Mood:
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I'm driving myself (and a few people around me) nuts. Amanda mailed me a couple of days ago, to let me know that she'd found a theatre called the Lyric in OKC. For anyone really into Broadway, the name should sound familiar. It's a branch of the Lyric in LA. Anyway. She thinks we should audition for one of the upcoming shows. I would LOVE to, but there are several obstacles. If I'm not mistaken, it's a "union" show. I don't know exactly how these things work. Maybe it's just the main/named parts that have to be cast with union members, and anyone can be in the chorus. I have no illusions whatsoever that with my lack of experience, there's basically no way in hell that I'd make it into anything BUT the chorus, and even that's probably a long shot. I've never had to compete with more than 10 people for any part I've ever auditioned for. I'm so small town it's ridiculous. Add to that the fact that I haven't vocalized regularly for a year, and it's been longer than that since I danced. I am out of shape, more ways than one. Visions of Chorus Line are dancing in my head, and they aren't boosting my confidence in the slightest. Also, there is the fact that the theatre is in OKC, and I, my fiance', and my job (which I am reluctant to give up to chase what seems to be a pipe dream) are here in podunk Nebraska. I can fathom taking a few days off to go audition, but what would I do if I did get a part? I'd have to quit my job. Yes, I know the part would have a weekly salary, but what about after it closes? What are the chances of my finding another job as cushy as the one I've got now? I'm just not ready to jump into the life of a professional actress. I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL TO DO!!!!