"my dreams all died when i saw her face;
she climbed inside and took their place..."

a color swims inside my eyes
in seas of black and then it dies
a disease feeds on my rotting mind
when it gets done what will you find?
no sinking seething deep black hole
no pointless empty lack of soul
but a little boy all black and blue
caresses we received from you...

we loved the pain, both he and i
for silly little reasons why
we craved the hurt 'cause it's your touch
oh, and bless my skin with cuts like such

what makes you turn away from me
i am so messed up, oh please, tell me
i'm screaming out on your stretching rack;
would you please take this knife out of my back
these are the things i see when i close my eyes
innocence is screaming as purity dies
kiss this temple to sadness, this altar for tears,
this shoulder of madness, this friend so dear...

(i'm never going back ['cause i don't want to go back])
FEELING WEAK AND SO PATHETIC
(never going back ['cause i don't want to go back])

(never going back ['cause i don't want to go back])
MY PAIN IS MY OWN ANAESTHETIC;
(never going back [...because i can't go back])

(never going back ['cause i don't want to go back])
TO BE HURT SO MUCH MORE EACH DAY
(never going back ['cause i don't want to go back])

(never going back ['cause i don't want to go back])
IT NUMBS ME BIT BY BIT AWAY
(never going back [...because i can't go back])