July 30,2003
My sites doing good and i'm getting plenty of feed back on my comics. With the help of the other keenspacers advice I can improve my abbilities forthe second episode. But still can't find out how many people load up my comic page all well eventualy i'll find out.
July 26,2003
Its pathetichow people can't take sorrow. My weak freind John up and signed off when I went into a depression frenzy. It feels good knowing that some of my friends are weak in heart. They have yet to feel true pain that would strengthen it but who cares. After I get my games back from my other friends I'll shake them off me so I can jsut work on my stories. It feels so good to be of the darkness.
July 25,2003
Life is funny at times you know. You cn be at the top of your game but still feel as if your at the bottom. Cause you may be appealing others but you haven't yet helped your self. I feel like that at many times. But no one can help me not even myself. No one realy reads this junk so they can't help me and i would prefer it that way since I don't belive in no one. Like the song says the sun is in you but its not in me but it dosn't matter to you. Hahaha all I see is death around me is thats what reality is to me dying slowly with out a prayer.Wgy is god so cruel to me sigh! its no use I'm on the path of darkness and it can't be helped. But I will try to keep my heart through all this pain.
July 21, 2003
I'm so happy that I got a reply from keenspace now that they verfied my email there going to start setting it up for me. I'm just so happy that it makes everyhing seem good. Right now AI'm trying to figure out what to put on it so it should take some time. I also desided not to care what people think about my storys i'm just going to make them for myself. Now that i'm wired I ready for anything. Lain the chick who loves being wired.
July 10,2003
I'm realy getting into my comic lately. I'm starting to enjoy the joys of working hard. If only a few comments went my way I would be happy.
July 1,2003
I've begin posting my comic on a site I had before this one. I'm sure hoping to get people to see it so I can share my love.
June 21,2003
I've decided to accept the darkness thats in me and to embrace it. I don't care if I may cause pain to others by doing this but at least the pain will go away. I won't have to feel those emotions that cause pain. I just hope this does not make me more of a monster but if fate dictates I should be a monster then I shall. Sorry my adoring fans I don't need your pity anymore now that I have embraced the darkness. Emily the demon child.
June 16,2003
No thanks from my close friends around me but my sucidal tendicies has gone down for now. I guess all I need was to vent some fustration out I guess. Well I'm going to try to turn my life arounf and I even already sent in a request for my own webcomic isn't that great. Well I better get to doing something so I don't go and kill myself. Bye my adoring fans.
June 14,2003
There's just no hope for my kind. Its to late to help me cause I might dead before you read this. I 've decided to die with a depressed friend of mines. We feel the same pain and have the same problems I just guess theres just no hope for the lost. Farewell forever my lovely friends I will miss you dear may our pathes never cross.
June 13,2003
I've decided to give up a bit and start cutting myself to relive me of my pain. I'm also going to give into my depression and try to stop eating. I guess it didn't take long for me to start trying to kill myself cause i'm starting to starve myself. If anyone wanna stop me email me and tell me to stop. But knowing ya you guys won't even find this so I guess this could be my last farewell. A pshycotic Girl emily.
June 8,2003
I've decided to start a web comic a month from now. But before I do that i'm going to test out some comic ideas first. For those who chose to join my summer newsletter they will see my drawings first and can even aid me in deciding on what to i need to improve on before I publish it on my web comic. Well I also decided to not give a damn what people think and try to become my true self before its to late. So with in 5 years i will look diffrent than I am now but i'll make sure to show a pic of my old self. Well so long for now since I have to get to working on my next project.Love Emily the girl who has a little somthing else.
May 31,2003
I'm thinking of starting my own web comic. But i belive i should work some more on it. I'm also going to try to become my girl self this summer.I'm also getting a progaming kit to make games. Well thats all for now my adoring fans.
May 18,2003
I realy starting to hate the friends I have at school. They piss me off almost every day by getting in my way. I'm also seriously aggrivated with my family as well. Sometimes I feel like the only sane person. Well I am happy that I'm starting to update my site to show off some of my new intrest. But what I need now is just some one to talk to so i can keep calm. Well as soon as i get a new online game I can start having some fun being myself. Well bye for now.
May 16,2003
I'm so glad to be back to the net now that my punishment is over. I don't know what came over me all of a sudden but be prepared to see a new me. I guess the lack of talking to my friends on the net has caused me to evolve my personality on the net. I'm even thinking of going by a net name that represent my new spirit. Sowhen i surf the net i'm going to be known as lain Blue of the lost. I'm also going to majorly upgrade this website to a point that going to truly express my true emotions and feelings. WEll I'll talk to you guys later so for now ja ne which means see ya in japanese.
Farewell from Emily aka lain.
April 15,2003
I've calmed down a bit with my dark thoughts threw working on my drawings. I even downloaded to programs off Kazaa that allows me to add extra stuff to it. As long as have my drawing and writing I can do anything even though i'm still a newbie at the stuff. As soon as i finish some extra touches to one of my pics i'll add it to the site. Well for now I'll retire to my work who knows i might get the courage to put pictures of me as soon as i get my hand on a camra.
Farewell from the one and only Emily.
April 6,2003
I hate it when my mind gets to pondering because it always makes me sad since i notice the problems with my life. Sometimes i just can't take it and try not to think about anything but its hard. I realy don't feel like telling my friends since i've been whining to to them many times already. I can't help it i'm just not strong enough to face my future or myself. Part of me knows that none of my dreams will come true while the another says to go on. Maybe i should just follow my heart and be like the rest of my family. Yes I'll be stuborn and don't care what people say to me. Yes That may be the one thing I can do. Since I can't do most of it i'll concentrate on what i can do and blaze a path to where i want to be. Yes thats what I'll to furfill my dreams. (clenches fistand shakes it into the air)Yes my name is Emily Michelle Blue but you can call me Raven demon of the sky and wind. See ya later.
March 30,2003
Hello guys i'm back from my yearly self hatred period. So i'm going to inform you of what has lately happen to me. I gave up on losing weight for awhile and focused on drawing and writing. I started a two comincs which are connected in meaning. I've been getting more depressed every day which caused a decrease in my grades. But I'm promising to improve my work in my classes and try not to dwell on emotions. I also have given up on playing cards so i may get better grades and work on my drawing abbilities. I'm also trying to overcome my rage so i don't hurt any one i care for.I think thats it for the past now on to today. Today i worked hard painting and went to a party. It was a birthday party for john whos one of my buds even though he pisses me off. But at least i was able to talk to ingrid a lot since its been a long time since we realy talked before. I have nothing seriously bad right now except for being treated like a slave and my anger problems. Oh I have started operation better me. It deals with slowly evolving my self to a better person it even deals with feminazing my self. This plan may allow me to get over my anger problems. Well ya later since this girl needs to rip off some songs for a close friend of hers.
Emily- The girl who finaly got her spirit back after wandering the darkness of her soul.