A Smile I thought id never see again.
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: The Hollow - A perfect Circle
Been a wile, times have changed, and changed again. The moon has died and been reborn. The heavens have opened and obscured the accursed sun.

It has come to my time of the year.

The future has never seemed so bright, for all the darkness in it, for all the times i burn out, and come back full of bright burning glory. For every year that takes of my life, it is still bright and i am excited.

Im excited because it so uncertain, chaos rains down with the blessed tears from the sky. I know i should be afraid, but i cant find a drop of fear in me. These hands of mine that carve out this message to all of you, they will take me to places i never dreamed i could go.

For all the times iv taken, ill give back ten fold, why? because im greatfull. Greatful to all those around me who are able to see me for who i am, and are helping me to break the blinders i have on my eyes.

Thankyou. You might just have saved me.

The world is a strange and fickle place. I understand this now. I add it to the central facts of my life. Another thing i accept embrace and make a part of me.
No i wont become strange and fickle, my inner fire cant assume that form.

And so i smile, smiles that havent been on my lips for as long as i can remember, joy lights my eyes battles the chaos in them and wins.

Patterns change, and i think i finally understand mine, mine changes most of all, it is twisted and pulled by every pattern around it. It has a shape, but that shape is only existent under complete isolation. And to those whos pattern is changing, smile with me. This is good, this is needed.

Once again my hands work magic, once again i am happy.

"Gods in his heaven and alls right with the world" (Quote from Neon Genesis Evangelion)