My Poetry


These poems are strictly therapeutic. I believe the earliest I have posted here were written when I was fourteen years old. I don't claim to be an excellent poet in regard to form, rhyme, or whatever other technicality makes a "real" poet. My own view of poetry is accepted by many and rejected by more. Poetry is a collaboration of emotions too strong to just sit inside of a person. Poetry is love or fear or anger or pain on paper...on screen, expressed through the most available medium we have as humans:words. Poetry is the heart of it's maker. This is my heart. These words have helped me through the most difficult times in my life and always will.

The Up Side of Things
I know this page contains a lot of material and the negativity of much of it may become overwhelming at times. I feel every poem I have posted on this site is valuable in some way to my struggle, recovery, or just to my personal collection. So, instead of removing the negativity, I've pulled out some more positive work. These are all scattered below, but simply collected as a section here. Here, you will find what I consider "the up side of things", whether that be poetry about love, triumph, comfort, or gratitude. Enjoy.... and please, smile. :)
My Angel
To A Fellow Poet
A Cold Evening in May
Memories
Dreams
I Love You
Opposites Attract
Thinking of You
Angel
Mysterious and Indirect
The Art of Creation
In Your Arms
Thank You
Without You
Later
Past
Good Enough for Me
It’s in my eyes
One Day

Newly Added (updated - July 2006)
These are not necessarily recently written poems. You can find those directly below in the Recent Poetry section. Most of these, at the moment, are recently rediscovered poems. I'd forgotten writing several of them until I found them.
Waiting
My Angel
Tired of Hiding
Praying Someone Will Notice
Relapsing Thoughts
I Told You So
A Response
Bulimia
The Two Faces of Love
Music History
Statistics
Little Jennifer
And Now
Opposites Attract
Sacrifice
Schizophrenia

Recent Poetry- Unfortunately, I haven't been able to write much in the past year, but these should all be from the past few years. (updated - May 2007)

Mangled Vows
For Better?
Heartless
Twisted Nostalgia
What I Forgot to Tell You
Ulterior Motive
Dependence
Girlish Notions
Diamonds
Flowers
Family
Falling Sky
Explaining

These are a few of my favorites either due to how the poem itself turned out or due to the emotional epiphany that helped me write it. :)
To A Fellow Poet
Home Sweet Home
A Saturday Night
Without You
Angel
I Love You Too
Mysterious and Indirect
The art of creation

Works in Progress
Some beginnings...I might finish them one day.
Living With the Bad Guy
Thoughts
Lost

Older Poetry
Musicians
Coping
Music
Promises
To A Fellow Poet
A Cold Evening in May
Empathy
Memories
Dreams
I Love You
Hesitation
Cancer
Catholic
Past
Gray
Later
Afterthoughts
Good Enough for Me
Anthony
Funerals
Sharing
Not so similar
Split
If you've ever wanted to be me
Thanksgiving Dinner
Trash
It's strange to hear you stutter
It's in my eyes
In your arms
I hate these mornings
Ignored
All in my head
Vegetable Soup
My Pain is Real
Glad
Who am I?
Just One of Those Nights
A Simple Little Line
The Razor
Missing You
The Aftermath
Proper and Pristine
Pills
Talking to my tears
Thank You
Doubt
Thinking of you
One Day
For a Friend
Enough for Each Other

Not Quite Poetry...
These are some random rants and reflections, from desperate to inspired, ranging in origination throughout the past six years. If you ever think your thoughts are crazy, read these. You're not alone.
Makeup
First Year of College
Most days
Scared
What college has taught me
Creative Insanity
Recovery


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