Mood:
chillin'Now Playing: Hot Dog - Limp Bizkit
Walk around in circles for long enough and eventually you will realize that there are thing that surround you. take some time out to enjoy the scenery once in a wile and you will be amazed at what you see.
Then you will realize that your not walking in circles, all you have been seeing is the pavement below your feet repeat itself over and over. No wonder you missed those opportunities in your past.
At least, thats what i find myself thinking as i sit here music blaring in my ears, as i feel the muscle's in my legs after a long day of walking, both at work and around campus.
Maybe its just me But my pattern is starting to become clearer, well to me at least, not sure about the other CP's out there. But I'm starting to see how i can provide myself with the correct information to come to a conclusion that will be beneficial to the games I'm playing at the moment.
i think i should take time out here, and actually define what a game is in the context of me and my blogs. A game is not a device to hurt someone, to cause pain or to manipulate people. Although i do speak of them in these terms because i have found that they are the easiest means to convey what i do in every day life.
I chose the word game because it defines whats actually going on, there is a set of rules (generally specific to the group in currently in, and sometimes even the rules differ between people.) there are the players, the people in the group or the person I'm learning about. There is also an objective for the series of maneuvers that the players initiate and react to.
"1. something played for fun: an activity that people participate in, together or on their own, for fun
10. activity like game: an activity that resembles a game, e.g. one that involves intense interest and competitiveness and is carried out by its own specific and often unspoken rules. "
These two definitions for a game come from http://encarta.msn.com/encnet/features/dictionary/DictionaryResults.aspx?refid=1861614274
By default, the objectives of my games are to get to know people, to help them with their problems, it is unthinkable for me to use my skills to hurt another its unbearable for me to even think about that.
So just to make it plain I'm not using this word game as a derogatory or malicious manor in my blogs, i am using it because what i do fits the definitions for it and its helpful to have one word that can incorporate the complexities of living in a modern society, particularly as a teenager.
Anyway with that done and out of the way, where was i?
*looks back over blog and rereads what he wrote*
Ah yes, i was talking about self delusion, well thats what the impression i was giving anyway, no i was trying to say that im starting to understand the types of information i need to come to a conclusion that is beneficial to my games.
Indeed, it looks like the next few weeks months and maybe even years will be interesting as all these new games play out.
On a final note, i again iterate my one demand of you, SMILE DAMMIT!