A song I wrote for the special one
Mood:  spacey
Now Playing: My own song entitle "Believe"
Today the weather is cool. I went back, had dinner, showered and turn on the amplifier. My guitar still in its stand sitting peacefully. I gazed at it and felt a sudden need to express.

The life you had, that moment passes you by and you wonder, what happened. Then you pick up the guitar and sing your heart out, hoping that all will end in happiness.

I guess my way of expressing myself is through music. And that is what I am in a way of art.
Doesn't have to be someone fluent or meritorious in a group. It's just being myself. God praise you, God loves you.

As the tune kept playing on my head, fingers searched for the chords. I improvised it, making it flawless. And it was good. Somewhere I heard, following a certain current of an indie band I know.

And the lyrics just goes well with the song. Not that I'm being cynical, but I do pay special attention to the lyrics of the song. It represents a story by the way and what's behind it. There are some nice song but bad lyrics, it was chaos. And the song dies.

Yeah...sob still recovering from losing my handphone yesterday at Orchard. But heck, I'm gonna play my guitar and sing my heart out.


Ciao.

Feel handicapped all e sudden
Mood:  down
Now Playing: Oasis - Don't look back in anger
Ooh handphone!

It happened when I was on my way to meet my friend at her place in Toa Payoh. I brought along my acoustic guitar, can't wait to play it.

And so I took the bus 502 from my place to Orchard. While I make my way towards the MRT from the underground pass. It was on the escalator I lost my handphone.

The escalator had long broken down, and still no repairing work has been carried out. Anyway, as the crowd was pushing, it was at that moment I'd dropped my handphone without knowing.

Only afters, I noticed my handphone wasn't in my pocket. My heart raced, mind raced, felt a vertical rush in my blood. "Where's my handphone? Where is it?" I search and search. NOTHING

I stomped the crowd, back to the escalator, searched frantically and hoping peep would be kind enough to return me. NO

I was disappointed, dismayed and irritated with the lost. I'd just lost a $320 price tag handphone with all the contacts in it and all the quirky jokes to be shared. sob sob.

In my heart, I still hope that whoever it is who found my handphone will return me. NOPE just didn't happen. People are either too ignorant or just luv being a big pocket.

There goes my sunday feeling down all afternoon. Fortunately, I managed to call my friend and told her the whole story. It was a bad day cause I'd just been handicapped by my handphone.

I feel lost when there's nothing to look at, message at, laugh at; it's been too useful and comfortable with me. ARGHHH!!! How sick this is!
And here goes the the song never to look back, cause it ain't coming back.

What I want next is a FREE HANDPHONE!!! Anyone?


New lyrics for "Don't look back in anger" by Oasis

Slip inside the need of your presence
Don't you know I might find
A better phone to play
You said that I've never seen
But all the phone that I've seen
They never fade away

So I'll start a revolution from my head
Cuz you said the brains I had went to the drain
Step outside summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the handphone shop
Take that look from off my face
You ain't ever gonna burn my heart out

And so, handphone can wait
I knows it's too late as we're passing on by
It will slide away
I don't look back in anger
Never heard you say

Take me to the place where you are
Where nobody cares
if it's theirs or mine
Please don't put your life in the hands
Of a big pocket thief
Who'll throw it all away

I'm gonna start a revolution from my head
Cuz you said the brains I had went to the drain
Step outside, 'cuz summertime in bloom
Stand up beside the handphone shop
Take that look from off my face
Cuz you ain't ever gonna burn my heart out

And so, handphone can wait
I know it's too late as it passing on by
My soul slides away
I don't look back in anger
Never heard you say

So, handphone can wait
I know it's too late as we're passing on by
It will slide away
I don't look back in anger
Never heard you say

Baybeats
Last days of April rock! And the rest is crap, that's all I can say about Baybeats 2004. Anyway, it was jammed pack on e sunday night.

Revamped mood
It was odd, the day before I was having a bad bad mood. So bad that I shrunk into depression. I was told mentally that I'm unfit for work. I NEED A BREAK!!! My mind went siege and I was dying to get out, dying to leave this place.

Hard to explain...I'm so caught up in my own world, own talks, own advice, own doings, ownself that nothing else matters. Not even when someone's trying to make a conversation or be friendly. Not even when the aura of that presence is strong.

I'd begun to notice a transformation in me. As if another person from the same body looking into that same flesh and interrogates. Am I dying?

Am I dying young? Was it my mind playing me out, fastening the seat belt in my brain causing it to shrink. All I could think of is death. And then there was this white satin dress worn by someone, not of anyone I know of. That someone walked into a dead end but it just wasn't me. It was all part of the imagination.

In my mind, I'm dying to get out, go somewhere and be somewhere. Not in any part of this planet, but somewhere else. The moon? How can that be...And finally that depression broke to tears, inside me, eating me and no one knows except God.

