I see a glow from far away...
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Start the Machine - AVA
I feel so .... not happy lately. I say not happy, because it's the only emotion I can figure to describe this feeling. I'm not sad, I'm not angry, I'm just not happy. For so long I was very manic-depressive. I was either flying high or sinking low. There was no medium. I wonder now, that since I'm growing up, I'm growing OUT of all of that. Sometimes I think that I had to feel crazy to feel happy. Maybe now I'm just experiencing the middle ground that I never once had. Maybe that really is happy. Maybe I just don't know what happiness really is.