May 29, 2000
My Heart,I knew you were watching over me today. It’s been a week since the accident and management decided to hold the press conference. Chris and the others didn’t want me to go but if they were going to find our about us, I wanted to be there. I was a somber occasion. The boys said they didn’t know what they would do with you gone. When Johnny told them about us, there was a complete silence. I never thought that the press of all people would react this way. I guess we really were successful at keeping them out of our relationship. The questions started flying a short while later, how long, how happy, ect, ect. It was scarier than I had thought it would be. Your father plucked, and I mean plucked, me off the stand and back out of the room to your mother. We all had a few tears to shed.
When we got back to the apartment, your mother gave me the contents that they pulled out of the totaled Yukon. The dried rose from the dashboard, the pack of gum and manual from the glove compartment, our parking sticker for the apartment, and all of our CDs that were in the car. There was also an envelope; it was your anniversary card to me. It was beautiful and full of love, I knew you were a poet but I didn’t know you were such an artist. I hope these are the keys to where I think they are. Diane suggested that I see the lawyer and our financial advisor within the next few days. I think I will.
I Miss You Always,
Rene