march 8,2006 -CRY BABY
my heart's vivid star has lost its faithfulness to lead my steps, it melted away
like a child playing with a candle stick, i cry home all the way
i have no stregnth to go forward nor hope to go back i wanted an answer to the hurt from the past but it only opended up confussion why would he contact me? did he really miss me? then i think about a newness no hopes no expectations just living for now. which step do i take to move on? a step forward or a step back to continuation?
march 18,2006
they said my hair looks longer and seemed so sweet
that it's been awhile since it's been that way
do you honestly think it makes a difference
this fortunate growth, like the times i was naive
and had no choice to think ,but living my dreams.
April 23,2006
Allowing myself to drown into your world meant to take baby step backwards.
I jumped in just the way they said, but Lord said to move forward and be aware of the things he had said. Was it everything you wanted? Was it everything you hope for, this fight you had to win last year? I tried to tell you, you did not care and now you know why i won last year. Am i everything you wanted, am i everything you needed?
april 24.06
how can you not remember, like you never even cared?
maybe i shouldnt have written or thought about how you felt
because you are acting like what i said had no effect on your heart
it surely affected mine
JUNE 28,2006
maybe today i will want to be your friend
rememebr the past few times you chose not to be mine
you tolerate me and i tolerated you
this time, the love we had seems too have been washed away
6.24.06
i never thought id feel the way the songs said they felt
the breeze and the gray feel so beautiful today
my circle in my chest is screams , im blessed
my totally intimate God and honest meaning to life can challenge the evil that tries to take away my peace.
cause i will stand my ground and wear the armor of spirituality, not one can bring this warrior down.
yes trials that test my devotion , will be a jump start to being closer to you
june 24,06
it sounds so good to me to sing that you are mine , all mine. youre mine.
October 22nd, 2006
i can’t hide from the earth to make myself believe this is where i belong
i let you have a chance with me like you wanted and that is how it went
if we both don’t know what to do then how can we still try
there is not one thing Godly about the issues we had met
i am terrible, oh so horrible. Sorry future husband. If you are alive.
date ? cry baby 2
oh vivid star why have you lost your faithfulness to lead my steps you've melted away like a child playing with a candle stick
