Shites.
how worst can it get? the feeling definitely agitates my mind. when will infatuations banish and love sets in? when will something magical occurs again? its definitely been awhile. or is it me, who can't get over what took place in the past? time and time again, i fail to live up to expectations.
which are only making things worst for myself. afterall, i am enduring the pain. so it's back to square one, where ill contemplate on my own. when i actually suffer from "attention deficiency disorder". huahua.

Pfft. my weekends are already burnt. i wouldnt say burnt as its not the appropriate term to used. haha. afterall, it is my cousin's wedding. nothing much to look forward to. except sunday.

first.
i love first time of things.

agony&beauty.
jerk, dont dream its over!

new year.
ahh. life have been very very hectic. ; ) anyway, thanks to ej and my muffin for the changes.

so here is what ive been doing for the past few days.
on thursday, marsh came over. girls day out. and mind you, we had alot of fun.
friday, i went over to jin's place. practise the chorus. then went to tampinese. and practise for today's event. and we took a cab home. im very very very tired.

so today. its new year's eve. and ill be heading down to simei later on.
well i have been grappling through out the year though. with problems and truck of shit loads.
but then again, 2005 have been a great year all along.
theres many things that i learnt, discover,found and did.

2005 : ive found the greatest friend ever. marshlinda.
i saw the other side of my muffin and we're close now. : )
i overcame some fears. hahhh.
i started to play in a band.
i smoked for the first time. ( not anymore though )

and yeah. so thats about it. now 2006 is coming through.
everything will change and im excited. haha.
i dont have a resolution for next year, its not that ill be following it or what.
To briefly describe what i've been through in 2005, its full of challenges.

okay so today, i am freaking out. i am happy that tomorrow 2006 finally starts.
haha. and i am paranoid about choking and making a fool out of myself later on. i wish i could magic myself from one destination to another. it would save me alot of time. but there is no alternative way, so i just have to take a train to simei and hope that nothing awful happens.

to the wonderous catch of mine.
you know you are. and oh its hard to get something like that from me. : )
chao.

shites. problems. struggles. cries.
then again, 2005 will always be a momento.

goodbye 2005.
welcome 2006.

izzabelola.

come on pretty baby
tell your mama that youre leaving.
tell your daddy that we're gone.
tell everyone in philadelphia.
theres a party going on. :)

presence aliff haikal
shites? yes, again new experience. and theres more to come. no doubts.
well it all depends on how i interpret and evaluate it. on a lighter note, im used to it. its not the first time. as it gets increasingly complicated, i am very eager to take control of it to gain a competitive advantage. all this while, ive let my feelings control my body. and it wont happen again.

so to you know who.
thank you so much. : )

i am a bit ecstatic today. for no reason. monday was a lost day. i didnt know whether its the beginning of the week or the end of the week. sometimes, i forget that other people can hear to my thoughts.

enough said.
if i know something, i am not a victim. i used to be a victim. victims dont know the meaing of their suffering. i am an enemy or a collaborator, not a victim.
never let yourself be a victim.

the presence of aliff haikal.
that never existed.

izzabelola.

miracles
happy 3rd month anniversaRY and happy birthday b

i miss you
i miss bloggin.
muahs

hey there
hey there delilah

friends!
I don't regret anything I said because I meant every word of it.
Essentially they said lets forgive and forget, but we've not been talking. AHA! I'm not going to lie, I prefer my life now. Every minute of it. And I do believe that everything is genuinely going to be normal again. But perhaps it was mere fascination with the fact that ive never had friends like them before and i treasure them. Perhaps this whole "thing" wasnt a catastrophe or a miracle. One thing is for certain, their psychic energy didn't pick up on the fact that we are friends. Not bestfriends.