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When I first started talking to Floydy,I thought I was talking to a man in his early fourties. He had a maturity that is very rare in people his age. He once told me
that every night he went to sleep, he lived an entire lifetime from birth to old age, then finally death. A different one each night for years. We talked for a while about life, about schizophrenia and we quickly became friends.
Floydy was a model builder, something I admired greatly about him. He liked talking about the customizations he was making to his models, and he had a profound knowledge of old cars. Floydy also loved music, such as Pink Floyd, which is where he took his screen name. He said his favorite band was Toadshed, one of the musicians is a mutual friend of ours. He absolutely hated modern music, which meant anything after 1970.
Listen to Toadshed - Sleeping in Light.
Floydy was a talented artist, he painted two pictures that I have seen, both of which have special meaning to me. He also played the guitar, and loved talking music with anyone who was interested. Floydy was also an accomplished website builder, and he was proud to show off two sites he worked hard on, http://www.drewsmusic.com/ and http://www.floydysplace.com/
He was well liked by many people in our little online community, and he always seemed like a carefree happy guy. That is why this is so shocking, he didn't seem to be the type to commit suicide. I'll miss Floydy, with his Ductape hats and his Winnie the Pooh obsession. I considered him one of the best people i've ever known. I hope you've found your peace in the beyond my friend.
Message from his family posted on one of Floydy's model building sites.
To whom it may concern,
I
bring you sad news. mrfloyded (JD) passed away on 3/15/05. I apologize
for taking so long to share this news but it is something very
difficult to do. He was survived by his Mom, Dad, Sister, stepparents,
and grandparents and various aunts, uncle, and cousins.
A
memorial service was held on 3/20/05. There were displays of his
models, paintings, his custom guitar, as well as pictures of his life.
JD enjoyed cooking, playing guitar, chatting on the forums, building
models, building websites, and being with his mom and stepdad and with
his dad and stepmom and annoying his sister. He really enjoyed making
fun of all of us. He and I loved to give his mom a hard time (all in
fun). JD felt she needed it. I agreed with him. HaHa
You can view many of the above displays on the website he created. www.floydysplace.com
The
last few months he spent a lot of time with us and showed what a caring
guy he was. He had been planning on moving in with us (his sister, his
mom, and I) in April. We were really looking forward to it.
He
helped his sister make his mom a special Christmas dinner as a gift to
her. He produced a very special video for his Grandmom for Christmas
that brought all of us to tears. He also joined me in a group build at
FineScale,com and we were in competition with each other with a 1/12th
scale 57 Chevy that we got for his 18th birthday the month before.
JD
was cremated with the same Chevy along with guitar picks, his favorite
blanket, a picture of his best friend Felix (his cat that died a little
over a year ago), and a book by Nick Drake (he was passionate about his
musical works). He#8217;s got his book to read, picks to play his
guitar, his best friend, his blanket to keep him warm, and a model to
build. Probably better than I will since he always intimidated me with
the talent he has shown. He had only been modeling since December of
2003. His models can be seen at the above website.
Once again, I want to apologize for bringing this to you so late. Thank you for reading and have fond memories of him.
Nic writes:
JD and I shared a love for good music, in particular, Pink Floyd. I knew
him to be a friendly, light hearted person who held out a positive
attitude for those around him. I wish he could have shared his pain with
us, his friends, that he might have gotten support and solace from us
and, perhaps, still be with us today.
Some will say that suicide is a selfish act, but, I believe suicide to
be the result of pain exceeding the ability to cope with it. I don't
believe JD was selfish at all.
When a friend dies, it leaves a hole in our souls that time can never
truly heal. We pick up and move on, but, always holding that person near
and dear to our hearts and that will keep them alive and acheive them
immortality.
I miss you JD and hope you find that better place to be.
Robyn writes:
I will never forget the duct tape hat, and the way he
played the guitar for the room.
