"remembering heaven"
it was just like yesterday
it wasnt to long ago
we were cuddled up looking deep
into the heavens
remember the bright glowing star
it was ours
now all it seems to be to you
is nothing out of the ordinary
but to me it is still shining bright
bright as my love for you
i still adore theway you talk
and straut that walk
but most of all the "EMOTIONS"
that i feel for you
they bundle up tighter and higher
than the heaven we once looked up to.

"the secret of the heart"

i have a secret to whisper
but you must not tell
it is about this girl that you know
oh so very well
she says she will have trouble
if it is to late
so please listen up
because this can not wait
she says to let you know
you are in all of her dreams
in the quiet late nights
till the sun begins to peek...
this secret is not yet done
till you know that you're the only one
that makes this girls life complete
so please, you must not leave

as she looks into your eyes
no need to be surprised
of the joy that she has for you
so no need to be shy!
so now we come to the heart
this is not where it ends
don't be silly
it's where this all begins!
just one touch of ones heart
we will never be apart.

"someday"

have you ever loved a girl or guy
who you thought about all of the time
you tried to say i love you
but you were just to damn shy
well thats me alright
or maybe my minds just playing games
but who knows maybe i'll change someday,
someday maybe today will be that day
i'll have that courage
and open up my little heart
to show him how i feel.
that is why i'm writing this poem
so baby what's the deal?

"price less"

there are lots of things
that i think my flesh needs
but when i ask God for advice
he pops me right back into reality

Lord, once again im right back to serve you
i desire to be all you need
i do not want to be that bad girly
let me boy know
i still love him dearly

i am often feeling extremely confused
God what should i do next?
i will have to try my best
to listen for your call
i never want to break down
into a deep and lonely fall again

each day sun rise to sunset
i will never regret
what you Lord have been doing in my life
no one else can save me
nor can i repay thee
thank you Lord for giving me this for free

"i am simple yet difficult"

i know i will like you yet i dont want you to be dissapointed

i am scared of giving myself up clean
then you realizing i was only a dream

i have been through this once
i have dreamed a few times before...

i am simple yet difficult

my life is focused on Jesus Christ yet why
do i doubt about the desires around
simple is Jesus Christ difficult are my own desires
like children the Lord needs us to trust
O you little faith

ask seek knock
Jesus Christ always first then all things
will be added unto you

"stephens home"(prodigal son and brother)

as i sit in the silence of the night
i stare at a shadow from the steet light

while waiting outside on the curb
my mind becomes quite disturbed
ive taken at least four trips down the street
still not a single sign to meet my needs
your pride and joy dog, missy, came
along yet something was missing
she senced there was wrong

i took a risk sitting alone in the dark
we all took a risk just to see your face tonight
that is what matters not where youve been
not why you never came home
at this moment its all we need
at this moment please
bring our hearts peace
this is our families plea

brother what do you do while you are not home
brother why do you turn your head when i see you at school
brother I LOVE YOU please come home!

is that you in the car passing by
will it ever be you in the car i wish youd try!
any car i dont mind, chevrolegs...
its all up to you

Lord help us to deal with this rage
Lord help us to understand and
know it's going to be ok
Lord help us to do your will
by the way!

yet another hours passes by
im back at the curb my usual spot
no trace of my brother nope not a dot
once again that damn noise of an engine on the run

just a minute ago i thought i saw your face but you
kept walking even though we stared face to face

i know youll be home anytime now
so ill sit here till then
and pour out my sorrow , pain, hurt, and frustration to the Lord....

by the way... STEPHEN CAME HOME.

"forgranted"
sweetly dreaming of you
that is what i like to do
although my heart is not quite filled
with any of your love
i will desprately be awaiting for way

my dream wonders off
do you know about these deep feelings?
maybe, but our hearts are not such!

oh, such a love that you had given me
sad to say that i left my beautiful baby
without my heart knowing
that i would become so crazy
now i dont know what to do
since i no longer belong to you.

"randon quote"
my aunt says ..... "all sewers lead to the same ocean."
justa tought:it was funny.... cuz we were talking about relationships.

