Me (with the spiky hair) and my cousin at a Fear Of God concert in the fall of '00.. (yeah, i know the pic is old and stuff.. but, meh, its not that important).
And another pic of me with half as many dreads as i have now (I ripped them all in half so now i have more.. lol) Plus they're the really early days with elastics and wax, reaaaalllly far from turning into real dreads ;)
“This I pledge and I’ll take it to my death
You can bet your life on my words and everything I’ve said
I and I, am not ashamed of the Most High
Even if I die tonight, if I die tonight”
“The Messenjah” - P.O.D.
You’ll never find someone like me ;) I’m the only girl with dreadlocks in my school. I like challenging stereotypes of what a Christian should “look” like (i.e. all dressed up) and talk like (i.e. churchspeak) with my life and actions. I like to keep things real. I’m into all sorts of crazy stuff, and as long as it honours God and doesn’t compromise my faith, I’ll do just about anything (yes, goldfish DO taste like tofu and jumping off a bridge won’t kill you if the water’s deep enough).
From every colour of hair to almost every style of music, I have pretty diverse interests. You might find me messin’ around on guitar, making a website (when I’m SICK) , doing something else with my hair, drawing more art on my walls, going to youth, or heading out to another indie concert (even when I’m the only girl in the mosh pit!!!) because I love supporting bands – unlike a lot of girls, for the MUSIC, not the players’ looks.
I live in from Ontario, just a few hours away from Peterborough (Thousand Foot Krutch’s hometown). I’m into Krutch and most genres of harder music (either Christian or clean secular stuff – nothin’ with lyrical content that would compromise my faith or beliefs, but I don’t think it has to be labeled “Christian” music to be good.) Anyways, yeah, I’m really into the whole indie music scene in Ontario.
I started this site because I knew a lot of people were searching for lyrics, information, etc. on TFK and their music that couldn’t be found elsewhere, and also because I wanted to do something for my fave band in the whole world ;) who I’ve known of since Back40 ’99. It also gave me something to do over Christmas break because I was sick and couldn’t go anywhere :( There’s also a section on here that has stuff you won’t find just at any old TFK site, like lyrics to all of their songs, as well as the band bio (its not the one up on their site.)
I did it with “old school” html, nothin’ fancy schmancy, but I think its still good enough for the stuff I have on here.
Some of the stereotypes about Christians are usually that we’re all churchy, self-righteous, dressed-up people who look down their noses at everyone and try to spoil people’s fun. I think my life’s been a challenge to that. My main goal is to LOVE everyone equally, and while its tough, God helps me. I don’t fit into any one “category” of dress (unless you call skater-punk-oldschool-prep-campcounsellor a style) or speech or friends, I’m just me… with whatever hair colour, style, or clothes I have at the moment, whoever I’m with, and whatever I’m doing – whether that be moshing at a concert, praising God at a worship service, camping, playing rugby, sleeping, or whatever, I want to do it so that people see who God really is – and that’s the always-loving Father He is who wants to make our lives better, not some eternal grinch out to spoil everyone’s fun!!!
“My” verse is Philippians 2:14-16 (Philippians 2:15, hence the “starshine215” in my email address).:
Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe as you hold out the word of life.”
I know that’s TOTALLY impossible by ourselves, but by askin God to help us and drawing close to Him (thru prayer, worship, and reading the Word) He’ll keep us strong. I’m not perfect and I mess up TONS. So much more than a lot of people. Without God, I’d be in big trouble!!! But He always gives me another chance and helps me to overcome what I’m dealing with and get on with life.
A little more about me: Three years ago (my first year of high school) not only was I very shy, “normal” (in regards to “style”), almost friendless, naïve, you put it whateva way you want to, I was also very bitter and never happy. I tried to be as “cool” as I could and still try to walk the line of being a Christian. Flat out, it doesn’t work. You gotta be either hot or cold, and choose if you’re gonna serve God or not. I chose to serve God with reckless abandon!! and it was the absolute best decision I’ve ever made in my life. To stop playing games where I was a Christian but just wanted to fit in. To really be what God wanted and not what I THOUGHT was best for me.
I thought I’d lose friends. I gained a lot of them. Even though I don’t have a lot of strong Christian friends, I have way more friends, saved AND unsaved, then I ever thought I was going to. Everything I thought I’d lose if I gave it to God, I got back way better than I ever thought it could be. (Well, I’m still waiting for the on-fire-for-God bf.. but there’s lots of time left on that one and I’m still trusting God ;) ) Anyways, God totally changed my life when I gave Him EVERYTHING. I'm sure a way more outgoing and individual person now, as well as havin' way crazy interests and goals. My self-esteem isn't based upon popularity or looks (although that's improved too as I grew up over the past few years!!! lol!!!) but in Him. And I know He’s always good and He’ll keep on directing my life.
For now, (oh yeah, I updated this part cuz God updated my plans hehe) I want to return in the fall of 2003 for my OACs (university prerequisite, kind of a Grade 13) in high school, go to Tyndale Bible College for a year, and then? University, I think, but its most definitely gonna be wherever God wants me! I’m not sure where, but I know God’s gonna direct my steps if I keep seeking Him!
Ummm.. well, that’s bout it. While you’re here, sign the guestbook and tell me what you think ‘bout the site.
Visit my other site by clickin’ here
(It’s a nifty little site about me, my dreadlocks, and other fun stuff. Actually, its not finished yet, but it should be by February. There's not much on there now except for the links, I think...)
“I lift it, yes I lift it up to you
And I’ll never forget the times that we’ve been through
Yes, I lift it, I lift it up to You
And I surrender all of me, to You, to You, to You”
Everything I’ll ever be, to You, to You, to You
And I surrender all of me”
“Lift It” – Thousand Foot Krutch.
“You paid ten bucks to stand around back here
And act like you’re too hard to enjoy yourself……!!!
Do NOT tell me what I can and cannot do when I rock!”
“Do Not” – John Reuben