Shyeanne writes:
Floydy and I both loved the 60-'s thru 70's music and would alwyas share the mic by playing for the room. He was the only one who identified with my times and my music. I will surely miss you Floyd and the smiles you brought to my face as well as others. I sure hope you are truely smiling now and at total peace with finding your happiness. Take care my friend, Love Shye
Suze writes:
Memories of Floydy
I lost a friend, a friend so kind
Friendly and supportive, he will stay in my mind
Chatting away like nothing was wrong
I knew him well but not for too long
Shedding tears for all his pain
In my heart floydy will remain
I feel so cold and empty inside
All of his life has just.....died
It hurts to say goodbye to a friend
When someone dies it's not the end
Their spirit stays in your heart and your mind
We Think of the memories to help us unwind
Floydy was a wonderful friend to all of us we will miss him so much and whenever i hear a Pink Floyd song i will always remember him. I didn't realise he was going through so much pain to take his own life. Rest In Peace Floydy i hope the angels take care of you.
Marcy Writes:
Floydy was a great wonderful facinating person whom I will miss dearly. He was kind and caring and wise way beyond his years. I enjoyed his music and his humor and loved hearing him talk about his dreams. I may not have been as close to him as some where, but I always enjoyed talking to him in the room, he was always more than kind from the first time I talked to him and made me feel comfortable the first time we talked. He was dearly loved and will be greatly missed. My only hope for him now is that where ever he is now he has the peace he so greatly deserves.
Much love,
Marcy
aka mars and ms_dtw
Siarai writes:
I miss him. Everyday I miss him. There is alot of memories I have of floydy. Some of my favorites are the ones that make me laugh. I always considered him my best friend. i called him my brother from a past life alot of times. He got me even when others didn't. He got my jokes, even when they were dark and sarcastic. He took it upon himself to make my life full of smiles, even when my husband abused me. He was the only person that knew for the longest time the pain Tj put me through. He also was the one person that could get me to smile when I felt like my world was spinning out of control. I wrote some words down after i found out he died. It is sort of like a song from back in the day so i won't call it a poem of mine per say just words that describe what he means and how much he will be missed in my heart.
clown
like a clown I put on a show
the pain is real even if no body knows
and I am crying inside
and nobody knows it but me
How deep can it get?
You can ask my heart.
like a jigsaw puzzle it has been broken apart
A million miles and I can still feel
Why does the dark have to seem so real?
I dont know if I can be, this girl that carries on
without my brother to pick up me
I dont know if this missing pieces will ever heal
A million years from now
I will be loving you still.
Like a clown
I put on a show
a mask I wear so no one knows
I am crying inside
and nobody knows it but me.
I loved him. I know alot of ppl did. when I cried I felt selfish, because I knew then I should've been crying for all those that will never know him and all that he will never get to do.
He was truly loved and always will be.
Siarai aka aph
Perfectchanges writes:
One of the things I remember about Floydy was he could
always brighten the room up, he could always get it
going. He always brightening things up, and he was the
only one that could do it like he did it, no one will
ever bring the same to the room that he did.
Trinitybays writes:
When it comes to Floydy all i can say is "Shine on you crazy diamond" I will
miss him.
"Shine On You Crazy Diamond (I-V)"
Remember when you were young, you shone like the sun.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Now there's a look in your eyes, like black holes in the sky.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
You were caught on the crossfire of childhood and stardom,
blown on the steel breeze.
Come on you target for faraway laughter,
come on you stranger, you legend, you martyr, and shine!
You reached for the secret too soon, you cried for the moon.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Threatened by shadows at night, and exposed in the light.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Well you wore out your welcome with random precision,
rode on the steel breeze.
Come on you raver, you seer of visions,
come on you painter, you piper, you prisoner, and shine!
"Pink Floyd - Wish you were here album"
If you would like to share your thoughts, memories, or feelings about Floydy,
click on the envelope and send me a message, and I will add it to this web page.
 
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