think ill give it a try..but iono....i came home early from upward bound..iono if i shud have done that..it prolly ruined my chances of ever gettin him back..ill tell ya..life sux!!!

sick
today i feel sick..its my last day of staying at marshall for upward bound...YAY!!!!! i cannot wait until this shit is over with...i know ima miss it...but theres always next year! ill still update this from house..jus not as much...later!

how i feel
i feel all alone and gloomy..i feel like jus crawling in a corner and staying there and not letting ne one find me...this is the worse i have felt in my whole entire life...over this weekend i did somethin i know was wrong..i shud not have done that jus bc i let one lil thing get to me so much...if only there was someone exactly me who cud help me with everything...i guess ill be ok..my day so far has been the same as usual...ok..i guess...i havent hardly ate ne thing in a week...the thought of food makes me sick...but ne who..if ya wanna leave ne comments feel free to!! later

july 17
today is another day..my grandpa shud be comin home from the hospital and the hurt of my break up yesterday is only getting worse...i dont understand a lot of things or ppl for that matter...i cant wait until tomaro..i get to go home for the weekend yay! and i will update on monday!