Maths is simpler
Mood:  spacey
Now Playing: secrets -grinspoon
If only people were like equations, put in the right value and get the right responce. I guess then it woudl be to easy. I mean people are like patterns. i guess, they just keep reacting the same way to teh same stimuli over and over again untill they finally learn to adapt. This may take years even.

Maybe i just adapt faster than most. i dont know. Been programming maths equations in C. And its reassuring to know that they actually work teh first time. A little artisty goes along way in the world of science, well i think anyway.

Killing time killing time. Twittering in the back of my head all these what ifs, so easily shut out of a program yet so hard to shut out of a mind. :et them dance around in here long enougha nd you might be lucky enough to loose your mind and ennd up in one of those nice padded cells thier always talking about lol. Nah hold onto your wits i say, much more fun.

Another hot day, i hope that cyclone, whatsitsname comes down here soon and dumps an unholy amount of rain and coolness on us. Woudl be nice to not wake up in a bath of my own sweat, im sure you agree. Youd have to be a strange sort of person not to.

Sometimes i wonder if i really have grown at all in the last 5 years. Certainly my body has gotten bigger, stronger, more manlike. But has my mind followed suit? or has it held onto its innocence to teh point of breaking itself trying to fit into that old mold.

I guess the question is was i ever innocent to begin with.. im sure i have answered that many times over but hey once more isnt gunna do much. Some woudl say yes, i mean can an infant be anything more than innocent? a developing mind with no idea of good and evil.

i read today on one of those many indexing sites around, tagged i think it was. I read a quote i put up there about 3 years ago. Or rather it feels liek 3 years but probably wasnt all that long ago. it read

" Im just that evil, or was it good. I cant tell teh two apart anymore"

well isnt that what innocence is? the inability to decern the difference between good and evil? More liekly the case is that these days good and evil have blended into a nice gray we can call Gil. Well i think Gil is a sutible name for the state of mind of most people these days.

Gil is human i guess. Well Humanity is the embodyment of Gil. Gil is being able to discern that good and evil are no longer applicable terms. Good and evil have become relative. Now its desired result. not whether the methods are logical or even sane. As long as the desired effect is produced the ends justify the means.

Some defy Gil and try, to use only "good" methods in getting thier desired effects. they are chewed up spat out an trampled on by the less scrupulous of the general public.

Maybe onday knowledge of Gil will become widespread and maybe then we will see a change.