I turned on the television, stick my eyes to the tv box, nothing comprehended. My mom came home, strike a small talk with me, I just wasn't listening. Everyone was talking to me and I'm there but not present. I laughed and joked with friends but it was all just putting up a show. I was there, standing and starring but there wasn't a time I'm being present.

Disbelieve... hatred and disgust. An awful mood swing, an awful way of behaving and extremely demoralising. But it was all just a package that comes with being myself.

Bad huh... Thank God the swing was over and I just got sterilise with a revamped mood. That is being happy and it was all day! Seems perfect the lessons I took and the rehearsals I'd planned. It was one happy day with no concern. 100%

Amazing but weird.

Revamped mood
It was odd, the day before I was having a bad bad mood. So bad that I shrunk into depression. I was told mentally that I'm unfit for work. I NEED A BREAK!!! My mind went siege and I was dying to get out, dying to leave this place, this universe.

Hard to explain...I'm so caught up in my own world, own talks, own advice, own doings, ownself that nothing else matters. Not even when someone's trying to make a conversation or be friendly. Not even when the aura of that presence is strong.

I'd begun to notice a transformation in me. As if another person from the same body looking into that same flesh and interrogates. Am I dying?

Am I dying young? Was it my mind playing me out, fastening the seat belt in my brain causing it to shrink. All I could think of is death. A white satin dress worn by someone, walking towards that dead end.

Dying to get out, go somewhere and be somewhere. Not in any part of this planet, but somewhere else. The moon? How can that be possible...And finally that depression broke to tears, inside me, eating me and no one knows except God.

I'm dying not physically, it is a mental process that gradually sunk into me. Can't wait to see what's beyond that world, a world I've seen enough.

Credit to me drummin' skill
I'm getting better each day! Whee~~~ Today's a wrap up practise after a few hours of sacrifices and laborious hard work paid up to finish the whole song. That put a smile, my time, my devotion, my patience, my analytic skills, my groove, and my passion. Next! I screamed...

Apparently, Luna Sea's groove style wasn't that hard to apprehend. The fill-ins were pretty unique mainly due to its eclectic use in that song. The rhythm pattern ran in different velocity delineating its inflammable ballad melody. It looks simple but yet growing every time you listen to this song... Fulfilling

Info: Luna Sea formerly known as Lunacy, was founded by J(bassist) and Inoran (guitar) in 1988.

Jan, 1989 : Sugizo (guitar) and Shinya (drummer)
from the band 'Pinocchio' joined in.

Jun, 1989 : Vocalist Ryuichi from the band 'Slaughter' joined in.

Nov, 1990 : Band changed its name to 'Luna Sea'. Band was discovered by Hide from X-japan and signed to Extasy Record.

Apr, 1991 : Released their first album title 'Luna Sea'.

Sep, 1991 : Band was signed to MCA Victor and released their 2nd major debut album title 'Image'. Was rank one of the top rock bands in Japan.

2000 : The band disbanded and Ryuichi Kawamura continue his singing career.

Album Lunacy (1991):
1. Fate
2. Time is Dead
3. Sandy Time
4. Branch Road
5. Shade
6. Blue Transparency
7. The Slain
8. Chess
9. Moon
10. Precious


Played drums on "I For You" by Luna Sea

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The best mood I had after so long!

Events taken place today
1. Didn't take breakfast today before work instead my manager bought buns for us. From what I heard, he'd never been so generous this whole 3 years. Could he be his share actually went up or he score some cash from last night's soccer match.

2. Friend called to remind me of the wedding I was supposed to attend. Besides, he thought I would have taken a day's leave to pick him up from his hotel and attend the wedding. Didn't get through
though. Two people getting married, ex-colleague of mine and I wouldn't even figure out they would eventually be couple? But hey, anything's possible.

3. I remembered killing a 2-inch long lizard yesterday in the bathroom. Not directly murdered the lizard but spraying water over it, hoping it sink. And it went all the way towards the manhole, stayed there for a while. Now the lizard was there unmovingly swept into the hole and went down under with the soap and water. Tragic as I watched imagining if my life just right before my eyes, swept through in a glimpse like downpour swept through the earth. There's not much of control out there, just myself in agony watching my life taken away.

4. My brother and his wife took off to Japan. The smile on their gaiety face promised an intriguing holiday in Tokyo. How I wish I can go to Japan too, if eventually my company would host such trip for their staff. And all I've got is chocolate milk, princles and the programme 'Crossworld' on channel five. I'm kicking the thoughts of sitting alone in the living room and not being there with them. That languish life sux man.

5. My friend tried calling me

Sofa burning on fire
A queasy feelin for all diehard soccer fan out there. Sitting on a huge couch infront of a 50-inch
plasma tv, popping chips into mouth and eyes glistening over the score. Heart thumping, hands shaking, legs mobilising, minds brooding over who's winning or just another season for UEFA European Cup.

I miss all those, I can tape it down and repeat the match. But it ain't gonna be as exciting as watching it live.....GOSH the match is 2am in the morning!!! It's way past my bedtime and I sleep like a hog.

Listening to "Jeremy" by Pearl Jam