|
For the past four or five days, I've been feeling absolutely miserable. Usually my small bouts of depression only last a day or so. Then I go to bed and wake up the next morning feeling fine. But the past few days have been horrible. I just couldn't shake my bad mood, no matter what I did. As I've said before, thank god for music. It's been the only thing making my days tolerable. Even music about saddening subjects is good for me in these sorts of moods because it expresses everything I'm feeling, without my actually having to come up with the words myself. I hope that last sentence made sense.
So now, and as of yesterday, I'm feeling better, although I'm not quite back up to par yet. At least I feel more like myself now. I'm still in a bit of a phunk, for reasons that shall go unmentioned for now, but I'm sure it'll get better. Life will go on, my friends and my mom will still be here for me, etc. Even so, all my self directed pep-talks and attempts to make myself feel better never completely work. I wish they did.
. . . . . . . . . . . .
previous
next . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
back to journal page
|
|
|
