Blast your way through,
It doesn't matter who you hurt,
It doesn't matter to you.
Nothing is alive here,
Rest your gaze on something,
You can't see,
You never see me.
Wind slaps you in the face,
Darkness weighs down on your shoulders,
And you come out,
Smelling of roses.
You're the voice in my head,
The eyes in the dark I can't see,
But I know they're there,
You are on the edge,
Of my despair.
Fake boy,
Fake girl,
Come and add your sorrows.
Fake lives,
Fake world,
Complicate your mind.
And as,
Pain grows,
A little more tomorrow.
They'll let,
You know,
When you get left behind.
Voices falling through a screen,
The sand flows through the blood,
Gritty cells and pain filled eyes,
Only asking for your lies.
Never watching always wait,
To scared to participate.
In the morning you get hurt,
Again, again, again.
You didn't fall,
You were pushed,
But no one will believe you.
The lights are on,
And about to blow.
The leaves are falling down,
The sky is falling in,
Broken bodies,
Broken minds,
Crawling across a field,
You are in the middle of the chaos.
Like a banana in the trash,
Chewing on your own skin.
Trying to remember and not being able to,
Striking out in your frustration,
Striking yourself,
Stricken and alone.
Scowl at the face in front of you,
And hope it's well received,
Fit into the mould they set,
Be who they want you to be.
Until it gets to much to be,
Acting only from memory,
A memory that's fading fast,
You're stretched out too thin,
To last.
Fickle shallow eyes ablaze,
Hoarding your own,
Your people your things,
It's all the same.
Nothing changes in your own mind,
Desperation leads to masochism,
Masochism leads to suicide,
Life is loveless,
Love is lifeless,
Nothing matters anymore-
Destiny can fucking bite me.
I don't want a part of this anymore.
I want out of it all,
I want to take you with me,
I want to live without air,
I want to breathe your air,
Floating up so high,
That the fall hurts beyond,
Anything I've ever known.
You got me so high,
And dragged me all the way back down,
So I could see how it felt,
So I could feel what you feel,
All the thoughts I've ever had,
I'd give to you now.
I want you in my mind,
I want you to know,
But what I want doesn't matter where I am now,
Nothing can help me,
No one can save me.
Faded by time,
Wilted by age.
Sobered by the depth of my despair,
And all the sadness in your eyes,
Broken by your crying soul.
Speaking no words in your head,
Only in your heart.
I can't reach you there,
I can't get past everything,
I am.
I'm feeling like I'm falling further and further,
And I may never climb back up again,
I feel like I am above you all,
And so far below.
I am nothing .
I am everything.
So many views,
So many lies.
So many contradictions.
Does it all really matter when you make it work?
It never works.
It lulls you into a warm sleep,
And drains you of your blood,
And of everything you are.
I was there again.
I picked up the pieces.
I couldn't stop myself from going back.
The black and white graphic images,
Kept reappearing,
The sun is stuck in between day and night,
Refusing to move either way.
I'm between my states of mind,
Who shall I be today?
The skulls are hidden with the flowers,
But the eyes can see,
What the mind refuses to believe.
If I can't find my way out of here,
I'll have to stay forever,
As the time drips in suspension,
Of the agony in my veins,
As the blood stops ,
And the screams drift away.
Nothing ever seems to make any sense.