"emotionalism"
is it me or is it you
i just dont know
what can i do
i feel so low
please tell me whats wrong with you
if i only knew
tell me and i just might go
well everytime i thought about my problems
they only grew
just stop thinking i want to know
i'll whisper to you my deepest secrets
i'll study your words so deeply
please understand this
what i can give you is my sympathy
when i decide to show it
will you belive i'll still be here?

"rude grrl"
im so sorry that i treat you so bad
at the moment i dont realize because im hurting
im sad
i know i never tell you
so you think im rude
if i cant even talk to my family
then how can i talk to someone like you?
this is not something rude
its just that im not into you dude
so why dont you just leave me alone and go home?
so i am mean so i am cruel
what do you want me to do?
i never made up these rules!

"without him"
just when you thought you were lost
he caught your heart
in the mid-air
he has been there for many years
you never took the time
to see through in his eye
dont you ever forget
who loves you so much
for there is only one "True Love"
you must take it when it is given
or your one love may be lost
FOR ETERNITY!

"home sweet home"
my mom mocks
my dad yells
my sisters complain
and im the one they all blame
my brother bugs
like a bee
sweet near honey
but angry at me
my older sister quite the same
when will this change?
i'm not an angel
i act quite the same
i guess that it is my turn to blame.

"what can i do?"
oh how its funny
we argue for no simple reason
fine ill give you the money
if you promise not to argue for at least a week
it is more like each day that you live to complain
each time at night while i lye in my bed
it sends my heart and life with pain
what can i give
what can i say
its like i should not live
unless i pay
or to you my life i give
maybe next time i will not be home
ill be out on my own
ill go out in the streets and roam
would you even care?
no i dont expect you to
that would be so rare
it would be a miracle... if you do.

"annoyed"
blame is lame
always getting accused
as if it was some kind of game
its used so often its being abused
i wonder if blame will ever end
sooner than i begin
im starting to think its becoming a trend
cant we just reason?
blame go away
your starting to aggravate me
turn around, dont come another day
its a shame that blame is so lame.

"crying game"
not knowing what or who to turn to
even when he is right in front of our face
we treat him like a game
this world is always such a crying shame
only when we are certain to win
we give him proper thanks
and when we fail
we go back to that crying shamebetter known to us as the crying game
we need to learn to trust in the Lord
no matter what circumstance is occuring
stop that strong ambition
that you are trying to achieve
unless you know Christ
you will never be relieved.

"memories awaiting"
memories are waiting and you are not here
why do you care if im not your girl?
friendships last longer and develop you know?
i just want o be your best friend

you say you always wanted that from me
remember that i always have a heart to lend
do not be scared i will always be the same youll see
you will neevr loose a friend like me

you say you want to add a kick into you life
stroll on over if you trip
ill be there to catch you and pick you up
you say you want to talk and have fun come on lets rock!

walk on the beach have a bible study together
Jesus is the only way that can keepus here to stay forever
so lets keep him number one
in our life he will bless us so pray
two new friendships well actaully three
because we trusted in him and believed.

"kill the kitty!"
lord, tonight i went to a show at the theater. and as i was examining your entertaining creatures the film came to life only re-enacting my families life story. i saw just about everything as if it was sort of dejavoo . Lord you know i can only take so much. i dont want to do the things that devour me into eternal earth. Lord my spirit is yearning for another cleansing from you. why do i contradict myself everyday when i know i'm a sinner. i will never be able to please you but through Jesus Christ. through you he has shown me I dont need to try to be a perfect person i can try till sweats of blood trip from perspiring but never can i reach what i want. what i want i do not do but what i hate i do. never again will i try but forever again i will praise you for saving me from these horrible things.

random quotes:
LIFE IS A NEVER ENDING BATTLE YOU GOT TO FIGHT TILL YOU WIN THE WAR
IF YOU ARENT FULLY COMMITED TO THE LORD THEN HOW CAN YOU COMMIT YOURSELF TO ANYONE ELSE?