So I tried waiting for him to call today and he didn't. Actually he said he'd try to call last night but he didn't. He said he'd try to call today, but for some reason I don't think he will. That seems to be the pattern here. He told me that the last time and he didn't call the whole day and I spent the whole day "beating" myself up emotional and going crazy from not hearing from him.
I tried calling him and I was automatically plugged into his answering machine. No ringing at all. That means the phone died or that he's just out of range.
I miss him. I think some things are worth fighting for and I never really fought for anything. I guess I never really wanted anything badly. So what happens when you fight and you try to give it your all and in the end you just lose? Does that mean I shouldn't try fighting for things I want? So what's the use of fighting if the odds are against you? Do I submit, resign to what might be the inevitable results? Do I just jump the gun and accept and take my loses now and try to move on?
Life sure can suck sometimes....