Repetition
Mood:  quizzical
Now Playing: Welcome -Slipknot
Mmkay, this has really got my goat, so to speak. Anyone else out there get the feeling thier just walkin in circles? Makin the same goddam mistakes over and over?

No? yes? I know i am, stuck in this rut they call "single life". That ache in your gut that tells you your all alone in the end. The same ache that rises to your throat every time you try to break its hold on you, turning you into that goofball, that funny guy, that freak. The total opposite to the you that you wanted to present to the person that you have interest in.

It pisses me off to no end, im the sweet one, the good friend, the bad drunk. GAH wont anyone just look and see whats really happnening? Or am i just so good at hiding these days that no one even notices anymore.

Eternally it seems i have teh answeres to other peoples problems, the right words, the right gesture. The shoulder to cry on, the hands to defend. And yet.... and yet even so that very same ache i cure in people every day, still rises up and destroys me.

Maybe there is a way around it, i dont know. Everyone says wait, everyone says she will come. Wait!, iv been waiting for aslong as i can remember. JUst trudging around in the same circle trying the same things over and over.

Well, i give up, fuck what everyone else thinks im gunna do things my way for once. A quiet smile, a kind word. For once ill just be me.